sunday, february 3, 2002

i just had a really bad dream. i dreamt that y died. i woke up, all sweating and my heart was beating real fast. i turned around and saw y still sleeping on the couch next to me, holding my pillow. thank god it was only a dream. ^_^

@ 5:16 p.m. GMT+8
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sunday, february 3, 2002

what a beautiful sunday. i should've taken a walk to the nearest park with my dogs this morning, but i'm feeling a bit tired today. i just recovered from a bad cold and it looks pretty hot outside too.

@ 11:05 a.m. GMT+8
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saturday, february 2, 2002

with y again today. i called a cab and by the time i got to his house, it was raining hard. he thought i wasn't gonna come so he was really surprised to see me. i was with him all day. we talked, watched some tv, slept on the couch. i couldn't imagine how my life is going to be when he's not here anymore. i'm already used to having him around. :(

@ 10:25 p.m. GMT+8
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friday, february 1, 2002

finally i got to see y again. he had lost more weigh than the last time i saw him. no wonder, he hardly ate anything these few days at the hospital. but i'm so happy because he's better now and he can go home today. yuppie!

@ 10:15 p.m. GMT+8
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thursday, january 31, 2002

oh dear god. court told man's sex with goat!

@ 11:55 p.m. GMT+8
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wednesday, january 30, 2002

i can't stand this fever anymore! i miss y so much, it's killing me. i want to hold him again, watch him while he's sleeping, touch his hair and skin. i think i'm losing my mind now, argh!

@ 11:35 p.m. GMT+8
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wednesday, january 30, 2002

my best friend p just came over to see how i'm doing today. we talked about her crush, carlson, yay! the girl's so deeply in love with him! but, isn't he still thinking of his ex girlfriend who's now seeing my other friend, norris? well, i never thought life could be this complicated. anyways, we also talked about y. she said i'm lucky because y's heart is completely for me. haha, doesn't she know that mine too?? ^_^

@ 11:10 p.m. GMT+8
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wednesday, january 30, 2002

i am totally frustrated! it's been three days and i miss him too much now. i have to see y tomorrow, whether i'm still sick or not, even if my parents wouldn't let me go. i know i won't get any better until i see y.

@ 7:11 p.m. GMT+8
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monday, january 28, 2002

see?! now i have to stay at home until the fever's gone. my dad even yelled at me when i insisted to go whether they'd like it or not. but then he seemed to feel guilty for yelling at me, he came to my room and gave me some new magazines to read. i didn't say anything. i pretended that i didn't hear him. i was too upset.

@ 3:21 p.m. GMT+8
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monday, january 28, 2002

two nights with y in the hospital. i didn't sleep well because i had to give him water every 15 minutes, and now i've got a bad cold. i can't stop coughing. my throat feels so itchy. i tried to cough as hard as i could but it only became more itchy than it already is and i almost puked. syiet. now mom and dad won't let me go back to the hospital.

@ 2:25 p.m. GMT+8
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sunday, january 27, 2002

i didn't come home last night. y got really sick and his temperature went so high that we had to take him to the hospital. the doctor said he might've had some bacteria infection and they wouldn't know what caused the infection until 4-5 days after.

@ 2:30 p.m. GMT+8
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saturday, january 26, 2002

i'm so worried. y is not feeling very well so he can't come to my house today. i hope he will get better soon because his voice didn't sound good when he called me on my cellphone this evening.

@ 5:32 p.m. GMT+8
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