I have a very hard time talking about Steffen since justice did not prevail in his drunk driving case, but I think it's important for people to know who he was. Children are special to their parents for certain characteristics. Steffen ccame into my life when I was very young. We had a very special relationship. he wasn't just my son; he is my best friend. Steffen knew when there was something wrong and would just sit and talk to me as if he could comperhend what I was saying. In some ways he was smater than me. Steffen was a five year old little boy with the mental maturity of a grown man. My mother wanted this to be memories and stories of him, but I would rather you know the kind of person he is. Steffen loved children, animals, the sun and the colors of the leaves changing. The weekend he was killed, we had a conversation...he was crying because it was his 'sissers' weekend at Nana's & he missed her already, even though we hadn't even dropped her off yet.On the way home (and we have this conversation many times), he looked at me with those big blues eyes and said, "I'm going to be a little boy forever! I'm going to go live with God because he loves me."I told him never to say that again because if he went to live with God, mom would cry forever and not be able to stop. Then he said, " look Mom. A falling star", and wished on it. he wished that God would bring people back when their familes were sad and missed them. I seriously believe that Steffen was trying to tell me that he wasn't afraid of dying and that he would always be with me whether in life or death. I also believe he knew what was going to happen. (I once had a dream that I was holding him and he was dead.) That night, September 12,1998, as I held him, I rememberes that dream and realized I knew what was going to happen too. God prepared me for the coming event so I could be strong for my son. He also said to me that he wanted a baby brother name Cole. Later that Septemeber I fount out that I was pregnant with a little boy. His name is Cole O'Brien. Steffen gave me the gift of love. I didn't really understand the power of love until Steffen went to live with God. These are the ways Steffen blessed the people arund him, by showing others that how you treat people is more important than the possession you obtain throught life. The world lost a very special little boy the night of September 12, 1998
Staci Surber griffin Steffen's Mommy |