Hah
Setting::: March 07
Feeling::: dying
Hearing::: n/a
Kyle has to update.
It feels like love, but I don't know if hes real or not.
Setting::: December 11, 2004 - 3:35 am
Feeling::: Excited, yet sleepy
Hearing::: Dave Matthews Band - Jimi Thing!
I had the most amazing dream last night. It was like a video game and movie combined, and there was a boy in it who sometimes I was, and sometimes he was the one saving the day; my dream switched between First and Second person narrative. I fell in love with the boy, but the boy... when I woke up, I forgot who he was. And its aggrivating me. I can't decide if he's someone I actually know, or some who my mind created. The only thing I can remember is that he had a gentle face, but when I try and think of him now, I can't picture any of his features. I also remember that he was friends with Robbie.
AUGH! I just want to know! And its so wierd! I woke up with butterflies in my stomach... I'm in love with someone who may not even exist.
But in other news, things have been good lately. I finally feel back to myself again, everything is so comfortable.
And yesterday, my face hurt so bad when I came home: I literally had a permanent smile plastered on my face from the time where school ended to midnight when I came home from Dan's house. Ashley and I were absolutely crazy when school ended, moreso than I think we have been in a while, and then Bill came over, and when he had to go to Iron man, I met up with Dan and was with him for the rest of the day. And hurrah! He helped buy me Bill christmas presents, then we went back to his house, watched the most hilarious simpsons episodes, played video games (holy crap, I think I'm actually a fan of golf now..), had bill over, and then the three of us watched family guy together, and played more video games.
I love people, I really do.
And video games aren't just a hobby, they're a way of life. Heee~
Hey Hey What Can I Do
Setting::: December 6, 2004 - 3:35 am
Feeling::: Precocious
Hearing::: The sound of change!
I've decided to take matters into my own hands. This site has been wrongfully neglected for over a month, and I can't stand by and watch that happen. Not while there are still so many virgin soup fangirls out there who have not experienced the joy and ecstasy of being in Soupy's presence. He is a god among men. I mean, honestly, how many people can fight terrorism from the bathroom? Not many! Women have been known to tremble and cry tears of happiness at the mere mention of his name. To be Soupy is to be wanted. I think I want to be a spy when I'm older.
>_>
<_<
Lazy days go by wayyy too fast
Setting::: October 30th, 2004 - 5:58 pm
Feeling::: shocked
Hearing::: n/a
Geez. Time flies when your playing video games. I woke up at 9 and started playing Zelda: The Wind Waker until about 5:30. I didn't even realize.. And you know! I've been wanting to play this game FOREVER.. but.. its kind of boring really. I'm awful at action/adventure games. I'd rather play an RPG where I just move the characters and tell them what attack to do next. Ah, here's a more simple way to put it: I. SUCK. AT. GAMES. OF. SKILL.
Oh! And we have a new adition to the family! Thats right, and hes now standing right next to me. Everyone, say hello to life-size Legolas! We're going to have so much fun together- I'll dress him up for every season! but right now, it's Halloween!Ninja!Legolas. He fends off my room from indirect enemies.
Setting::: October 30th, 2004 - 11:17 am
Feeling::: shocked
Hearing::: n/a
Open ended
Setting::: October 30th, 2004 - 9:45 am
Feeling::: I can't describe it
Hearing::: Guster - Rainy Day
I'll be honest with you. It's been on my mind for a while.
Do you ever think about someone whom you haven't spoken with for quite some time; but instead of memories, it's a nagging sort of feeling, telling you that something isn't quite right with that person? Since last month, when my mom told me she was feeling the same thing, we've both been worried about Tyler. But then again, I used to always worry about that kid.
This morning, I woke up early, and for some reason, I couldn't fall back asleep, so I go to the computer. And he was on. So we talked. After his mom died, he's moved in with his girlfriend. He started a new band, and he now has two jobs- of course, he still works all the time. I still really, really hope he goes to college, but... I didn't get to ask if he even still wants to. Tohru always heals
Alexia: Jason, are you in, by any chance, the mood to dance?
And so, despite the fact we had no idea even how to waltz, we did. And it was glorious.
My favorite quote: "Everything is alright in the world" - Kaitlin.
Lets stay together.. itsumo
Is there such thing as a quarter-life crisis? Because I'm fairly certain i'm experiencing one.
For the first time, since maybe two or three years ago, I've decided I don't like who I am. Well, more specifically, how I've been acting as of late. Maybe its because I haven't watched Fruits Basket in (around) a year, or have been reading less, journaling less, loving less. But whatever the reason, it's awful. I've been getting angry, jealous, judgemental, and upset even more so than ever before. Perhaps its because i'm finally deciding what to do with the rest of my life, and the uncertainty scares me. Perhaps it's because the year's ending, or perhaps even, maybe its just me losing my grip on reality.
'Quarter-life crisis' also fits because I've become entirely too nostaligic. Living in the past is something I certainly don't ever want to do, and it seems to me that I have been. Also, I have a sinking feeling that I'm sugarcoating the past as well. Since when have I had a happy childhood? Or maybe these are old memories that have finally decided to resurface after so many years.
Thats it. This needs a cure. If I don't like who I am, I'm going to change. I now summon my powers of great intellect to help me come up with a plan of action. With my high IQ, I should encounter no trouble in succeeding.
Who am I kidding? I'm going to have a Fruits Basket marathon tonight; Tohru always reminds of what I want to become.
P.S. I've discovered the reasoning behind my fondness for commas! I've only just realized, not only can I not speak in complete thoughts, but I also seem to have trouble thinking in complete thoughts as well. My thoughts are often so abstract and unrelated that I find it difficult to stay on one track. The commas signify the pause in my mind while I quickly try relocate my original thoughts and remember what direction they were heading in.
Just a quick point of emphasis:
*bleeds everywhere and cries*
A Day of Katamari Damacy (and equally unrelated topics)
I woke up this morning and the first thing I thought was 'I'm bored with my life.' Huh. Not to say that I don't like my life, I most certainly do. I don't know, maybe it's just one of those days.
ACTs were today, and I successfully signed up too late. Absolutely wonderful. Not going to six flags today, my cousin has soccer at 7 tonight ~_~. I have no idea what we'll be doing instead. Definitely not homecomming, though.
Also, Kaitlin suggested I see a nutritionalist. Maybe there is something wrong with me. I virtually have no short term memory, i'm always seemingly out of it, can't focus, can't sit still, and maybe this has nothing to do with anything, but i'm so clumsy that getting hurt/running into things/tripping/breaking things has become a natural constant for me.
The only thing that frustrates me anymore, besides my mother, is my own self.
Off to bed...
Today was a fantastic day of sorts. It was refreshing, and comforting, and you know, it just made me so happy. I'll be the first to admit, I'm god awful at at the game, but good lord, I had so much fun. I didn't even mean to stay that long, but Bill had his friends over for some all-night Halo and I got to play until a quarter till 11. I had so much fun that it didn't even bother me that I had to leave early. I left bills house with a smile on my face and once I got home, I indulged in a little Sex and the City. And now, five episodes later, I'm going to call it a night. So goodnight everyone, and sweet dreams
Our Discovery: "the kind that blindsides you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday"
Have you ever felt that life was just so right even though a million things are going wrong and your getting yelled at from all directions? Maybe its only for a moment, but it's there. The feeling is unignorable, it fills your body with so much love that you're nearly bursting from the seams. It's overwhelming, and fanastic, and utterly serene.
For me, it's those little flickers of absolute peace with the world that like to creep up and take over when my guard is down and i'm absolutely unsuspecting.
I love these moods the best.
Bad decision, bad decision
I really need a shower.
Actually, I need sleep more than anything else.
Who's idea was it to stay up this late?
I just... can't start my homework. It just doesn't work. Its like some cruel joke, tricking my body, making it think that its the weekend and I have another two days to get things done. But alas, such is not so. I do infact have school tomorrow. And yesterday was our 2 month.
2 Months is an extremely long time to be with someone, but I still can't figure out if it seemed shorter or longer than it really is.
All I know, is that school is PWNING me. I want to do my government work, catch up, get it over with, and actually do good in that class. But even when I do try, I fail.
And is this Gary Oldman singing? I'm sorry Gary Oldman, I love you, but you sound a bit drunk.
And I wonder. Would I consider myself a mean person? I'm feeling particularly empty at the moment.
I'd cheer, but I might colapse
Hmm, I don't think i'm too fond of this layout, actually. Looks a bit tacky. *shrugs*
So I sit here, tired and exhausted
Setting::: October 26th, 2004 - 6:32 pm
Feeling::: Immense love
Hearing::: Fruits Basket Sountrack - Chiisana Inori
Jason: Well, I don't know how
Alexia: Let's Waltz!
Setting::: October 26th, 2004 - 3:10 pm
Feeling::: exhaustion
Hearing::: DNAngel Soundtrack - Hajimari no Hi
Setting::: October 25th, 2004 - 12:00 pm/October 26th, 2004 - 12:00 am
Feeling::: pain
Hearing::: Frou Frou - Let go
NEVER PIERCE YOUR OWN EARS AGAIN!!!!
Setting::: October 23, 2004 - 1:00 pm
Feeling::: Bored and an unexplainable quiet sort of sadness
Hearing::: OCRemix: Crono Trigger - When All Hope Has Faded
Setting::: October 17, 2004 - 2:15 am
Feeling::: Gloriously sleepy
Hearing::: Semisonic - Chemistry
Setting::: October 15, 2004 - 12:25 am
Feeling::: Content
Hearing::: Counting Crows - Colorblind
Setting::: October 14, 2004 - 2:57 am
Feeling::: really, really sleepy
Hearing::: The Postal Service - Such great heights
...oh. Mine. Right.
Setting::: October 13, 2004 - 4:15 pm
Feeling::: LOTS of neck pain
Hearing::: Travis - Love Will Come Through (still...-_-)
Finally, its up. Now all I have to do is fix the scrollbar colors, but actually, I don't feel like it now.
Setting::: October 13, 2004 - 3:11 pm
Feeling::: neck pain
Hearing::: Travis - Love Will Come Through
Whoosh, I'm tired. This layout took me two days ~_~. Now I finally have motivation to update.
