Karen Tells Sonny About Ray
thank you MBC for contributing the pics and
the transcripts!
Background: Sonny was showing Karen how "magical" she is, and popped in a tape of her performance. When he took they tape out, they spoke a little while longer before Karen realized that Ray Conway (the man who molested her) was sitting downstairs at the bar. She tried to run out of Sonny's apartment, but he wouldn't let her
S: (hugging her) "It's
okay Carrie."
K: (pulling away) "No, it's not." (She walks away. Keeping
her back to him)
S: "It is. You… you're here with me. You're safe. Whoever he is, this guy
can't get ya."
K: (shaking her head) "You don't understand."
S: "So make me understand."
K: "No, I can't."
S: "Yes you can! Let me take care of you. Does this… does this guy hurt
you? Did he knock you around?"
K: "No."
S: "Did he make a move on you?" (Karen doesn't answer)
"That's what happened, isn't it? He forced himself on you. Is that what
happened?"
K: (turning to him) "No, I can't tell anybody."
S: "It's not as… I promise you, it's not as bad as you think."
K: "You don't know! You don't know who I am."
S: "LISTEN to me. Secrets, they're bad. They eat at you deep inside. Now if
you don't tell me I can't help you."
K: (pleading) "Please Sonny, please."
S: "You gotta let it out. You gotta let it out. It's okay, come on. Sonny's
here. Sonny's here."
K: (walks away from him) "It's all my fault. I'm so ashamed."
S: (walking towards her. Throws his hands in the air sorta [you guys have
seen him do this before!] and groans) "Tell me."
K: "I was bad. I could've stopped him and I didn't. I didn't." (walks
into Sonny's arms. He holds her and they sit on the couch. Her head is on his
chest) "I didn't stop him."
S: "That's right. Tell me what happened. It's okay. Come on." (Karen
is crying)
K: "He would come into my room and lock the door. He would tell me things
like how pretty I was and how smart."
(While Karen is talking, they show Sonny's face every so often. He's getting
pissed, but he doesn't do anything but comfort her)
S: "Did he touch you?"
K: "Yes."
S: "Where? Where did he touch you?"
K: "All over. Everywhere. His hands were all over my body."
S: "Did he have sex with you?"
K: (crying) "Yes. Over and over and over again."
(She gets up and walks away. Sonny stays on the couch and looks up at the
ceiling. When he looks back down he's got that calm look on his face, but he is
MAD!)
Scene 2
(Sonny gets up from the couch and looks at Karen. She turns away)
K: (her back to him. She crosses her arms in front of her) "How can
you stand to look at me after what I just told you?"
S: (walking behind her) "Sometimes we uh… we do things and later
on we regret them you know. I understand that."
K: "I feel so dirty. I should've never told you that."
S: (shaking his head) "You did the right thing."
K: (shaking her head) "He told me never to say anything. He said I
liked it."
S: (unbelieving) "Did you Carrie? Did you like it?"
K: (quickly turning to him) "No! No, I didn't stop him. But..."
S: "Did you tell your mother?"
K: "No, never. I didn't tell anybody. I didn't ever tell anybody. You think
I should've?"
S: "Well who am I to say, you know? You… you did, you know, probably what
you had to do, right?"
K: "You hate me now don't you? Now that you know that I'm a bad
person?"
S: "Of course not. I can… I can never hate you. You made a mistake, you
know?" (shrugged) "Everybody does."
K: (shaking her head) "Not like this. Sometimes I even hate myself.
I look in the mirror all the time. It makes me sick." (She walks towards
the couch and sits down)
S: (looking at her. Walks over and sits) "Hey, you have a beautiful
face Carrie. You gotta stop beating yourself over… over something you can't
change. You have to go on. Put it behind you."
K: "I don't know how. How?"
S: "Talking to me, that's a start. Sharing your secret with somebody who
cares about you."
K: (looking down) "I shouldn't of told you."
S: "I'm glad you did. You will be too."
K: "Please don't tell anybody, cause if you do then they… then they're
all gonna know what kinda person I am."
S: "Nobody's ever gonna know 'cause I won't tell them. You can trust me
Carrie." (She looks at him and then looks back at the screen. Sonny
stands up and walks towards the phone) "Yeah. You see that man at the
bar? Yeah. The one with the beer. Get him out of here. I don't want his
business. Not now, not ever. No, no. Just do it." (On the screen we see
someone pulling Ray off of his seat and taking him away) "You see that?
He's gone." (turns off the TV) "And he's never coming back.
Now, no matter what happens now, you're safe with me. I'll make sure of
that."
Scene 3
S: (gives Karen a drink) "You okay?"
K: "Mm hmm." (looks at the drink) "What is this?"
S: (shrugs slightly) "Just drink it." (She takes a sip and
then drinks it all before handing the cup back to him. He looks at it for a
second and then places it on the liquor cart)
K: "I'm sorry."
S: "What are you… what are you sorry about?"
K: "I don't know. Um… I just… I just feel so ashamed."
S: "Hey, most people don't get it, but you and me are soul mates. You know
what that means?" (she shakes her head) "It means we understand
each other and it means I will NEVER judge you."
K: "I don't see how you can't."
S: "Hey I understand. I've been there. Well not… not exactly where you've
been. But there are other things I'd… I'd rather forget too."
(she looks at him questioningly) "I
had a stepfather. He used to knock me and my mother around. Then one day, I
realized I was bigger than he was and I didn't have to take it anymore. So I
knocked him into a China cabinet and that was the end of that." (He
smiles slightly)
K: (smiles) "I can't knock Ray into a China cabinet."
S: (smiling) "Maybe not, but you can take that memory of what you
did with him and knock it right out of your head."
K: (shaking her head) "It's not that easy." (sits on a arm
chair)
S: (squats in front of her) "Sure it is. It's about control. Control
of your own mind… of your space. Like when you were dancing, remember? I saw
the way those men were looking at you. You… you had them. Control… that's…
that's what it's all about. It's right there for the taking. All you gotta do is
grab it."
K: "I don't know where to start."
S: "Start right here with me. I'm gonna take care of you. I'm gonna make
you safe, and I'm gonna make you happy." (He pulls her to him gently and
hugs her)