Okay I really have had absolutely no time to write. Just wanted to say that and that I’m sorry for the incredible delay in my stories.

Now I began this right after I realized that they had completely screwed up Jax’s departure. Don’t you think someone could have mentioned to Sonny that Jax thought Brenda was alive? Okay, maybe they did, I stopped watching like two days later. I apparently have serious anger towards the show; they want me to hate all of my favorite characters so I have decided not to watch anymore (that and I have no time anymore). Well here’s my little story it takes place I don’t know in a few months I guess, it’s winter out and of course the weather is awful, hey it’s NY, the weather sucks (can you tell I’m a bitter and cold New Yorker?) Well I hope you enjoy, I’m gonna try to find some time and energy to work on my other stories soon. Thanks for reading.

Simple As That (Sonny, Alexis, Jax, Brenda) Short and Complete

Sonny~

Alexis nearly bursts into the penthouse, she’s out of breath and her hair’s messed up from the harsh winter winds.

“What’s wrong?” I ask as I approach her to help her out of her coat. She raises her hand to signal that she needs a moment to catch her breath.

“The elevator’s out” she says gasping

“So what’d you do? Run up the stairs?”

She nods and before I can ask my next question she answers it also “The phone’s are out too.”

“And whatever this is couldn’t wait?” I question, <I>what could be so serious?</I>

She shakes her head and finally says what she came here to say “He wasn’t wrong, she’s alive.”

I just look at her for a moment and then I realize what’s she’s saying and it hits me like a brick wall. He was Jax and that meant Brenda was alive? Is that was she was trying to say? Could that be it? “Brenda?” I don’t know what else to say besides that. I’m afraid that I sound foolish when I say it out loud, <I>how could that be right? How could she be alive? </I>

She nods her head and I close my eyes, Brenda, my beautiful, amazing Brenda. “She’s alive Sonny, but barely…her mind.” It’s now Alexis’ turn to close her eyes, I wish I knew what she was thinking, there had been such pain her eyes before that’s now present on her face. <I> What happened to Brenda? What could be wrong with her? Nothing could be wrong…She can’t be telling me Brenda’s alive and…I don’t know. The thought of something being wrong with her…when I finally hear the words I’ve longed to hear for over two years…No nothing can be wrong. </I>

“What is it Alexis?” I say forcefully, she can’t just leave it like that…I need to know…I have to, she’s all that matters…she’s all that ever really mattered.

“Jax found her a little over a month ago, she didn’t know who he was…who she was…they didn’t realize it was a defense mechanism and they forced her to remember. They tell me she’s even worse than she was after you left her…I’ve never seen anyone like this, it’s like everything’s just crumbled down around her, she goes from hysterical, irrational crying, to screaming, to rocking, to not moving for hours. She nearly jumped out of a window two weeks ago, right after she had a full flood of memories. Jax is beside himself to say the least.”

<I> Jax </I> I’d nearly forgotten about him, I forgot that he was the man she loved, the man she’d planned to marry. “Why’d you come to me?” I say, not caring about the pain in my voice, it destroys me to think of her with him forever, but it destroyed me more to think of her gone forever.

“While I was there she grabbed me and I looked down into her eyes as she asked “Why doesn’t he love me anymore?” She was talking about you, not Jax.” Alexis brushes tears out her eyes, I can barely see through my own, they are more than just clouded and I don’t care, appearance means nothing anymore. “Jax pulled me away from her and I asked him how often she said that; he said that she’d been repeating it the whole time, even in her sleep before she remembered. He just kept saying that she’d be fine, if he just gave her enough time…that everything would be okay again. But Sonny I looked into her eyes and she doesn’t love Jax, as much as it pains me to say that, she doesn’t love him and I don’t think she can pull through this without you. I know you’re married and I know you want it to work, but you owe Brenda this.”

“I love her” I say softly

“I know you do and I’m not asking you to leave her, just help Brenda before she hurts herself.”

“No” I say shaking my head, <I> How can she not understand? </I> “I love Brenda more than the world. I’d give up my own life for hers in a second.” I say this so peacefully, the pain and anguish I’ve lived for years is disappearing, “I don’t care about anything anymore, just her, just being with her. I’m not alive without her.”

“Oh Sonny” Alexis says finally understanding

“Where is she?”

“The Port Charles Hotel, the penthouse below Jax’s old one.”

“Will you come with me?”

“Of course.”

<HR>

I don’t know what I’m feeling anymore as I knock on his door, all I know is that in a matter of seconds I’ll be seeing her again, even if it means killing Jax to get to her. That’s sounds harsh I know, but I have to be with her. We’re two parts of a whole, she’s that little spark of life that’s makes everything worthwhile. I don’t know if what I feel is a sickness, if it’s unhealthy or not natural. All I know is that I’ve slowly been dying without it…

“Corinthos” Jax says with distaste as he opens the door

I go to push past him but he stops me, we both turn to Alexis “I thought I told you to give me more time” he says to her

“Time’s up” I say to him

Alexis nods her agreement “She needs him Jax, you know that.”

Jax goes to say something but then I hear her cry and shove past Jax with superhuman strength, I nearly knock him over running in. He yells something but I don’t hear it, I just see her shaking on the couch “Why?” She cries out, then she looks up and sees me, only how she looks up at me, I know she doesn’t see me as being real. “Why did you leave me? Why can’t anyone just love me? What did I do?” she yells at me and continues to shake.

It leaves me stunned for a moment and I just stare “I’m sorry” I say not moving with tears in my eyes <I>How did I hurt her so bad, when all I wanted to do was love her? </I>

She looks at me in shock; her hallucinations had certainly never done that before “Sonny?” she chokes out

“It’s me baby” I say walking over to her. She touches me softly and looks up at me in shock “I’m here, I’m not leaving you again.”

She just looks at me before she finally stands up and hugs me, she takes a deep breath and says “Oh god” and she starts to cry again.

“It’s okay Bren, it’s okay” I say rubbing her back, trying to calm her down, I’m completely peaceful now that’s she’s with me. “Come on let’s get you out of here.”

I turn her to walk out of the penthouse, and I see Jax standing before us. “Don’t even think about it Sonny, she stays with me, you did this to her.”

“Don’t you understand Jax, I know I did this and I’m the only one that can undo it. We need each other, it’s as simple as that, you’ve seen how we function without each other, we don’t.”

“I’m sorry Sonny, but I can’t let you take her.” He says forcefully

“Jax please” Brenda says weakly

“Bren, it’s for your own good.”

I shake my head “Johnny” I say, calling my ever faithful and always present bodyguard and he steps in front of Jax.

“Go ahead boss, I’ve got him”

I walk Brenda out of the room and out into the hallway, I’m carrying her weight basically because she’s slumped against me. “It’s gonna be okay baby.” I just keep repeating as I get her into the elevator. I don’t know what else to say, all I know is that I’m gonna do everything in my power to make her well again. No matter how many doctors it takes, no matter how long, she will be well again. Right now all I have to do is figure out where we should go right now. I can’t go to the penthouse because that is where Carly lives. I find it shocking to realize that I’ve barely thought of her up until now. She’s my wife, I love her or at least I thought I did. I look down at Brenda whose face is pressed up against my chest and I realize that she’s the only true wife that I’ve had in my heart even though we’ve never been married. I know this will hurt Carly, but I can’t let Brenda go again, not for another fake marriage. I just hold her close to me and let the worries leave me for a moment. All that matters now, all that will ever matter is we’re together and it’s gonna stay this way forever. It’s as simple as that.