As I walk along these streets
I see a man that walks alone
Distant echo of peoples feet
He has no place to call his own
A shot rings out from a roof over head
A crackhead asks for change nearby
An old man lies in an alleyway dead
A little girl lost just stands there and cries
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything for granted like you do?
A boy just 13 on the corner for sale
Swallows his pride for another hit
Overpopulation there's no room in jail
But most of you don't give a shit
That your daughters are porno stars
and Your sons sell death to kids
You're so lost in your little worlds
Your little worlds you'll never fix
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything for granted like you do?
You turn away
As I walk along the streets
Soaking up the cold rain
Underneath the taxi cabs
I hear the streets cry out in vain
What would you do, if it was you
Would you take everything for granted like you do?
Pressure
I just need this to be alright
I can't feel this another night
I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
If you need me I'll be here
Half unconscious to escape my fear
I can't take this I come unglued
I might breakdown in front of you
necessary to medicate
I'm not sleeping, can't stay awake
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
My head hurts this shit isn't getting me high
My chest is so tight am I going to die
My stomach's in knots and the room starts to spin
As I wait for this valium to slowly kick in
Can't see through this
Too much pressure
Drowning in this
Too much pressure
TOO MUCH PRESSURE! ---------
Fade
I try to breathe
Memories overtaking me
I try to face them but
The thought is too much to conceive
I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness that my life became 'cause
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
So where were you?
When all this I was going through
You never took the time
To ask me just what you could do
I only know that I can change
Everything else just stays the same
So now I step out of the darkness
that my life became 'cause
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made
I never meant to fade... Away
I NEVER MEANT TO FADE
I just needed someone to talk to
You were just to busy with yourself
You were never there for me
To express how I felt
I just stuffed it down
Now I'm older and I feel like
I could let some of this anger fade
But it seems the surface I am scratching
Is the bed that I have made I try to breathe...
It's Been Awhile
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me
And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile Since I said I'm sorry
Change
If ever you had said to me before
That I would live this life that I am
Living now I guess it's all so strange
To feel the way I do inside but
Have so much that I could feel some
pride for in my life so why is it that
I feel like this
How do I feel? I've been here before.
I've felt this.
Retreat to a place, a place within.
I need this. Keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me to torment again and
torture me like it used to.
I try and try to break away from all the hate
I'm feeling for every one of you that's ever done me wrong.
I need to justify the reasons for the way I'm living. I guess I can't 'cause
I don't feel like I deserve it
How do I feel? I've been here before.
I've felt this.
Retreat to a place, a place within.
I need this. Keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me to torment again and
torture me like it used to.
So now the waves they have subsided
And my soul is bleeding I can't take away
the shame I feel. Forgive me.
How do I feel? I've been here before.
I've felt this.
Retreat to a place, a place within me.
I need this. Keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me to torment again
and torture me like it used to. AGAIN!
Can't Believe
Respect
Respect is what is found
Respect should be abound
Respect everything that you leave
(I can't believe)
Can't Believe
And I, I can't believe
I can't believe all the travesty
Surrounding me, I , I want to flee
I want to flee from everything In front of me!
Can't Believe
Never again, trusted in you
Fuck everything you think I should be
I stand, never again, never again
Can't Believe
Epiphany
Your words to me just a whisper
Your faces so unclear I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the thing's I should have said
So I speak to you in riddles because
My words get in my way. I smoke the
whole thing to my head and feel it
wash away 'cause i don't take anymore
or this, I want to come apart.
or dig myself a little hole inside
your precious heart
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
I am nothing more than a little boy inside
That cries out for attention
though I always try to hide
'Cause I talk to you like children,
Though I don't know how I feel
But I know I'll do the right thing If the right thing is revealed
'Cause its always raining in my head
Forget all the things I should have said
Suffer
Suffer
The more you see the more you do
The television's feeding you. With what
You want to hear, anger and fear, because you suffer
The hate you feel won't go away you're all programmed to
feel this way to live another day within a world
That loves to suffer
And then I come to find everything's O.K. seen this all
before but that was yesterday. I try to walk right
through the messes that I've made just let me enjoy
the life here that
I've made I've tried to give it all to you. Can't take anymore to do
with this. It hurts inside. I know why I hide 'cause
I suffer
I tried to keep it all inside didn't leave me too much
pride forced it all down inside forced myself to make
me suffer
And then I come to find everything's O.K. seen this all
before but that was yesterday. I try to walk right
through the messes that I've made just let me enjoy
the life here that I've made
And then I come to find
Warm Safe Place
Another day
Inside my world
I'm married to
you and this road.
A road that never lets
me sleep .
So theres no way to escape the
demons I am forced to keep.
And then I find you here
Through your eyes
Everything's clear
And I'm home Inside your arms,
But I'm alone for now.
I mean the best
with what I say.
It doesn't always
sound that way
I never learned to
Work things out cause
In my family all we
Ever seem to do is shout
But then I find you here
Through your eyes,
everythings clear
And I'm home inside your arms,
but I'm alone for now.
And when I try to sleep-
the drugs I take
are killing me - I think of you
to ease my pain –
but you're so far-
Now it's time to say goodbye.
I love you baby
please don't cry –
'cause then I'll find you here –
Through your eyes everythings clear –
and I'm home inside your arms - but I'm alone for now.
But then I find you here
Through your eyes,
everythings clear
And I'm home inside your arms,
but I'm alone for now.
For You
To my mother, to my father,
It's your son or it's your daughter,
Are my screams loud enough for you to hear me?
Should I turn this up for you?
I sit locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence gets us nowhwere!
Gets us nowhere way too fast!
The silence is what kills me
I need someone here to help me
But you don't know how to listen
And let me make my decisions
'Cause I sit here locked
inside my head remembering everything you've said
The silence gets us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere to fast!
All your insults and your curses make
me feel like I'm not a person
And I feel like I am nothing but
you made me so do something
'Cause I'm fucked up because you are
Need attention, attention you couldn't give
I sit here locked inside my head
Remembering everything you've said
This silence get us nowhere!
Gets us nowhere way to fast
Outside
And you
Bring me to my knees
Again
All the times
That I could beg you please
In vain
All the times
That I felt insecure
For you
But I leave
My burdens at the door
But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside your ugly
Your ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All the times
That I felt like this won't end
Was for you
And I taste
What I could never have
It's from you
All the times T
hat I've tried
My intentions
Full of pride
But I waste
More time than anyone
But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside your ugly
Your ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
All the times
That I've cried
All this wasted
It's all inside
And I feel
All this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie
Here in bed
All alone
I can't mend
But I feel
Tomorrow will be OK
But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside your ugly
Your ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you
Waste
You mother came up to me
She wanted answers only she should know
Only she should know
It wasn't easy to deal
With the tears that rolled down her face
I had no answers 'cause
I didn't even know you
But these words
They can't repace
The life you...
...the life you waste
How could you paint this picture?
With life as bad as it should seem
That there were no more options for you
I can't explain how I feel
I've been there many times before
I've tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
But these words
They can't repace
The life you...
...the life you waste
Did Daddy not love you?
Or did he love you just too much?
Did he control you?
Did he live through you at your cost?
Did he leave no questions for you to answer on your own?
WELL FUCK THEM!
AND FUCK HER!
AND FUCK HIM!
AND FUCK YOU!
For not having
The strength in your heart
To pull through!
I've had doubts!
I have failed!
I've fucked up!
I've had plans!
Doesn't mean
I should take
My Life
With my own hands
But these words
They can't repace
The life you...
...the life you waste
But these words
They don't replace
The life you... THE LIFE YOU WASTE
Take It
I feel like this won't go away
no matter how hard I try
to squeeze my eyes shut
so i can't see the pain
in you this pain in me - in me
But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it
I know that I am really not here
to represent what I am not clear
About in my head sometimes
I feel fucked up just like you do - like you do
But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it
Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
It know it
'cause I once felt that way
Nothing I could say
Made it go away
I lived through this
I still feel this
I just live for my tomorrow
Make it go away
Just make it go away
She'll make it go away