So as I said the year 1991 was pretty difficult for me but I graduated and then had plenty of time to think about my life. I was still living with my parents but it really didn’t bother me because my mommy was the best mom in the world…I loved talking to her and we had so much fun together. It was almost like we were the best friends. Unfortunatelly my dad wasn’t spending much time at home. He was film-maker and he was always working on his movies, which were always sooo cool- I loved watching them. At that time I had a boyfriend…his name was Bradley and we had been together so long. I thought he was the best guy ever…he was really sweet. We planned to get married after my graduation and have many kids, cute house and stuff. But he had to leave before my finals and nobody knew when he would get back. At first we were in touch and then …

The phone was ringing…I ran out of my room to pick it, but when I was running downstairs, I tripped and fell down…

“Fuck!” … I got up and picked the phone… “Hello?” I said, waiting for response.

“Alex? Hey, it’s Bradley…”

“Aw, hey, sweetie, I missed you…how are you? Where are you? What are you doing?” I was so glad to hear him because I missed him so much.

“I have a surprise for you…guess what? I’m coming back in 2 weeks. Ain’t it wonderful?” He said in one breath and I really couldn’t believe it…

“Oh my gosh…are you serious? This is great…wow…that’s so cool.” I was so excited, we talked a bit more and then I hung up and went back to my room. Nobody was at home so I was waiting for my parents to arrive because I really wanted to tell them about it. They liked Bradley and I was sure they would be happy just like I was.

One hour later my dad came home. When I heard him come, I went downstairs [slowly this time, because I wasn’t about to fall again] and I saw his face. Something was definitely wrong…my dad was SMILING! …it was weird because I’ve seen my daddy smiling once…it was when my brother came home in time … ONCE.

“Hi, daddy, are you okay?” I asked in a low voice…

“Darling, I have great news! I got a great job…I’ll be working on a new movie…it’s really cool. We will film it near the city and I can say that it will be the best movie ever.” he said.

“Oh, that’s great, dad. And what is it about? Do you know the leading man yet?” I asked…actually I was really curious, because daddy’s movies were always amazing…my dad hated sappy love stories and commercial movies - just like me so I supposed this movie had to be pretty good.

“Well, the truth is that I’m not the first director but just being working on this movie is wonderful. It’s about Chaplin’s life and the leading man is Robert Downey Jr. …I suppose you know him…”

“Oh, I heard about him…people say he’s pretty gifted…okay, anyways…I have great news too. Bradley is coming back in two weeks so I think we’ll get married soon…”

“Who will get married soon?” My mom walked into our house and we started to talk about my future with Bradley and about dad’s new film…That evening was really wonderful.

The next week my dad started working on the film and my mom was at work too so I was spending all my time at home and the more I was thinking about Bradley, the more nervous I got. I called my friends but many of them were enjoying their free time and they weren’t at home. The next day I decided to do something so I asked my dad if I could go with him and see shooting of the movie.

When we arrived there my dad got out of the car and we headed to the set. He tried to introduce me to all people but it was impossible. I didn’t pay attention for awhile because I was looking around and then I heard someone talking to my dad.

“So, how you doin’ today?”

“I’m okay, what about you? Ready to film?” My dad asked and then looked at me and continued: “Almost forgot, this is my daughter Alex. Alex, this is Robert Downey Jr.”

“Nice to meet you, Alex.” He said, smiled and shook my hand. I don’t know what happened to me, but I remember being absolutely unable to do something.

“Um, yeah, same here…” I finally said and tried to make it better by starting conversation. “So, um, do you like this job? It’s quite cool role, isn’t it?”

“Oh, yeah, it really is…Chaplin was amazing, I love his movies and it’s honor to be playing him.”

I didn’t even notice that my dad had gone but Robert smiled again and continued: “And what about you? Do you plan to have a role in this movie?”

“Oh, come on, I’m not an actress. I’m a lawyer. Or rather I’ll be lawyer when I get a job…” I smiled.

“So what are you doing here? Just watching?”

“Yeah, I didn’t have anything better to do…” I grinned.

“Okay, I should better get going but I hope you’ll watch ME filming, okay?” He looked at me and I couldn’t say anything else but YES.

Actually I spent whole day there, just watching them filming, talking to my dad, to another people and to Robert. I found him really sweet guy. It was fun talking to him. They finished shooting at 10 pm and I started to look for my dad. I couldn’t find him so I asked some people and they told me he was in cutting room. I went there and I really felt like going home and getting some sleep. I don’t know why but I was pretty tired. But my dad was busy man and couldn’t go back home…

“I’m really sorry, sweetheart, but I need to get my work done. Can you please take a taxi and go home by yourself?”

“Yeah, sure…so bye…”

I heard my daddy saying NIGHT but I was already on my way out. I found my cell in my purse and was about to call for taxi but then I heard Robert talking to me…

“Hey, um, your dad is staying here and if you wanna I can drive you home. I live in the hotel and it’s near your house, it’s my way so you don’t have to use taxi and spent the whole way with weird taxi driver.” He proposed and smiled again what made me have butterflies in my stomach.

“No, thanks, I don’t want to bother you so it’s okay…” I tried to object…

“I said you didn’t bother me since it’s my way. Come on, get in the car, okay?” He opened the door for me and I finally got in.

At first we drove in silence but then I asked…

“Actually, how do you know where my house is?”

“Because I’m watching you all the time!!!” He whispered and looked at me, and suddenly I felt scared…

“I’m kidding…hehe, got’cha…” he laughed… “Your dad told me where you guys live. Your dad is cool guy..I mean it’s fun with him and he’s really good film-maker. I like him.”

“Yeah, my dad is the best.” I agreed.

“So, what about your plans for future?” He asked.

“Well, I’d like to join a good law firm, I’d like to get married and have kids…nothing interesting.” I responded.

“Oh, it is interesting. And how many kids do you wanna? Ten? Eleven?” He asked and looked at me while driving.

“NO!!” I said almost yelling…

“Oh god, twelve? Do you wanna twelve kids?” He slowed down, gave me strange look but I could see he was kidding…at that point I burst out laughing.

“No, I don’t wanna ten, eleven or twelve kids…I think two are enough.” I said still laughing.

“Okay, that’s nice…anyways we are here so it was my pleasure to drive you home and I hope to see you tomorrow on the set. Gonna be there?” He asked.

“I don’t know…my boyfriend is coming back soon so I need to prepare, you know.”

He stopped the car in front of our house and looked at me. “Um, so you have a boyfriend…that’s fine, I mean, I’d like to see you again on the set but if you really don’t have time I think it’s okay…so will you come or not?” He was looking directly into my eyes and I looked away…something was definitely wrong with me. I was feeling weird…

“Okay, I’ll think about it and maybe I’ll come. Thank you for driving me home. I enjoyed myself today.” I said.

“So did I.” He answered, looked at me and I kissed his cheek and got out of the car…

“Night, Robert.” I said and moved towards our house…

I woke up at 7 am. I was dreaming about Robert the whole night.

“What the hell is wrong with me? That guy has weird effect on me.” I said to myself and went to bathroom to take a cold shower. Then I went downstairs to our kitchen.

“Morning!” I said and looked into our fridge. I took apple and juice.

“You should eat more…this is not breakfast.” My mom always thought I didn’t eat anything just to be thin but the reason was that I hated big breakfasts. It was really gross.

“It’s okay, mom, I’ll have big lunch.” I responded and sat at the table.

My dad stopped reading newspaper and looked at me. “So, how was your way home? Did you take a taxi?” He asked.

“Um, actually Robert drove me home…he lives in the hotel near here.”

“That’s fine, anyways, are you going with me again today?” He asked me and waited for answer.

“I don’t know, should I?” I didn’t know what to do…Robert was really sweet but I was afraid, if I spent one more day with him I would fall for him. It was so easy to fall for him.

“Okay if you are going with me you should hurry up because I’m leaving in 15 minutes.” He said and started to read the newspaper again.

“Fifteen minutes? Okay I’ll get dressed. Make sure to wait for me, okay?” I said and ran upstairs. I took the best jeans I found in my mess and my T-Shirt. Nothing cracking, but I didn’t care that much. My dad was already waiting for me in the car. I got in and I started to think about Robert and Bradley and stuff. I was in trouble. I didn’t know Robert at all but I felt like being in love with him so much.

“What are you thinking of?” My dad asked.

“Um, nothing much..just Bradley and his comeback.” I said but I wasn’t in a mood for talking about it with my daddy. He was great but that was something I needed to solve by myself.

“So, what do you think about Robert?” My dad changed the subject which made me feel better because I didn’t have to talk about Bradley.

“Well, the truth is he’s really cool and the way he’s playing Chaplin is amazing. I think he’ll be BIG, BIG, BIG actor…” I smiled.

After 10 minutes we got there and my dad looked at me: “Honey, today I don’t have any time to be with you so I suppose you know it here and you will have good time…I’ll try to find you later and we can go home together but I’m not sure about it. If you feel like going home sooner you’ll have to take a taxi. See ya…”

“See ya, daddy.” I said but my dad was already heading some people waving to him.

I looked around and caught a glimpse of Robert. “Hey, how you doing?” He asked and when I saw Chaplin’s make-up on his face I had to smile.

“Wow, you look…um, wonderful…” I said and touched his mustache… “Is it real?” I joked.

“Yeah, when I woke up this morning it was already on my face…don’t know what to do about it.” He said and continued… “So, are you staying the whole day? I hope you are.”

“Yeah, it seems so because my dad is leaving late in the evening and if I want to go home with him I have to stay. But I can take a taxi anyway.”

“Well, he needs to stay because we are shooting only in the morning and then actors have free time and directors have conference or something like that.” He explained.

“Okay, so I’m taking taxi…I won’t wait for him so long…” I said but Robert had already another plan.

“Um, I thought we could have lunch together after filming. I haven’t had breakfast yet and I’d like to spend some time with you to know you better.” He proposed and I agreed.

After shooting Robert came to me and asked me to wait for him.

“Well, we can go now if you don’t mind that I look like Chaplin.” He said and I just smiled. He left and I was standing there alone. Then some woman came to me and started talking. I didn’t have a clue who she was but soon I found out she was probably Robert’s date or ex or I don’t know.

“Look, I don’t know who you are and I don’t care,” She said “Robert’s mine and I don’t like the way you are hanging around him. Is it clear?” She was talking and talking and I was just standing there, thinking this woman was weird and at that time Robert came to us.

“What are you doing here? I don’t remember asking you to visit me…what do you want?” He asked and for the first time I saw him pretty angry.

“I came here to make it up with you, Rob. Please, give me one more chance.” She begged him but he didn’t seem like paying attention.

“I don’t care, do me a favour and leave…goodbye.” By the time he finished his short speech he took my hand and we left. I looked at that woman again and she looked really pissed. I wondered who she was and what happened between the two of them.

“So, Casanova, who was the woman?” I asked.

“Does it matter?” He probably didn’t want to talk about her. “She was just someone who … um, it really doesn’t matter.” He said and I didn’t want to bother him so I didn’t say anything…I had no right to ask him about her or another stuff.

“Okay, anyway, where are we going?” I asked just to change subject and not to make him feel uncomfortable with conversation about that woman.

“Well, I thought about one Chinese restaurant near the beach. Do you like Chinese food?” He asked and smiled again. I was really glad to see him smiling because everything seemed to be okay.

“Sure I do like Chinese food. Let’s go…” I said.

We were sitting in this amazing restaurant and talking about my life and his life…it was so cool. I actually forgot about Bradley for the first time. I was thinking about him all the time but when I was with Robert, Bradley seemed to be a bit unimportant. I knew I shouldn’t have spent so much time with Robert but he was so cool. When we finished our meal we decided to take a walk. We were still talking and I was really glad that I had an opportunity to meet him and spend some time with him.

“So what are you doing tonight?” He asked while walking.

“I don’t know yet, why?”

“I dunno, I was just curious…” He smiled and continued : “Maybe we could have dinner together and I don’t know. Whatever you want to do. What do you think?”

“Um, Robert, it’s sounds really good but I think spending so much time together isn’t the best idea.” I responded in a low voice.

“Yeah…your boyfriend…look the truth is that I really like you and I like spending time with you. You’re really nice girl and it’s fun with you. But if you feel bad for spending time with me there’s nothing I can do about it.” He said in one breath.

“Well, it’s not that bad, you know, I’m not cheating or something like that. It’s just that…” I stopped talking and thought about it. He invited me to have lunch with him, then he asked me to have dinner together…we had so much fun together and there was still something we could talk about. And besides he was cute, hot and it didn’t make it better….I was in…

“So, why didn’t you finish your speech?” He asked and interruped my thoughts.

“Oh, I’m sorry, I was just thinking…” I responded.

“What about?”

“Stuff…”

“But you were talking about us and I’d like to hear what you actually think about us, Alex.” He said and I realized he had said US…I didn’t think there could be any US.

“Um, I wasn’t talking about us…I was just…look Robert, now I’ll probably make complete fool of myself but that’s what I do almost every single day so it’s probably no big deal.”

“Go ahead…” He said and looked directly into my eyes. He stopped smiling and was pretty serious.

“I think right now I’m falling for you which would be okay if I didn’t have guy and if you wanted it…I mean me…I mean…oh, shit I’m not good at this stuff.” I think my face was as red as catsup and I wanted to run away…but before I could do anything he looked into my eyes and then kissed me. It surprised me but somehow I started to respond his kisses. I always thought Bradley was good kisser but Robert was definitely better. We were kissing gently at first but then the kiss became more urgent and passionate. When I pulled away I didn’t know what to do.

“Um, I’m sorry if I did something wrong…” He said and looked almost shy…ALMOST.

“Robert, I think I should go home…I just…I should go. Bye.” I said, turned and then walked away. I heard him calling me but I didn’t pay attention. I needed to go home.

When I got home my parents weren’t there. I think it was the first time I was glad to be alone. I went to my room, sat on my bed and started crying. I know I was silly and I didn’t have any reason to cry but the truth is I was feeling like a shit because I knew I was in love with Robert…I felt really bad for Bradley but it was stronger than me. I was just sitting there and hugging my teddy bear. I was absorbed in my thoughts when I heard the door bell ringing. I thought that my mom or dad forgot keys but they were supposed to be back later. I went downstairs and opened the door…

“Hey, I know you probably don’t want to see me anymore but I think we should talk…” It was Robert.

“Look, I don’t think talking will make it better…maybe you should go.” I said and tried to close the door but he didn’t let me do it and stepped into our hall.

“Okay, you don’t have to talk but there is one thing I need to tell you.” He said and looked around… “Should I talk here or you’ve got a room?”

“I do have room but I think you can talk here.” I said and looked away because I wasn’t able to watch him anymore. He was so gorgeous.

“Okay…Alex, thing is that I know you have boyfriend and you probably don’t want to know me anymore but when I kissed you today I realized you were the best girl ever. I know that the kiss wasn’t the right thing but you were responding my kisses and I thought you liked me and maybe we…”

“I wasn’t responding your kisses!” I started to yell but I knew I was lying as hell.

“Oh, I’m sorry, but you were!” He said and smiled.

“No, are you crazy? I could never respond your kisses because I love Bradley too much to cheat on him…” I kept lying.

“Yeah, I’m sure you love him but you were responding my kisses and that means something.” He said.

“I wasn’t…okay? Can you leave now?” I walked over to the door and opened it.

“No, I didn’t tell you that one thing I wanted to talk about.” He came to me, closed the door and continued… “Maybe this is useless but I think I’m falling for you and I’d like to do something about it. I understand you don’t want to destroy your relationship with your guy but I don’t want to waste my chance of being with the best girl I’ve ever met either.”

I didn’t know what to say…I was standing there and before I could do something he opened the door and said “Now, I’m done…if you feel like doing something about it, call me…bye Alex.”

I watched him leave and I started to cry again…I needed to think about everything.

I spent the rest of the day and night thinking about Robert and what he said. I knew that being with him would make me happy like I’ve never been happy with Bradley but I couldn’t ditch Bradley…not after our long relationship. I couldn’t be that bitch. I was thinking and thinking and finally I fell asleep. When I woke up I was again alone at home. I went downstairs to our kitchen and decided to eat something because thinking made me very hungry. I sat at the table and caught a glimpse of a note there.

Sweetie, you were sleeping like a baby so I didn’t want to wake you up but I think you should know that I’m leaving today because of work. I’ll be back on Monday so I hope you and daddy will last out these days w/ out me…lol… take care, Mom

As I read it I realized that these days I was gonna be here alone since my dad spent at home only a little bit of his time. I decided to call him…

“Hi, dad, I’m sorry if I’m bothering you but I’ve just found this note that mom wrote and I want to know if you are coming home tonight.” I said and looked at the wall clock…it was already 5 pm…I slept really too much.

“Hi, honey…you know it’s starting to be really difficult here…we have so much work and I think I’ll stay here whole night. But if you don’t want to be alone there I can get back.” He said.

“No, it’s okay, I’m not little girl that needs someone to care for her anymore…maybe I’ll go out.” I responded.

“Fine, just be careful, okay?”

“I will…bye dad.” I said and hung up. Then I decided to watch TV. I went to our living room and switched on TV. I tried to watch it…I really did but it was so silly and I couldn’t stop thinking about Robert. Finally I turned it off and went back to my room. I started to dress myself and then I put my make-up on. I went out of our house and headed to our garage.

After 10 minutes I was driving like in a trance to the nearest hotel. I got off the car and headed to the hotel where I asked one receptionist if Robert stayed there but she didn’t want to tell me anything about him. I tried to talk her into telling me the number of his room but she didn’t want to. I gave up after another 10 minutes and was about to leave when I heard someone calling my name. I turned and saw Robert who was already coming to me.

“Hey, um, so you did come here to see me…I think that’s a good thing.” He grinned.

“Well, I was just curious, which hotel you were staying at.” I responded and wanted to leave. When I was driving here I was intent on telling him about my feelings for him but now he was standing in front of me and I couldn’t say almost anything.

“Okay, so now you know…is there something else you want to tell me?” He asked.

“Actually, yes…how is it posible that you don’t work and my dad does? Did they fire you?” I joked.

“Well, there isn’t any work for me tonight…” He responded and continued. “But you seem like you want to tell me something, am I wrong?”

I gave up: “Nope…I need to talk to you, Robert.”

“Okay, we can go to my room instead of standing here in a hall…” He proposed and somehow I agreed.

When we got there and he opened the door I was amazed. I think I’ve never seen more beautiful room.

“Come in..” He said.

I walked there and didn’t know what to say. I didn’t know why I was there and I really didn’t feel like talking to him about stuff.

“So, what did you want to tell me, Alex?” He asked and also asked me to sit.

I sat on the bed and looked at him. “Actually, I don’t know what to say.” I admitted.

“Okay, so what are we going to do about it?” He asked and sat next to me.

“I dunno.” I said.

“Me neither.”

We were sitting there in silence…after 2 or 3 minutes I decided to leave…

“Okay, if there is nothing we can talk about…” I said. “I think I should go.” I headed to the door but he didn’t let me go. He took my wrists into his palms and looked at me…

“Alex, you came here to tell me something…please, do it…just say that and I will let you go. If you want to.” He said.

I looked into his mesmerizing eyes and I felt like telling him everything… “Okay, I came here to tell you that I was thinking about it and I realized that I couldn’t be with Bradley after I met you. You’re…I don’t know why you made me fall for you so quickly but it’s just that although I don’t know you much I think you’re the only guy I can be happy with…which is too bad because you are an actor, you will get your job done and you will leave. And I won’t see you anymore. But now I feel like kissing you is the best thing to do.” I said and kissed him.

We started to kiss each other but it wasn’t like our first kiss on the beach. It was much more passionate and much longer. When I pulled away I smiled at him and so did he…

“There is one thing I need to tell you.” He said… “I don’t have to leave you when I get my work done…I can stay with you if you want me to.”

“Yeah, that would be cool. But I need to find a way how too tell my…um, how to tell Bradley that I won’t marry him and I won’t be with him anymore.” I said.

“When is he coming back?” He asked and pulled me into his arms.

“Almost two weeks…” I responed.

“Okay, so we have two weeks to be together and not to think about it…when he comes back, we will tell him, okay?” He looked at me and then kissed my forehead.

“Yeah, sure…” I responded.

“So, what do you want to do tonight? Do you want to go to a restaurant and have dinner? Or we can stay here, in my room and have dinner here…what do you prefer?” He asked and grinned.

“I think having dinner here sounds great…” I responded.

He ordered meal and sat next to me on the bed… “We can watch some movies, if you want…” He proposed. “What about Forrest Gump? It’s great movie…”

“Yeah, I love Forrest Gump…It’s the best movie ever.” I responded.

“Hey! What about my movies?” He exclaimed.

“Oh, almost forgot…Forrest Gump is the best movie right after your movies…is that correct?” I asked and smiled.

“Exactly..” He said.

After 20 minutes we were eating our dinner, watching Forrest Gump and I thought this night couldn’t be any better. When the movie finished we decided to lay on the bed and talk … the truth was that we were talking only a bit before starting to kiss each other again. We were kissing and suddenly he pulled away…I looked puzzled but he just smiled and said : “Look, Alex, I’m very glad that we are together, here…but I think we shouldn’t rush things so maybe we could go for a walk or do something instead.”

“Sure…” I was a bit disappointed but I didn’t want to rush it either so I agreed.

We spent the rest of the night walking in the city, sitting in the park and at 5 am he walked me home.

“It was beautiful night, Alex…thanks…” He said.

“I should thank you, Robert…it was beautiful ‘cause of you.” I responded.

“Okay, I agree…it was ‘cause of me…” He grinned and kissed me. “I think you should get some sleep.”

“I will, but I’ll come tomorrow to watch you film…okay?” I said.

“That would be great, see ya tomorrow then. Night, Alex. Or should I say morning?” He smiled, kissed me again and walked away.

When I woke up 6 hours later I was really happy...I remembered the last night and I really had to smile...I knew it...ROBERT WAS THE ONE. I was thinking and thinking but my thoughts were interrupted by the phone...I went downstairs and picked up the phone...

"Hello?" I said ...

"Can I talk to Alex, please?"

"It's me..." I answered and was curious who was talking to me...

"Hi, I think you don't know me but I'm Bradley's friend...I just wanted to tell you, that Bradley wanted to be with you sooner so he got already back..."

"Um, wow, that's cool...where is he?" Actually I wasn't that glad because I wasn't ready to tell him about me and Robert.

"Well, that's the problem, he's in a hospital...he had an accident...nobody knows if he is okay...the doctors don't want to tell us anything...I think you should come here." He said and gave me the address of the hospital. Suddenly I forgot about everything, I just wanted to know if he was okay.

After ten minutes I got there. I was looking for his room and then I saw his parents...

"Aw, Alex, we're so glad to see you here..." Bradley's mom said.

"Yeah, I'm also glad to be here, do you know anything about him? Is he going to be okay?" I asked in one breath.

"Yeah, we've already talked to the doctor and he told us that he seemed to be okay, but there is a possibility that he won't walk. There's something wrong with his spine." His dad said and I saw his wife with tears in her eyes. It was really terrible.

"At least we can talk to him...you can go there if you want to. There are some of his friends with him but I think he'll be really glad to see you, Alex..." His mom said and I headed to his room.

I opened the door and saw him lying in the bed. I started to cry. He looked so sad.

I stayed with him and we talked. He told me he was so glad to see me and I really couldn't tell him about Robert. After 15 minutes doctor came and told Bradley to get some sleep...I left the room. I went to buy coffee and my cell started to ring.

"Hello?" I said.

"Hey, sleepy head, yesterday you told me that you would come on the set and I've been waiting soo long for you...Were you sleeping, baby?" Robert asked and I knew he was smiling. I started to cry again...

"I wasn't sleeping...I'm in a hospital.." I tried to say but I was crying so hard and I couldn't speak at all.

"Oh my god, what happened? Are you okay?" He sounded really worried. I didn't know if I should have told him what happened...I didn't know what to do...I was lost. I wanted to be with Robert but on the other hand, I really couldn't dump Bradley. Not now.

"Yeah, I'm okay...." I managed to say. "It's Bradley..."

"Okay, I'll tell your dad and we will come.. which hospital are you in?" He asked and I told him.

After another 15 minutes I saw Robert waving at me. My dad was with him. They came to me, dad hugged me and Robert stroked my hair...

"Are you really okay, sweetie? What happened?" My dad asked.

"Bradley had an accident...something is probably wrong with his spine. We don't know much yet." I said. My dad told me something more and went to Bradley's parents.

"You look tired... is there anything I can do for you?" Robert asked me and pulled me into his arms...I didn't know if that was the best idea...I didn't want Bradley's parents to see us. I was feeling a bit uncomfortable and Robert seemed to realize it and stepped back... "What's wrong?" He asked.

"Nothing, I'm just tired and really worried." I responded.

"Alex, you know you can count on me, right? I'll be here always for you." He said and kissed my forehead.

"Thanks..."

I stayed in hospital for the rest of the day...my dad and Robert had to get back to the set so I was with Bradley in his room and we talked.

"Alex, I missed you so much...I wanted to surprise you but I was driving too fast. Oh my god...but I'm so glad that we can be together now. Maybe I won't be able to walk for some time but I'll be at rehab and everything is gonna be okay...I love you..."

He talked more and I just was listening to him and didn't know what to say...I couldn't ditch him...I definitely couldn't...

When doctor came and told me to leave, I said goodbye to Bradley and decided to visit Robert...we had to talk. I went to his hotel and straight to his room. I knocked on the door and he opened. He was wearing blue jeans and white T-Shirt...he looked so gorgeous but I had to be strong...

"Hi, Robert, can we talk?" I asked in a distanced voice.

"Of course...come in..." He opened to door for me to come in and made me sit on the bed...he kneeled in front of me and looked into my eyes... "So, is Bradley better now?"

"Yeah, I think he feels better but the fact he can't walk is awful enough. But that's not what I wanted to talk about. Partly. I think we....um, well, we should..." I tried but I really couldn't get those words out of my mouth.

"What? You don't want to break up with me, do you?" He asked and moved closer to me.

I looked into his mesmerizing eyes and started to cry again. "I'm afraid so...Bradley needs me...I love you, Robert, but thing is that we barely know each other and it won't hurt that much if we break up now. Bradley needs me."

"I need you too, Alex. Further, he's got a family to look after him and to be with him. Please, don't do this...think about it and..."

"Nope, Robert...I think that's the best thing to do." I said but I knew that I would regret it. "I should go, now."

I got up and moved towards door, but Robert took my hand and made me look at him. We were looking into each other's eyes...I knew what he was thinking of... it was the same with me... We started to kiss each other...It was a hungry kiss but in a way it was so soft... We made our way to his bed and started to take off our clothes. I knew it would be the best experience in my life...

After making love he pulled me into his arms. I stayed with him and when he finally fell asleep I left.

Since that night I haven't seen Robert anymore. He finished filming Chaplin and left the city.

I got married with Bradley, he was going to rehab everyday and everything was fine...

But I just couldn't let myself to forget about Robert... I had to keep him in my mind...