With a shiver, she tried to pictures herself a few hours ago...Robert and her. They barely closed the door behind them and she was offering herself without...thinking. When he touched her, she completely lost control. His hands where everywhere, touching her like he never touched her, like nobody ever touched her, in fact. She remembered unbotonning his shirt, feeling the urge to feel his skin on her. He was pressing his body against hers, his hands going lower and lower and then coming back to her breast until she couldn't take more and moaned: "I want you." They never make it to the bedroom. In fact, it happened right against the door. They couldn't think about comfort or even take their time.

They couldn't think at all...

"What did I do?" she repeated to herself, still feeling the warmth of his touch on her body. "What was going on with me?" she sighed feeling confused about her emotions. "I could have just say no.... Oh! No...I couldn't...He was too...

tempting...

"Ok what if I try to sleep now? It's 4 am. If I could just close my eyes and forget..."

But, she couldnt. Robert was lying down beside her.

Robert woke up with a smile He took a look to see if Calista was still beside him, but she wasn't. He raised up and but back his clothes.

"Calista?"

She was in her kitchen reading the news papers looking concentrated or trying to look like she was. She was already dressed.

"Hi you" he said softly entering in the kitchen.

"Oh hi" she replied feeling his heart stopping.

She couldn't help but stare at his chest exposed by his opened shirt. She felt warm just to look at him. Almost painfully, she tried to focuse on his face... but the way he was smilling wasn't quite helping.

"You're up early" he said trying to replace his hair.

"Well...hey, we got a shooting this morning."

"Oh! Geez! I completely forgot!"

He sat at the table in front of her, his hand holding his head.

"By the way. Why are we acting like nothing happened last night?" He asked, his deep browns eyes looking directly at her.

She raised up almost spilling her coffee.

"Oh... That was unexpected" she responded with a weak voice.

"I have to admit that the first time was very surprising... That wasn't my intention. I just wanted to talk to you but...you were so...hot."

"I wasn't myself..."

"After that I remember you invited me in your room but, it wasn't to show me the wallpaper."

"Robert! Please...this is too embarassing. I...I remember all of... it."

Like their little "moment" in the hall wasn't enough, she had to invite him in her room where they took off the rest of their clothes. This time Robert was tender and sweet. She saw the two poles of his personnality. First the "bad boy", taking her with passion and then the sensitive guy, caressing her like she was the most precious thing in the world.

"You want a coffee?"

He captured her wrist in his hand as she was trying step back. He couldn't help but notice that she wore no makeup. Her hair was shinning and he remembered how much they were soft.

"You're so beautiful..."

"Robert...huh... I'm a little confused right now and i'm...late for work."

"Okay"

"I may need a little time to think about...it. I need to think. Huh... Think.. That's what i'll do..." she repeated, shaking her head.

"Okay" he repeated calmly, hiding a smile.

Slowly he let her hand go.

"Okay" she whispered.

"Do you mind if I take a shower?"

"No go ahead!" She replied, breathing normally at last. "I'll go to the set anyway. I... I'll meet you there."

"Okay before you go... where is your bathroom?"

Calista was in her lodge, retouching her make up. Someone knocked on the door. It was David.

"Hi! How are you?"

"I'm fine...you David?"

"Fine too. I hope you had time to rest. Feeling any better?"

"Oh! Yeah..."

"Robert called. He'll be a little late."

"W...Why are telling me this?"

"Well we could start the shooting but you would be talking to a wall."

"Oh" she said unable to hide her relief.

"Actually, I came to see you to have your consent."

"What About?"

"About asking Robert to sign for more shows"

"Oh it'll be fine. I don't see Ally without Larry. They became too close..."

She couldnt help but stare at her lipstick, hoping that David wouldn't notice that her cheeks were burning up.

"What about his court hearing?"

"We'll deal with that. I guess the viewers may need some time. They are too much into Larry. It would be unfair to write him off the show. And since Robert is amazing..."

"I know" she replied with a sigh.

"I wanted to ask you something Calista. I may be curious but..."

"Oh no!" she thought.

"That chemistry you to have...I mean...Is there something going on between you two?"

"No" she answered trying her best to act like there was nothing to hide. "No...No...We're just friends that's all."

The little voice in her head was laughing, hysterical. "Yeah friends. The kind of friend you show your wallpaper to!"

"Oh sorry! I was just curious."

"Knock knock" someone said.

Robert opened the door with a huge smile on his face. Calista almost strangled.

"Hi David! Calista...hi!"

"Hi Robert" said David.

They shook hands.

Calista could barely speak.

"Calista how have you been? Feeling okay?"

"I...huh..."

"I was so worried when you fainted."

"Oh...that...huh..."

David was looking at Robert and Calista alternately with an amused smile. He knew about Robert visiting Calista to the hospital. Jane had told him. In fact, all the cast and crew knew there was something going on between them. Since the beginning, they were witnesses of a relationship growing stronger between these two, on screen and off screen.

"I'll let you two catch up. Let's say we begin the filming in about twenty minutes..."

He closed the door behind him.

Robert took his coat off, staring directly at Calista.

"Hi" she managed to reply, raising up herself and looking at the floor.

"Hi" he said moving closer to her.

He lifted her head up with a finger, almost forcing her to stare back at him. She was melting just so close to him.

And he had that smile...

"I think you forgot something this morning..."

"W...What?"

She was holding her breath.

"A...good morning kiss" he whispered caressing her elbows with his soft hands.

"Oh! This... is..."

"Calista" he said tenderly.

"This is too...dangerous." she replied trying with unconvincing hands to push him away.

But it was too late, his lips was already capturing hers. She couldn't help but response to his kiss.

"Now...I know it'll be a good day" he said, smiling.

"I...I said i needed to think about it" she hesitated.

She let out a sigh.

"You'll have to kiss me on the set anyway. Let's say it was a practice" he joked.

"Please Robert. Give me some time to think about it."

"That's Okay. I understand. I don't want to push you. I mean, if it was just a one night stand to you... I..."

"I don't know..."

"No! It's okay anyway..." he repeated a little disappointed.

The shooting of the scenes was a sucess. Calista tried to give all she could. The emotions Ally was supposed to feel seeing Larry leave, she was feeling them. Robert was again, amazing. Professionnal between the scenes and intense during the shooting. They had to kiss again but for the camera. It felt weird this time. Robert stepped back right after the director yelled Cut.

"So...I'll see you after the christmas break" he said walking to his car.

"No! she replied, following him. "I ..."

He turned around.

"I think we should talk about what happened... but here is not a good place..."

"Yeah" he said.

"Come to my house tonight okay? We'll talk about it."

"Okay"

They didn't talk much...

That night in her bed Calista was looking closely at Robert. It was amazing how he looked peacefull and young when he was sleeping. She tried to read on his face all the things he has been going through but it didn't show. All she could see, was that light smile that made him look vulnerable and touching.

Softly she let her fingers touch his eyes then slide down to his nose.

"Downey..." she whispered tenderly. "What are you doing to me?"

"Are you sure you're okay about this," Calista asked, taking the coffee that Mrs Smith offered to her.

"You know", Mrs Smith said trying to sit back on her couch despite her huge belly. "Some of my relatives totally desagree about me giving this baby for adoption."

She touched her stomac with a smile and continued: "Some says that it's just a money thing. That I should have moral issues... but I don't..."

Benjamin, Mrs Smith's son stopped playing with his toys and clinged to sit next to Calista. He was three years old, blond and constantly showing his teeth while he was smiling.

"Mama says that she'll buy a big big big pool," he said with his eyes sparkling.

"Benjamin!"

"That's ok Mrs Smith", Calista replied, noticing that she was blushing.

She turned around a little bit to face little Benjamin who was looking at her with those enormous eyes.

"A pool! That's fantastic! Are you a good swimmer?"

"I'm a champion", he declared, happy to have her attention. "My dad says that someday, I'll go to the olympics."

"Oh! You are?"

"Benjamin and his sister Mary are taking swimming classes since they are babies. Benjamin is doing pretty great. My kids really would like to have a pool and maybe a piano. These are little dreams that I will offer them plus...scolarship placements for their future."

"I understand", Calista said nodding.

Mrs Smith's eyes followed Benjamin while he went back to his toys.

"My kids are amazing."

"Yeah", Calista sighed.

"You know what I like the most, Ally? Not that I don't like being a mother...The thing is...I really like being pregnant! I like the feeling that it brings. During all of my five pregnancies, I've felt happy like I never thought I could be. I don't know how to describe it.

Calista tried to picture what it would feel like to be pregnant but she couldn't. "I hope someday I ll have that chance." she said to herself.

"I know what the joy of becoming a mother brings. I have have four amazing children. I guess I wanted to share that joy with somebody. I know that I can trust you, Ally. I know that you are a kind woman. I can see it in your eyes. You will be a good mother."

Calista cleared her throat.

"You called me Ally. Not that it didn't happen before. I'm used to it but... I want you to know that i'm not Ally McBeal. I'm more rationnal not... huh...neurotic. I'm...."

"Oh! Gosh! I called you Ally! I'm so sorry. You know I've been watching the show since the beginning!"

"That's okay..."

They talked a little more about parenting. Mrs Smith showed pictures of her children to Calista. They were absolutely beautiful and looked happy. Calista realised how much she was looking forward to see her baby. Calista was about to leave. Mrs Smith took her hand in hers, looking in her eyes. Calista could swear that she was on the edge of crying.

"The baby is due in two weeks. You can come in the delivery room if you want. I really would like you to be there."

"Oh! This is so sweet to ask me to be a part of this..."

"Just promise me one thing."

"Okay..."

"Promise me to take him right away okay. It would be easier for me to not look at him."

They hugged. Tears in their eyes. They both smiled at each others.

"I know you will love him, Ms Flockhart."

Calista closed the front door behind her. Mrs Smith opened it the second after that.

She sadness went off of her eyes.

"Before I forget. I have a favor to ask you. Could you do something for me?"

"Anything!"

"I just wanted to know if you could get me an autograph of Robert Downey Jr. He is such a wonderful actor", continued Mrs Smith, blushing a little. "And he is so...What was that....word you used to describe him when you were talking with your roomate?"

"Yummy?"

"Yes! Yummy! That was so funny! I know that he completed his filming but if you happen to see him. Could you just ask him for an autograph? That would make my friends so jealous!"

"I'll see what I can do!" Calista replied with a giggle.

A few days later Calista had to prepare the arrival of the baby. She went shopping and had to buy every single baby thing. She was also excited about decorating the baby's room. Even if she could afford the service of a house painter, she wanted to do it by herself. The other point was that Robert offered his help.

While she was waiting for him to arrive, she found herself very thrilled about it. She changed clothes several times, replacing her hair and finally decided to wear a black stretched undershirt with Adidas pants. She put a little make up on.

"God! It's not a date! You are about to paint the walls!" she said to her reflect in the mirror. "That's not a big deal."

The door bell rang and her heart jumped. She ran to the door and opened it with a large smile.

"Hey Downey!"

"Hey You!" He replied stepping inside. He was wearing blue jeans and a white t-shirt. He was so sexy...

Everytime he came to her house, they didn't know if they had to kiss, so they were usually staring at each other, waiting for the other one to make a move. But neither could.

"I think I got all we need", he said finally breaking the silence. "Let's see...we have a six pack of beers, a radio and pizza. Everything we need."

"You're already hungry?"

"Oh yeah!" he said with a sexy smile.

As usual being with Robert was fun and exciting. While they were painting, they were joking and he was singing along with the radio. Robert was actually a good painter. He wanted to paint the ceiling with touch of blue and white. It finally looked like a sky with white clouds. Calista was really surprised by the result.

"You want a beer?" Robert asked while he was painting the skirting boards.

"Nah! I don't like beer! The last time I took a few of ones... I threw up the whole night. Well...It wasn't a few beers...I've drank maybe ten or eleven beers in two hours.

"God! Calista! That not a way to drink beer! You have to savour it!"

"Disgusting!"

He laughed.

"Don't laugh okay! I would be able to drink it, if I want to."

He crossed his arms with a amused smile.

"Ok", she replied taking a beer. "Watch this!"

She opened the bottle and started to drink it. She was holding her nose with two fingers to avoid tasting it.

"You're so cute", he said laughing even louder.

"Do you think he will love me?"

"Who?"

"The baby?"

They were taking a break between two layers of paint. Calista forgot the idea to drink an other beer. Her head was turning anyway.

"Of course he will. How couldn't he not love you?"

"Maybe he'll know that i'm not his real mother. Maybe he'll feel it."

"Calista you are the sweetest woman... There's something in your eyes... I don't know. He will fall in love with you... I have no doubt about it!"

"Mrs Smith said something like that too."

"Well you see!"

Robert helped her to stand up as a romantic song beginned on the radio.

"Dance with me, Calista"

She smiled and wrapped her arms around his neck. They started dancing cheek to cheek Robert began to sing in her ear.

When I need you,
I just close my eyes and I'm with you,
and all that I so
want to give you,
It's only a heartbeat away

Slowly he pressed her a little more against him. All she could think of was Robert s soft voice singing that romantic song and his hands around her.

When I need love,
I hold out my hands and I touch love,
I never knew there was so much love
keeping me warm night and day.

He let his nose touch her cheeks, slightly. Now his hands were caressing her back going up to her neck. She could feel his breathing in her ear.

She was melting.

He leaned his head closer to her. She closed her eyes waiting for him to kiss her.

He put his lips on hers and she felt his tongue...but for just a second.

He stepped back like nothing happenned.

"Hey!" she exclaimed, disappointed.

"We better finish to paint" he simply said, searching for his paint brush.

"Hey! Are you teasing me? I mean... are you playing games with me?" she asked her hands on her hips.

"No...no...i'm not."

"Yes you are!"

He started to paint the wall distractly.

"No...Why are you saying that?"

"You had something in mind", she said feeling her cheeks burning up.

"No! Did you?"

"No!"

"Were done", Calista said with a sigh. She looked at the walls. It was perfect.

"No. I don't think so, Robert replied drawing a coat of paint on her back.

"AAAhhhh! What the hell are you doing," she screamed half surprised, half angry. She could feel the paint running down her back.

"Body painting", he simply responded coming closer to her.

He had that sexy smile, she now knew.

"Oh! But...But it's wall paint!"

"It's acrylic...washable...don't worry! Maybe I don't need a paint brush after all" he continued.

He threw it on the floor.

"Maybe I'll just use my..."

"Your fingers..."she said in a whisper.

"Hmm hmm..."

"Oh!"

She sat on the floor. Then, he began drawing on her back. His fingers were soft. She didn't care about her clothes or anything else.

"I really like painting you know. I did a few while I was in jail." Robert said concentrated on what he was doing. "It brings a feeling of...liberty. You don't know what you can create until you finally decide to let yourself be inspired."

"Are...you inspired right now?"

"Hmm...very inspired."

Calista closed her eyes, savouring the feeling of his fingers.

"And what are you drawing on my back?"

"Well...it looks like a storm or...I don't know. You can't do much with two colors. You want me to draw something on a body part you could see?"

She noded, trying to catch her breath.

"Why...why not!"

He chose her shoulder. She raised her head to look at him. He was really serious, soaking his fingers in the paint seal then drawing something on her skin.

With a finger he made her undershirt's strap slide down. His dark brown eyes started to spark.

"You are a great subject you know. I could paint you anywhere."

"Oh..."she whispered.

His hand slided to touch her breast.

"Downey...you are really...playing games with me now."

"No... I'm not", he repeated his lips going down to her belly button.

She moaned. This was too much. She couldn't take it.

"Am I supposed to resist to this?" Calista asked.

"Now it's your turn", he replied ignoring the question.

He took off his t-shirt.

"Go on...paint me."

She giggled and put her full hand in the seal. Then she let her hand caress his chest. He started to unbotton her pants, drawing with paint on her legs. That was torture for Calista. She wanted him so bad. She was feeling warmth in her whole body.

He helped her to took off her undershirt.

He was standing there just breathing next to her. His eyes on her breast and then back to her lips. There was so much desire in his eyes.

"Downey..."

"Hmmm?"

"What are you waiting for?" She managed to ask.

Robert raised his head to look into her eyes. He had that sexy smile again.

"Downey...make love to me."

He moved on top of her, finally giving her that sensuous kiss she had been waiting for. With feverish hands, they finished to undress. Calista held him tightly, moaning: "this is crazy, this is crazy" Soon they became one.

"Why is that everytime we make love I always feel like I should take an appointment to see a physiotherapist the day after? Ouch!"

"Hmmm...Let's see...Maybe a bed or even a couch would be more comfortable," Calista said kissing his neck and rubbing his shoulders.

They were taking a bath together. It was first, to remove the paint they had all over them but then, they had to made love again.

"My back hurts. Just a little lower... okay there...hmmm..."

She laughed.

"I just can't believe that you had paint on your tongue!"

"Don't tell me", he mumbled. I was just thinking of how your skin had a great taste and then...Jesus!"

"You can taste it anytime you want."

"No! never again!"

"I mean...my skin" she said starting to nibble his shoulder.

"Oh! That...I really don't mind!"

He turned over to kiss her.

"You know, I could stay forever in that bath with you," he whispered looking at her with sweet eyes.

He put bubble bath on the top of her nose.

"I'm afraid we would shrivel up", she replied softly.

"Calista...It feels so good to be with you. I..."

She put a finger on his lips. Suddenly she was looking sad, like she had a shadow in her eyes.

"Robert where are we going? I mean...Do you seriously think that this could work?"

"Yes, I do," he said, "you dont?"

"I don't know. A part of me wants to believe that it could work..."

He took her hands in his.

"I think we have everything to work this out. I mean, we have complicity, we have fun together, we can talk about almost everything and there's...passion. We have everything!"

"Passion...hmm...it's scary."

"Why are you scared?" Robert asked with concern.

"Because..."

She looked down for a while. When she raised her head up to look back at him, she had tears in her eyes.

"You're wrong! We don't have everything, There is one thing missing..."

"Calista..."

"TIME... That's the thing that we don't have! We don't have TIME ahead of...us."

He felt like his heart was broking in pieces. There was the unsaid thing. He had tried to forget about the whole jail thing. He had been working on himself But there it was...the possibility that he could face four years of prison.

"That's why...I'm scared", Calista replied. "And there an other thing, Robert..."

He raised his head, alrealy expecting the worst.

"There's someone else."

Robert was paralysed.

"What do you mean? Someone else?"

"Garry," she said.

"Garry? Garry Shandling? But I thought... it was just a gossip thing but.. why? How?"

"That's not just a rumor. I've been seeing him for about a year."

Robert raised up, grabbed a towell and got out of the bath.

His face was pale.

"And...what do you mean by seeing him? You mean...sleeping with him?"

"It...it happens..."

"It happens! He gasped. "If Viagra is on sale or what?"

"Robert, please, don't get mad okay? Let me just explain to you..."

"No! I don't I don't want to hear it. I don't...I was such an idiot! I didn't see it!"

He got out of the bathroom, searching for his clothes. She went out after him when she found a towell to wrap in.

"Robert!"

"Now listen to me! I don't mean to be possessive in any way. It's not like we are engaged or... Maybe we don't have much time ahead of us. But here's the thing....I love you Calista and I don't want to ignore it or just regret it for the rest of my life....because what I feel for you is real and it's the only thing that keeps me from going back to drugs. The only thing that gives me hope..."

He was just about to leave.

"If you are too scared to let yourself be loved. If you are too scared to admit that you love me too...fine!"

He slammed the door behind him.

He was gone.