not much of an update, ive been feeling guilty about not updating it, but what do i owe to you, the reader of this specific passage? nothing, so i shouldnt feel the way i do.
girls will remain an enigma to me, for all of time, i suppose guys werent supposed to understand females, but i feel i have a better understanding than most. i do figure girls out, and that is better than most i've heard, but i never tell the girl that i have her number, because i did that once, and got yelled at alot. but no matter how well i have a girl down, there comes another one, who is such an enigma to me. and im never frustrated with learning their ways, education is key to anything. thats the second period i used this update. i dont know, if anyone wants to email me their thoughts about girls, (guys or girls can apply) send it in, id love to read it, and hell, advice is accepted gladly too. all i ask from a female, is to be intelligent, have bare minimum attractivity requirements, and to be deep. goddamn you blasted girls, you are smarter than guys, but you arent smart/deep enough to truly care, icebergs you are.
hey, and update, and only three days after the last
lately ive been feeling productive, and i finally got around the the elusive side project i had been hinting about in the past updates, here it is! grandora
i also got around to building some more of the system in my car, if you are interested, i have pictures of almost every component, and everything, including a brief rundown can be found here funny fricken site of a buddy of mine
one day at work, my boss took some codeine, and decided to brandish a large kitchen knife at me, in a joking manner, well, i took the initiative to make an animated buddy icon about it, and it can be found here, feel free to use it freely, why anyone would want to use it, is beyond my realm of understanding grandora!
blast its been long, all because i had to be a hotshot and d/l the new internet explorer (which geocities doesnt support yet) well, i finally got around to getting 5.01 so i could work on my site(s) and well, here i am.
various fools i attend school with
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new rant
update my ass!
titters! most amazing site (flash used heavily, tool related)
i purchased the new tool and weezer cds as of recent. simply two very good cds. certainly groundbreaking for both artists. too bad noone will get to see either of the two live (at least around here) i hate where i live
this next update will appeal only to the people who know me pretty much, its pictures i took from my prom, and the afterward, enjoy, and if they are not enjoyable, then i suggest you take your whining elsewhere.
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prom11 prom12 prom13 prom14 prom15
now, i dont often do this, but since ive gotten a band around, i have more of a respect for all things musical. ive been speaking to a member of a band from canada called phork. i got a link off his site at one point, and about their music, i was like "sure, your music probably is cool" but i hadnt heard it until of recent. its pretty sweet, my favorite song is called sickness. download their music at mp3.com here
art by yours truly
i found alot of cool stuff as of recent, and since im sure none of you wish to hear me bitch about society anymore, here is de sheet!
its a joke!
its the same joke
its a joke of the joke
pika
masturbatory
necro 1 necro 2
sweet!
no update for awhile, i just needed some time off. i think more and more every day, if only everyone would do that. there are so many girls out there, all of which are similar. most girls are evil, most guys are stupid. decline of society. what can you do, if you are reading this, you dont care about me, chances are, you dont even know who i am, or care to find out, its not that you should feel guilty, simply because who the fuck am i to tell you how you should feel. dont ever forget to think. people who dont think, get themselves into trouble. i hate what i love, and want what i should not have. its a neverending circle of pain, and education that can only be brought about through experience. who is honesly happy? fuckin fun! inverse of fuckin fun!
hey, update twice in a row, wow.
my first movie on this site, wowza! it is titled "haha" *update* apparently geocities wont allow movies to be played, it just says server cannot fufill request.
evil amish
what i do when i get bored
no update for awhile, im beginning to feel apathetic about the daily ins and outs of life. i have a feeling inside of me, that simply cannot be expressed by words, it is not a good feeling, it is not well for the surrounding beings. there are occurances that you cannot affect, you may try, but why waste yourself. i have become more hostile as of late, i think i may be in need of a medication. it all began when i stabbed my friend with a pencil. realization is key to education, piss off if you arent willing to think, or learn. life isnt expressed through words, life can only be felt/experienced. i see everyone for whom they are, yet i allow them all to engulf me, to hurt me. why dont i just stay inside, why must i attempt to run with those who arent compatible to my way of being. im not a mean person, im just evil. worrying sucks, if i could rid myself of worries, i would find something else to worry about. word of advice, if someone doesnt know you, chances are, they wont care what you think, how you feel, or what you have accomplished, dont try, you make yourself seem like the bigger asshole. i dont care anymore about much. this has allowed me to see things from a different angle, and essentially allow me to be nicer to the general public, enlightenment, fool!
I added to the rants section today
whoa, ok, update time
yesterday, me and my band auditioned for a talent show, but more on that as it unfolds. today is a day of neato links, as any other day was any different. simply put--its nicer outside, so hey, lets get crackin'
becky! Clique overused photoshop trick wtf!! a good buddy of mine's site beauty is in the eye of the beholder
now, last update i was rambling about the simply greatest creation by anyone ever, turns out that the link ended up being error-ful. luckily i have successfully d/l it, and here it is
well, good news, i have been browsing the web a bit today, and i found simply the greatest accomplishment man has ever created -- see above update
check it look back i sift through all the cliques
and dont you forget that you are worthless
blast?! it has been awhile. i havent updated simply for the fact that i have nothing to offer, and ive been busy out my ass. i visited my friend in the i.c. unit. hes doing remotely better, hopefully he'll get better soon, we all are pretty mopey about him around here.
my fucking hosting service terminated my account, so most of the pictures i have posted here will not fucking work. arghh! looks like its time to host on geocities again. sometimes things suck. people are stupid, people are the cause of everthing that is wrong, people are worthless. good day, and ill warn you kindly not to let the door hit your ass on the way out.
today i took my sat's, what a crock of shit. if you appreciate true comedy check this out. just read through some of the discussions, ten bucks says you could start wwIII with this board. hate is running so rampant, its not like its the same earth every day anymore. i need an escape, a way out, and not one someone has done before, i dont need any fucking drugs, i dont need any fucking counseling. i want something that fixes what ails me, something that is innocent, something that trusts me.
evil weirdest picture i have ever seen
i just thought id give an update before work. i fucking hate work--everything about it lately has blown. granted i should be happy i have a job, but this isnt exactly the depression anymore, and i dont see a war in the future.
such a cutie!! another girl of mine
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strangely enough my friend has been doing better. once they removed the life support he began breathing for himself. he is supposed to be doing really good, but only time will tell. journals are for wussies, everyone needs one. whether you mock what is pans-ish or embrace it, you must always be aware of your inner puss. feen tort lon foon!
some things are just wrong. you cant stop it, but you bitch anyway
i just received word, hes not going to make it. they are taking him off the machines, and allowing him to go peacefully. as i write this, im sure i havent come to the full realization of what this means. i love him, he is my brother, my bandmate, and friend. godbless chris. he will always live on in our heart.
i havent updated in awhile, i just havent felt up to it. i have been stressing a praying for my friend like mad. i want nothing more than for him to be "ok." i hear hes not doing very good--i hate being helpless, i wish i could split his pain with him and take half of it, so he could live on, or at least repair himself. i have been trying to move on, im sure he wouldnt want us to stop our lives and worry about him. its hard. i wouldnt wish this on anyone.
60 mb website, free!
free games/apps
craziness
feen!
i visited my friend today in the hospital, he was comatose. when i first arrived i met with his parents, they were absolutely beside themselves. they informed me that he had almost died this morning--that was simply the worst news i have ever heard. his parents are the sweetest people i have ever met. we went to his room, and stood outside, and thats what brought it home, and made it real. i saw him. he was, as everyone says when the see a friend or relative in the hospital, so tiny. tears prepared themselves to flow endlessly down my face. i pushed them back. just when i thought i couldnt take it anymore, my other friend's dad(whom had taken me to the hospital) pulled us away. it was intense to say the least. i met with his parents one more time- which they told us how much it meant to them when we visited(once again, the sweetest people in the world) noone deserves this. i got home, gave my parents the update, and promptly went to the bathroom and cried. i cried so hard my eyes hurt.
dont ever give up buddy, we wont
today i was struck with the news that one of my best friends, bandmate, and fellow deftones lover was in a terrible accident. it hit everyone really hard. people in my school that didnt even necesarily hang out with him were worked up, and sobbing. i couldnt grasp it, what had happened. at this point im concerned for his health, i need to visit him--i miss him already. he is in critical condition, but hes a tough guy, and im sure he will pull through. on sunday i hear that we are allowed to visit him. im really beginning to hate everything that occurs in life.
fuck it, we love you buddy, good luck on recovering, everyone was upset--ive never seen a group of people pull together over one ordeal like today in school, you were missed but your presence was felt.
keep your head up high
ho-hum, another miserable day. i cant help but think that everyone around me isnt aware of how bad things are. cant they see that the end of the world is near. everything that you spent your entire lives working for. everything you have ever prided yourself for doing would be meaningless. haha, all the girls who have turned sex down would regret it. everything that you thought could wait for later--all gone, never got to do it. this is why i say: seize the day, because tomorrow you could be a smouldering pile of rubbish. i just wish i had more incentive to go out and do more of what i want, i get pissed at myself. each day i regret a new thing, and i just wish that for once i could not do that--to do everything i wanted to do that day.
ever long for a stroke of genius in a stupid world? i know i have. the world has been flooded ladies and gentlemen. there is an abundance of a plague that could take out our entire species--stupidity. if you or someone you know is stupid, take immediate action. educate them
genius i tell you
time to get my update on! hey any fans of dido? she has her own browser now, its kinda nice. all you have to do is signup and download (there is a link on her main page) it looks like this. quite nice, a bit of a bother, but for fans its a must have. she is the most amazing girl i have ever seen........ anyway, back to the site. havent updated for a day, i havent exactly been living, just working--all work and no play makes jack a dull boy.
crazy links
stalk your favorite star
metallica sucks
penis mightier
the coolest domain ever!
hey, how bout this, my second update. today is a day of anger. i get mad at my girlfriend alot. how can i help it, shes really stupid sometimes. anyone who knows her, knows that she is a crackhead--oh well, guess its my fault anyways.
god hates stupid children. hmm, my accept your whiteness program cant be too far away....
guess what? apparently some chick in one of the schools close to me shot some kid at lunch, there isnt anything sacred or original anymore. children just shoot children for attention-sad as it may be, it works. stupid people, will they ever learn, or will we never evolve?
todays random links
thisisacryforhelp.com
something awful
hot naked bitches!
your mom
the best game ever
March 6, 5pm
Hey there, ladies and gents, presenting a new trend in web design, the first e/n/deftones site! Consider this something better than me having no interaction with any of the visitors here. As you can see, the general navigation to this pages deftones' sections is at the top left-- and if you feel it necessary, you may contact me via the collection of links on the right. and to the immediate left is the lists i either am part of, or own, JOIN the last one, just do it.
hmm, suppose i could show you my crazy goth buddy
rabid priests like dead people
foolishness
