When I left my past on that Summer day
I felt that my life was taking a turn for the better
That finally I had been given a chance
The oppurtunity to finally be able to make something of myself
I left behind everyone that I loved and everything that I knew
So sure that this time it would be right
But now that I am here I realize this was but a dream
The fancy of a child who has lived a simple life
Nothing has gone as planned
Here I sit in the middle of the night
No job, practically broke, lucky to even have a roof over my head
Not even the few friends and companions I have found can comfort me
For when I am with them and even more so when alone
All I can do is think of home
Back where everything is familiar
I left my job, my true friends, and the one person I will ever truly love
And now just an insect in this vast jungle of steel and concrete
I am unable to find the comfort and serenity that I once had
And it is all that I long for, all that I want
My lonliness is so great
That I would gladly sell my soul
For just one glimpse at the happiness I once knew
The true bliss of knowing where I was, what I was, and who I was
And know I know that I will never feel this way again
To be reunited with that which I once had
I would truly give up everything that I have
And everything that I will ever have . . .
But I know this cannot be so
I will never again know that happiness . . .
If only I could go back
Immerse myself into that life I once lived . . .
But I know this cannot be done . . .
Even if I were to go home
Nothing would be the same
It is too late now
Nothing would be the same
Not ever a miracle coudl repair
The damage that has been done
So I must live in this silent jungle
Doomed to endure the suffering and the torment
Of this my newfound Hell