There were no words spoken at the familiar round table in the cafeteria. Tears streamed silently down the girls’ faces, while the guys only half-heartedly tried to comfort them. Disbelief was still registered on Squall’s face, seething anger on Seifer’s, and Irvine kept darting concerned looks at the entrance to the cafeteria.
     Upon reaching Garden, Zell had disappeared, not even bothering to see Cid for debriefing, a punishable offense. No one had the heart to tell him to wait to grieve, and besides, the Commander had been there.
     Quistis stared at her hands blankly. It wasn’t supposed to be Lex, her mind chanted. He wants revenge on me. What better way than to kill off those dear to you? the voice chided and her blue eyes widened, more tears springing to hover there. Blindly she looked around at her friends, seeing them and not really seeing them.
     Friends. That was probably the first time she’s called them that. And Lex had been a friend too. Lex…the cute pigtailed librarian with a heart of gold and a deadly way of wielding a staff, that even the huge Raijin respected. How could she have been so overcome, so mutilated? And by what? Especially without alerting anyone else, SeeDs no less. Quistis raised her eyes to the pink-haired girl at the end of the table.
     Ari. She seemed nice enough and genuinely upset. But could she…? Ridiculous. Why would she want to hurt anyone at Garden? They were related in no way whatsoever. Ari’s dark gray eyes met Quistis’ blue ones, and Quistis plainly saw the misery and guilt reflected in her own. No, she was innocent. Slowly Ari rose, murmuring something about the infirmary, and stumbled away.
     They all watched her go, and Seifer voiced everyone’s thoughts.
     “I don’t trust her.”
     Quistis lay a hand on his knee before she rose. “I think we all need some rest,” she said quietly, swallowing the lump in her throat. “We have to sleep. We have to stay well,” her voice cracked. “For Lex.” Dashing tears from her eyes, the blonde turned and managed to keep from running until she was out of sight of the cafeteria.
     The door to her room slid open and she stepped inside, pulling it closed behind her. Closing her eyes, Quistis leaned against the door and breathed in deeply. She pushed herself off and went to the bathroom, stripping off her sweat-stained dirty clothes as she went, intent on a shower.
     When she emerged some time later, wrapped in a fluffy white towel, the moon shone through her large window, the stars twinkling like unshed tears. Aware that Garden was asleep, she didn’t bother closing her curtain, instead staring at the moon, one hand holding the towel closed. The image of the moon began to blur and Quistis smashed her fist against the wall, leaning her forehead against the window. Her shoulders shook as tears tumbled down her face, shimmering in the light to land in sparkling droplets on the floor.
     The quiet sound of a door closing had her head jerk up, and slowly she turned, knowing who stood there before she saw him.
* * *
     He’d been standing in the shadows since the water of her shower ceased running. He watched as she paused when her eyes caught the moon, watched as she tried not to cry, watched as she refused to give in to the loud sobs trying to force themselves out. The fist did him in, the diamond tears. And he opened the door and silently closed it, alerting her to his presence.
     Her head jerked up before she turned to face him. He caught his breath at the sight, just staring at her, staring into her silver-lit sapphire eyes. Both her hands dropped to her sides and the towel fell to the floor, forgotten. He too forgot everything except her.
     Her golden hair fell about her face, resting on her strong pale shoulders. The moon cast an ethereal silver glow over her porcelain body and he suddenly found it difficult to breathe, as the full orb formed a halo around her head. She was the angel. His beautiful angel. The fine white lines of her star-shaped scars faded into the rest of her skin, presenting him with the image of perfection. Her long fine legs stretched for miles and the muscles in them were plainly visible even as she stood defenseless and vulnerable. Her muscular arms hung loose at her sides, but her fingers nervously rubbed together, and he returned his gaze to hers.
     Neither of them said anything for a long time.
     Quistis’ head dropped, then she raised it again, fresh tears glistening in her eyes. Her mouth opened, but she swallowed hard and tried again. No sound came out. “Seifer…” she finally murmured, pleadingly.
     He strode toward her, jade eyes intent on her moonlit face, but stopped a few feet from her.
     Her hand reached up, paused, then continued to his face. She dropped it again, but refused to drop her gaze, trying to gather her courage. Still Seifer did not speak. Taking a deep breath, Quistis reached out a hand between them. “Love me. Please.” Her dark blue eyes beckoned him, pleaded with him. Loved him.
     Never once breaking her gaze, Seifer extended his own hand and took hers. “I already do.”
     Her eyes lit up with a tearful smile, and he pulled her to him. Their lips met and Quistis wrapped her arms around his neck, rising onto the balls of her feet to better fit herself against him. His clothes joined the towel on the floor.
     And they lost themselves, their sorrows, their concerns, in the oblivion of their love.
* * *
     Ari shivered uncontrollably beneath her thermal blanket, and the candle on the windowsill flickered wildly. She shut her eyes and every time she did, the visions came back to haunt her. Not only the old ones, but new ones. Images of Lex, images of death, blood. Why am I bringing death to these people?!
     Her eyes opened again, blank and staring as the voice ran through her mind.
     <You are my pawn. You are my instrument>
     No. No more. Too much death already.
     An evil laugh. Hard eyes. Flickering candle.
     <You have no say, little girl. You do as I say>
     Please stop. Let them live…L…
     Ari’s eyes closed again, and she thrashed in the blankets, wanting to awaken but unable to free herself from the horrible images ingrained in her mind. Her mouth opened to scream, but no sound came out and she found her eyes glued shut, forced to watch the terrible things running through her mind. No escape. Blinking light.
     <Pleasant dreams, dear friend. I’m so sorry it had to work out like this>
     The laugh again, reverberating in Ari’s skull, warning her, controlling her.
     Dark gray eyes popped open again, void of any emotion, any feeling, any humanity.
     “I am your instrument,” she whispered.
     The candle on the windowsill flickered out.

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