Wedding plans were in full throttle when Quistis entered the cafeteria the next day.  Rinoa and Selphie were discussing flower arrangements in very high-pitched voices, so anyone who hadn’t already known about the news definitely knew now.  Quistis offered Squall a sympathetic smile, as he sat there, red-faced, but as soon as she sat down, Rinoa and Selphie pounced on her.

     “Quisty, what do YOU think?!” they asked simultaneously.

     She stared at them in confusion.  I just got here, she thought, before cocking her head to survey the both of them.  Then she smiled and suggested,” Purple rhododendrons.”

     Rinoa and Selphie gaped at her in disbelief.  “Purple rhododendrons?” Rinoa repeated in a low voice.  Her eyes met the brunette’s next to her, and she repeated it again.  Then she snatched the writing pad from Selphie’s hands, exclaiming,” Why didn’t WE think of that?  For the aisle decorations at the back and the front!  With white roses and baby’s breath for the bouquets!”

     Selphie shook her head.  “No, Rinoa, nothing can be in white except for you!  You’re the bride; you have to be the center of attention!  Maybe pink carnations or pink roses in the bridesmaids’ bouquets?”  A thoughtful expression appeared on Rinoa’s pretty face. 

     The blond woman shook her head, good-naturedly, before turning her attention to Squall who looked more and more uncomfortable with every passing moment.  “You okay?” she asked, leaning on one elbow.

     Squall raised his blue-gray gaze to her face, and Quistis forced herself not to laugh at his pained expression.  “It isn’t funny,” he ground out, able to see right through her.

     “Why don’t you go to the training center?  Or up to your office, because I know how much you enjoy being buried under mountains of paperwork?” Quistis asked.  Squall darted a glance at Rinoa’s happy face, before returning to look at Quistis.

     “I would, but I’m being held here against my will,” he replied in a voice that Rinoa couldn’t hear.

     “Ah.”  Quistis sat back, and then leaned over the table to join Rinoa’s and Selphie’s conversation.  “Hey, Rinoa, why don’t you let Squall go?  He isn’t being any help here, and you don’t want him to be unhappy at the wedding from all the work he has left unfinished, right?  You know how that gets to him.  Besides,” Quistis dropped her voice to a whisper,” What do men know about these kinds of things?”  She raised her voice again, silencing Rinoa’s protest.  “I’m sure Squall will be happy with whatever you come up with, Rinoa.”

     Squall nodded vigorously, meeting Quistis’ eyes gratefully.  Rinoa stared at him, hurt beginning to fill her expression.  The commander stood, and quickly bent over to whisper something in her ear.  Then he kissed her and was on his way.  Rinoa looked after him, the hurt given way to a beautiful smile.

     “Rinny, what’d he say?!” Selphie asked emerald eyes wide with curiosity.

     The ebony-haired woman turned and, dark eyes filled with pleasure, told them.  “He said that it didn’t matter what the wedding looked like since it was my wedding.  And the wedding decorations didn’t matter to him because he only has eyes for me.”

     The three girls let out a collective wistful sigh.

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     Sometime later, exhausted from discussing wedding plans with two hyperactive women, Quistis trudged toward the quad.  With Garden resting partway on the water, the quad overlooked the ocean and one could even wade in if one was careful.  The breeze always made her feel better.  Besides, nothing happened that made her particularly want to sing, and if anything was required for her to do so, it was to want to do so.  She was sure another tape would be there if she went back.  The feelings she had when she listened to the songs he left were too strong for it just to be a one time thing.  Of course, that’s what she thought when she dated Eric.  And look how wrong she turned out to be.

     Fortunately, seeing it was class time, no one was in the quad, and Quistis trotted down to the tiled edge.  Carefully, she sat down, removed her boots, and put her legs in the water, catching her lower lip between her teeth at the icy coldness of it.  She rested her hands in her lap, back straight, even as she relaxed.

     The wide blue ocean stretched out before her and she gazed at it, trying to lose herself in its beauty.  Normally it wasn’t that hard for her to do, but today it was.  Her mind kept drifting back to the voice on the tapes, how much she wanted to hear it again, how much she…loved it? 

     No, no, no!  She was through with love.  First Squall and then…Eric.  Of course, Squall was never hers.  But Eric was.  Or she was Eric’s.  He never gave her anything of him.  Except his body, but every Trepie wanted that too.   But like a fool, she let him woo her with his smooth talking.  Had he ever complimented her?  No.  Perhaps that was the reason she found him so attractive.  But she didn’t feel that way about Seifer Almasy.  And Seifer Almasy made it a point in life not to compliment her.  She didn’t WANT to feel anything anymore, it hurt too much!  This voice was just there to torment her, to take her away from her mission, to…tease her with what it promised.  In the voice, she heard everything she ever wanted.  Yes, there was something sexual about her desire to hear it, but the baritone just promised so much more, so much fulfillment.

     With a growl of frustration, Quistis hoisted herself into a standing position, grabbed her boots, and turned around.  She found herself face to face with an arrogant smile that she recognized and hated.  Shaking her hair back, she met the mocking blue gaze in front of her.  “Eric.”  Good job, Trepe, she congratulated herself.  No voice cracking, no anger, no nothing.

     The black haired man raised his eyebrows, but didn’t remark on her lack of expression.  “Quistis Trepe, just the person I wanted to see.”

     “Oh?” she folded her arms, boots dangling from one hand.  A good weapon if it came right down to it.

     This time he did remark.  “What’s with the hostility, blue eyes?”  His nickname for her when they were dating.  Why did it sound so trite now?  “Aren’t you happy to see me?”

     “Immensely,” she returned coldly.  “So happy, in fact, that I just might go jump off a bridge.”

     “Ouch.”  Eric pouted, holding his hands to his heart.  “Now that stings.”

     “What do you want, Eric?  And make it quick, I have more important things to tend to.”

     That’s why you’re out here doing nothing, his eyes mocked.  “I just want to talk,” he responded.  “We ended on such a bad note, and I was hoping you could forgive me.”  He took her hand and she stared at it as if it were a snake.  “I was so wrong to leave you.  Please let me have another chance.”

     “What’s wrong, Eric?  Was your new toy not good enough in bed for you?”

     “On the contrary, blue eyes.  She was a furnace, you were frigid.”  Eric smiled maliciously as Quistis stiffened.  “No, she simply bores me when we aren’t in bed, that’s all.  Outside of the bedroom, you were much more interesting.”

     Quistis snorted in disdain.  “I suppose that’s supposed to make me fall for you or something?  Forget it, Eric, it won’t work this time.  You’re a slimeball and to be quite honest, you weren’t exactly phenomenal in bed either.  Maybe the reason I was so frigid was because you weren’t exactly a turn on.”  Nice, Trepe, lower yourself to his level.  Oh but revenge was so sweet.  “Now don’t you have a class to run along to?”

     His eyes narrowed and his grip on her hand tightened to painful.  She forced herself not to cry out.  “I had you once, Quistis, I can have you again.” 

     “Don’t bet on it,” she spat.

     Eric jerked her to him, wrapping his arms around her, and mashed his lips against hers.  Disgust welled up inside of Quistis and she opened her mouth.  When he slid his tongue in, she bit down.  Hard.  Letting out a yelp of pain, Eric pushed her away and grabbed his mouth.

     The force of his push had her stumbling backward.  She slipped on the wet tile and went down.  CRACK!  Her head hit the floor sickeningly and she lost consciousness, even as she fell off the edge into the water.

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     How interesting, Seifer thought as he watched the two argue from his semi-hidden position on a bench near the stage.  He’d been there since Trepe entered, but he wasn’t in the mood for confrontation, and that’s what happened when they got near each other.  The situation with Clasyl had him less ready to quarrel with some and more ready to quarrel with others.  Trepe happened to belong to the former, because she knew his every weakness.

     He stood up though when that slimy excuse for a human, Eric, tried to force himself on her.  Nearly applauded when she bit down and Eric pushed her away, blood dripping from his mouth.  But he didn’t have time.  Not in the split second it took for her to crack her head and fall into the water.  Even as he headed for the edge, shedding his trench coat and shirt, kicking off his shoes, Eric was gone, holding his mouth. 

     Seifer dove into the blue water, the iciness of it making him inwardly wince.  He looked around, straining his eyes against the dark trying to find Quistis.  A dark stream, not water, caught his eye, and he swam quickly toward it, following it down…down…down.  There she was!  He could feel the cold settling into his bones, but it only made swim harder.  If he was mobile and feeling it, he couldn’t imagine what it was doing to her.  Straining, he reached out and looped an arm around her trim unconscious body.  She was light normally, but since she was unconscious and the water was pulling them down, he found it harder to swim to the surface.  Just aim for the light, Seifer told himself, using his legs and one free arm to stroke upwards.  His lungs felt like he was about to burst.  Make it, make it, he prayed, but he wasn’t sure if he was talking about him or Quistis.

     But he made it.  Bursting out of the water, he breathed in the air-sweet, sweet air-and hoisted Quistis over the edge.  When he pulled himself onto the tile, he found a crowd gathered, one that included Eric, Doctor Kadowaki, and the rest of the gang.  The girls’ eyes were wide, as where the guys’, Doctor Kadowaki looked worried, and Eric…Seifer growled, and headed for the lowlife who dashed off as soon as he saw Seifer’s predatory gaze on him.  The blond man shook out his hair, even as he watched Doctor Kadowaki perform CPR.  Rinoa handed him his trench coat which he took, nodding his thanks.  His green eyes didn’t move from Quistis’ lifeless form.

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     Quistis felt as if she were floating on a cold breeze.  It was so cold.  Her eyes weren’t open, but she saw blue.  So much blue.  Blue everywhere.  She smiled.  The ocean.  How she loved the ocean.  But it was so cold.  She was freezing. 

     Warmth.  She was warm now.  And floating up.  Still floating.

     Light.  On the ground now.  Pressure.

     Quistis lurched up, spitting water.  She let out a groan and put a hand on the back of her head.  When she pulled it away, she saw blood and her eyes were scared when she looked at Doctor Kadowaki.

     Doctor Kadowaki smiled reassuringly.  “Let me bandage that for you, dear.  Then we’ll take you to the infirmary to see if you have a concussion.”

     The infirmary.  NO.  She needed to go to the music room.  To get the tape.  To listen to the voice.  The music room, not the infirmary!  But she didn’t say anything, just nodded.  Allowed herself to be carried for once.  Her head felt funny and she wasn’t sure she could make it on her own.  Even Quistis Trepe knew when to give in.  That and she didn’t feel like arguing with everyone around her.

     When she was situated on an infirmary cot, and Doctor Kadowaki bound her head, Quistis stared at the ceiling and asked,” Doctor…what happened?”

     Doctor Kadowaki looked up, frown on her face.  “You don’t remember?”

     “I remember slipping and I remember waking up.  I don’t remember what happened between that.”

     “Oh,” Doctor Kadowaki removed her glasses and rubbed her eyes.  “Well, dear, when you hit your head, you also slipped into the ocean.  Eric doesn’t know how to swim, so he came for help.  Of course, if Seifer hadn’t rescued you, I doubt we would have been there in time.”

     “What did you say?” Quistis sat up.

     “I said you also slipped-“

     “No, after that.  About Seifer.”

     “If Seifer hadn’t been there, we wouldn’t have reached you in time.”

     Seifer.  Quistis frowned and lowered herself back down to the cot.  How had Seifer gotten there so fast?  And why did he save her?

 

     A few hours later, when Doctor Kadowaki affirmed that Quistis was only suffering a bump on the head, Quistis left the infirmary.  Defying direct orders to report to her room to rest, she headed for the music room.  As she lay there, getting tested, her mind kept drifting to the tape that was waiting for her.  If it was still there.  She increased her pace.

     The tape was still in there.  She let out a breath she didn’t know she’d been holding and pressed play, before lowering herself carefully to the bench.  His voice washed over her bruised body, full of sorrow and regret.  She heard his disappointment with himself, the war waged within between keeping silent or venting, and the lyrics seemed…so appropriate.  Who listened to anyone else anymore? 

     “I’m listening,” she murmured at the end of the song, slipping in a spare tape from the closet, since she hadn’t returned to her dorm.  Quistis rested her head on top of the piano, her fingers poised over the keys, but not touching.  Why is this happening to me?  I don’t understand.  Eric and I broke up just 2 days ago, and I swore I’d never feel like this.  But he…She lifted her head, shut her eyes, and began to play.

 

Look, now it’s over but the thoughts of you go on

Nothing here, nothing left at all

Oh, oh, and oh

How I swore I’d never feel like this again

But then you, you broke a trait

 

Oh no, is there any reason I should walk away

Is it wrong, is it wrong to want to stay

And I know if I had the choice I’d never let you go

Do you know, do you really want to know

Ahhhhh ah ahhhhh

 

Now, now the thoughts of you just circle in my mind

Hard to find, you were really hard to find

Oh and I thought, thought I swore I’d never feel like this again

Oh no, I can’t take it anymore

 

Because I know if I had the choice, I’d never let you go

Do you know, do you really want to know

And I didn’t think, I didn’t think I’d think about you in this way

Well really, you really made my day

Ahhhhh ah ahhhhh

 

Now, now it’s over, but the thoughts of you go on

Nothing here, nothing left at all

Oh, oh and oh

How I swore I’d never feel like this again

But then you, you broke a trait

Ah, ah ah ah, ah ah ah, ah ah ah ah

 

     Quistis wished she could do the harmony as well, and merge it in, but the music technology at Balamb Garden was worse than that of Timber.  But this would have to do.  Carefully, she rewound the tape and left the room.

     Her head was beginning to pound, and she felt dizzy.  But she forced herself to continue towards her room.  Quistis Trepe could not ruin her reputation by such a weak display.  She’d reached the stairs to the dorms when she couldn’t take the spinning anymore.

     She collapsed in a heap.

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A/N: “Nothing Left At All” by The Cranberries.  Now for my shout-outs!

 

Sabacat-I’ll try and keep the chapters coming ^_^  Thanks so much for reading!

Megs-You get to feel special again!  You’re feeling might be correct, but then it might now! NYAHAHAH! You’ll have to wait and find out ^_-

Bella Regazza-aaaahhhh, me love your stories! *jumps around* thank you!

Quistis88-I actually have his voice as a baritone, but I can see why you’d think he was a tenor from my description.  The song “Wicked Little Town” is usually sung by a tenor, but I think it would sound so much better in a baritone(that orgasmic voice between bass and tenor :P).  As for Eric, like Megs, you’ll have to wait and see! And of course me love you! You review all my stories! *hugs*

Fenrir Motou-I plan to! ^_^

Setobsessed-thank you!

Sunny-SEIFTIS BOARD! *hugs* Hurray for the Goo Goo Dolls! And you’re not crazy, I do the same thing.  In fact, when I read over my story, I usually turn on the music and make sure it goes with the chapter.  Thank you for reading!

Auria-of course I know you, silly! ^_^ we RP together!  And I’m so glad you think so! *hug*

QuistisTrepe1402-eventually they’ll find out…maybe *evil laughter* seeing as how I’m sadistic and throw in twists everywhere I possibly can!

K-chan-thank you thank you!

Lovexfool-yeah, he’s such a bad boy *shakes head*

Dragon Princess Isis-I love music, too! ^_^ In fact, it’s my minor; and I like bowing, it’s fun, makes me feel all Japanese *bow*

Tinkerbelle-great movie with some great songs!

 

Thank you everyone for reviewing!  I honestly love you all for it!  So do me a favor and keep on doing it! The button is right

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