Quatre was still having a hard time but it was starting to get a little easier. He continued to have nightmares but they seemed different. He still hadn’t told Trowa any of the details. He knew Heero wouldn’t say anything if he didn’t want him to.

Trowa loved Quatre but every since the rape he started missing the little things Quatre used to do. Like hugging him all the time just for no reason other than he loved him and wanted to show him. Or Quatre telling him he loved him. Smiling at him when he new Trowa needed it. Even missed him holding him when he new that’s all he needed to feel safe. Now it was Trowa saying I love you all the time. Quatre hasn’t said it since the rape. Now Trowa had to initiate any type of hugging or just to hold him. I wonder if this is how he felt when I hadn’t said I loved him. He still won’t talk to me about what happened but it’s OK I can wait.

Quatre hadn’t been out the house alone since the rape except for when he was at the cabin and outside by their house. He was beginning to feel like a hermit. Trowa was being very patient with him through this whole ordeal and they were even starting to feel happy again.

A month later Quatre was feeling pretty good. He went to find Trowa . Trowa was lying on his bed asleep. Quatre smiled and crawled into bed and laid against him. This is the first time he had ever touched him on his own since the rape. He put his arms around Trowa and held him. Trowa woke up to this and smiled. “Quatre.” he simply said, “I love you Trowa.”

Trowa smiled more and replied, “I missed hearing you say that.”

“Your beautiful when you sleep. Like an angel.”

“That’s my line.” Quatre started to get up.

“Where you going?”

“I’ll be right back.” he started to leave but stepped back and gave Trowa a kiss on the cheek. As Trowa waited he touched his cheek and smiled his angel was coming back slowly but still he was.

Quatre came back a moment later with a little giftwrapped box. He handed it to him. Trowa unwrapped it and smiled, “Quatre I couldn’t this was your father’s.” It was a silver pocket watch.

“Please I want you to it. There’s an inscription.” Trowa read it. It said Forever. “That’s how long I will love you.”

“Thank you I will treasure it always.” Then Quatre went to him and they held eachother.

Trowa loved the fact that Quatre came to him but, started to think When Heero came over. “Heero I never got a chance to apologize.”

“Forget it. How’s Quatre doing?”

“He’s doing better. He actually told me he loved me and let me hold him.”

“That’s not normal?”

“Not since the rape. He told you what happened didn’t he?”

“Parts he doesn’t remember everything. I think he left out a few details though.” Trowa wasn’t going to push the subject he wanted Quatre to come to him. Why hadn’t he though didn’t he trust him enough or did he trust him at all? He had a terrible feeling that the worst was not over.

Quatre was doing his best to get over the rape for Trowa. He enjoyed holding him but he was scared that Trowa wanted more and he just wasn’t ready to give it yet. He new that Trowa would wait but there was a fear that he couldn’t get rid of. That something bad was going to happen but what?

Quatre went into town for the first time. He had a coffee at a cafe then went for a walk. He felt strange as though someone were following him. He took a wrong turn and the street turned out to be a dead end. When he turned around there was figure blocking his way. He said “Hello Sunshine.”