Duo and Wufei held back Trowa but he was struggling. Heero began to explain.

“Trowa in your heart you know I’m right. Quatre cannot heal if he has to worry about your feelings. This isn’t about you he needs time to himself. He needs to talk with someone who isn’t so close to the situation. You need time as well.”

Trowa stopped struggling and said, “All right we’ll play it your way for now.” he walked away.

Heero new that Trowa’s time away from Quatre would be hard. Especially since he was so worried about him but in the long run he was doing what needed to be done. Trowa went to his room and pulled out a picture of himself holding Quatre. They were so happy then. Could an act of violence wipe out what they had together.

Not if Trowa could help it he fight for them to be together but the question is would Quatre. There was a time when he could undoubtedly say yes but now he wasn’t so sure. He fell asleep clutching the picture to his heart. Hoping it would help fill the gap but, it was no replacement for the real thing.

At the cabin Quatre was looking at the stars they were so beautiful. He wished Trowa had been there to share it with him. As he had thought that he had forgotten why Trowa wasn’t there only for a split second though. Not moving a muscle except for scratching his arm.

The next day Quatre decided to go outside and walk a bit. The lake was beautiful. He could here birds singing . He walked threw the woods for a bit and came across a wolf crying he was caught in a trap. Quatre approached him and said in a quiet voice. “Don’t be scared I’m going to help you.” he put his hand out and let the wolf smell him so he would know he was friendly.

The wolf licked him and Quatre took that as a sign he petted him then grabbed a stick. To help him get the trap off he opened then the wolf pulled his leg out. Quatre ripped his shirt and bandaged the wolfs wounds. Then the wolf left. The wolf came back for a minute and licked his face and Quatre petted him again and said, “You’re welcome.” the wolf left this time without coming back.

It was the first time Quatre felt good in a long time. Like he wasn’t helpless.

Then next day Heero came to the cabin. Quatre was sitting on the porch. Heero approached him and sat next to him. “Everything OK?” asked Quatre.

“That’s my question.”

“So I take it you brought me here so I could talk to you. But you wanted me to have some time to myself first so I could think.”“Did it help?”

“A little. Is Trowa OK?”

“He’s fine and he understands.”

“You know when I first came back I thought I didn’t want him to know because he would be disgusted with me.”

“And now?”

“Now I think I was afraid of the image he has of me being shattered.”

“Image?”

“He thinks of me as an innocent. He’s angel. But I’m not I have been tainted. I’m no longer capable of kindness. I’m not his pure virgin angel anymore.”

“I don’t see it that way. You were raped you didn’t make love. It was forced upon you in my book your still a virgin. Give Trowa a little credit talk to him about it he may surprise you. Don’t let some ass hole take away the one person you love the most. Are you ready to tell me what happened?”

“I think so. I was drugged so there are some missing pieces and gaps.”

“That’s OK just tell me what you remember.”

“I was suppose to steal a computer disk. Someone recognized me though and I was caught. The head guys name was Ash. That’s were I blacked out I woke up in a cell. Chained to a wall. My back was cut up and my arm was really red. They had whipped me.(Quatre stars to tear up as he remembers) Them Ash came in and beat me some more. He had his men hold me down and he raped me. I can still smell him all over me. He said I was weak and he touched me. When he left I threw up. He did this everyday for a week before I got away.”

“How did you escape?”

“I knew he had the key on him so the next time he came I pretended that I wanted us to be alone. So he sent his men away. I used the chain and broke the mirror that was in there and I stabbed him with it and then knocked him out. He was still alive I checked. I grabbed the key and stole a jeep.”

Heero smiled.

“That was very good Quatre you did great.” Quatre wiped away his tears. Then a wolf approached them Heero though he was gonna attack them but Quatre said, “Don’t worry he’s a friend.” Quatre went to him and began to pet him and smile at Heero, “See?” Quatre told him about the wolf and Heero laughed.

“What?”

“Quatre you see you still have your kindness. Otherwise you couldn’t have helped him and made friends. Leave it to you to make friends with a wolf.”

“I see your point.”

A couple days later they talked some more and Quatre asked Heero as he was getting ready to head back. “Heero it’s time I need to see Trowa. Could you asked him to come. I think we need to talk alone.” Heero agreed and left.

To be continued: don’t worry we’re almost there.