Trowa held Quatre's hand as he slept. He wasn't going to leave his side. Quatre already woke up screaming twice. Trowa new there was more to it then what he was saying but wasn't going to push. He new that above all he needed to be strong for his angel.

Meanwhile Duo had told the others about what he learned. They were silent and it really hadn't sunk in yet.

"Who did it?" Asked Heero,

"I don't know. He didn't say." Answered Duo.

"There is no justice in this. The person who hurt him must pay."

They all fell silent.

"Right I think we need to concentrate on helping Quatre heal." Duo suggested.

"He's right first we help Quatre get over this trauma." Heero ordered, "Then we find the bastard."

Quatre woke with a start. He saw Trowa sleeping in the chair next to his bed. Quatre watched him for a moment. I shouldn't of told Trowa he doesn't need this complication. He's gonna want details I just can't deal with this right now. He looks so peaceful when he sleeps. I wish I wasn't such a burden to him. If only I could cease the pain for a short time.

Quatre continued to watch him sleep and covered him with a blanket. The blanket from the window fell the lite woke up Trowa and he saw Quatre run to the window in a panic. He covered it back up. Trowa at the time just thought Quatre didn't want the light to awaken him.

Trowa streched and asked, "How long have you been up?"

"Not long."

"You could have waken me." Quatre just smiled. "But I didn't want to disturb you again." Trowa put his arms around Quatre and said, "You never disturb me little one."

Quatre pushed him away and backed off. "I'm sorry Trowa."

Trowa started to approach him but Quatre jumped back again. "I won't hurt you Quatre."

"I know you wouldn't mean to."

Trowa was puzzled by that comment did Quatre really think that. "Let's go down and have some breakfast." Quatre agreed only so he wouldn't have to talk anymore.

Quatre was holding a glass of juice when Duo said, "Morning Sunshine."

Quatre dropped the glass and it shattered, "Quatre are you allright?" Asked Heero but Quatre was quiet.

**Flashback**

Quatre was chained up to a wall when the man enter, "Hello Sunshine." The man beat him and kicked him in the gut. "Well sunshine It's time to play."

**End Flashback**

"Quatre? You OK?" Asked Duo

"What? Yeah I'm fine what were you saying?"

"You sure you kind of spaced out there for a minute." Quatre left without another word.

Quatre walked over by the lake and held himself. Trying to comfort himself I suppose. He began to think that he was no longer worthy of being loved he needed to set Trowa free. He was no longer the person that Trowa fell in love with he had become weak at least that's how he felt.

"Quatre are you allright? You just left without a word."

"Trowa we need to talk."

"About what?"

"I think that I need some space."

Trowa backed away."That's not what I meant."

"Then what?"

"I don't think we should be together anymore." Trowa started to appraoch him but Quatre yelled, "STAY AWAY! I don't need you hovering over me. I don't want you around." Quatre turned away tears streaming down his face.

Trowa turned him so they were facing eachother and saw. "I am not going anywhere you need me. I. I love you and I want to help."

"It doesn't matter Goodbye Trowa." He walked away. Trowa new it was a lie,

"But it does matter little one I will not let you push me away. You stuck by me when I pushed you away I will not lose you I need you.

Quatre returned to his room and yelled "DAMMIT!" He began throwing things all over the place he saw himself in a mirror and punched it the glass broke and he was bleeding. He crawled to a corner and began to cry.

"Oh Trowa I have waited so long to hear you say you love me. Why does it now hurt so much to hear?" He began to rock himself as he cried.