The Secret - Part 1

Disclaimer : The usual I don't own any of the characters this is my first Gundam wing fanfiction so please be kind 3x4

The Secret
Part 1
by Backlash

Quatre was lying in his bed starring at the ceiling. After returning from a mission the longest month of his life. When he had first left all he wanted to do was get home to Trowa safely it was all he could think of. Now all he could think of is that he was deathly afraid that Trowa would find out what happened. Images of the situation flashed in his mind as he laid in the dark. The sunlight hurt so he covered his window with a blanket. The others hadn't questioned him they just thought he was tired from his mission. Finally Quatre went to take another shower he felt so dirty he wanted the smell and touch off but nothing seemed to work. As he took his shower he sat in the tub and began to cry. The memories wouldn't go away. The held he legs to his chest and began to shake. Finally he dried off and got dressed. As he re entered his room. Some one grabbed him from behind and Quatre yelled, "Don't touch me!" And jumped away. "Quatre it just me." Stated Trowa "Trowa?"
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you."
"Don't worry about it."
"So how was it?"
"What?"
"The mission. I missed you." Trowa approached Quatre but he backed away. "Quatre what's wrong?"
"Nothing. Why?"
"You seem different. Like your afraid of me."
"No. Trowa It's not you." Quatre went to Trowa and hugged him he didn't want to let go but if he didn't Trowa might get suspicious. "Trowa I'm really tired do you mind leaving me alone so I can get some sleep?" "Of course." Then he left.

I wanted my first time to be special to be with Trowa. That bastard stole it away. I am so week I have no right to call myself a Gundam pilot. I haven't really admitted it but it I was raped and now I feel like part of me is missing. Can I ever get it back sitting here in the dark is the only solace I have.

Two days later Quatre still hadn't come out of his room he had told everyone he was sick. So they wouldn't get suspicious. But someone was someone who new better. Duo wasn't buying the sick act at all. He knocked on Quatre's door but there was no response so he went in. He saw Quatre starring at the ceiling. He approached him and tried to shake him out if it but nothing so he called an ambulance. Luckily the others were out so they wouldn't no a thing.

The doctor came out, "You're will be OK with some food and rest. Here this is a number for a rape councilor." He handed Duo a card.
"Rape councilor?"
"I thought you knew. I'm sorry but there is no mistake but, your friend has been recently raped."
"WHAT?! Can I see him?" The doctor nodded and said, "You can take him home."

Duo walked in as Quatre finished getting dressed. "Are you allright?"
"Fine I just didn't get a chance to eat. That's all it was."
"I know that you were raped Quatre." He got a blank look on his face and a tear came down his face.

Back in Quatre's room Duo held him and tried to comfort him. When Trowa walked in. Duo kneeled down infront of Quatre and said tell him. "Tell me what?" Duo left. Quatre couldn't look at him. "Quatre?" "Quatre please look at me." He couldn't. "I can't"
"Whatever it is I will be right here to help you. I.I love you." "I'm sorry Trowa. You deserve better than me."
"There is no one better than you. You are my angel. What is wrong? You been quiet for the past couple days. You haven't been yourself." Still he said nothing. Trowa got up to leave but Quatre grabbed his arm and asked, "Are leaving me?"
"No of course not. Quatre who hurt you?" Then Quatre looked at him. Trowa's fear was confirmed with that look and he new someone hurt his angel.
"No no one."
"You're a terrible liar."
"I'm sorry Trowa please don't be mad."
"I'm not mad please just tell me what happened." He took Quatre in his arms. Finally Quatre confessed, "I was..I was..ra raped. I sorry." "Quatre look at me." He did Trowa continued, "It's not you fault." Quatre broke down and started to cry Trowa held him until he fell asleep. If I ever catch the sun of a bitch that hurt my angel he'll wish I just killed him.

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