{ Two months later}

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The colonies were still rebuilding the lives that had been disrupted by the events of the war. Even though the Gundams had been destroyed, scientists were making plans for new models in the event that peace would one day be disrutped again, and that one day the five brave youngmen would be called into battle again.

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After colony L15

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We see two youngmen currled up together on a grassy nol over looking the Ocean. The little blonde snuggles closer to his dark haird lover, his mind wandering over events from two months ago.

{~*FlashBack*~}

"Were....were really sorry....we didn't mean for this to happen, but it did." A young blonde haird man started as he looked across the table to two other youngmen.

"We don't know exactly when it happend...we...we just know that we can't deny it any longer we tried to fight it...really we did...but then things just kept happening and...and we just couldn't pretend anymore" He said to the two youngmen sitting across from him, next to him sat a fourth youngman, a Japenese boy with messy dark brown almost mossy colored hair, he was holding the blondes hand under the table and giving reasuring squeezes as he spoke.

The other two young men were silent, wether it be from shock or for fear that they would say somthing they could never take back no one knows.

"We honestly didn't mean to hurt either of you.....but, we know that we have...I can tell by the looks on both your faces" The young blonde said, he was close to tears as he continued to talk. "We should have said somthing before now, but we could never find the right time....and...and..." He started, before he was quickly cut off by one of the other young men sitting across from him.

"I see" said a youngman with a waist long braid, his eyes were blank, his normally cheery outlook was nonexsistant as he pushed away from the table, his eyes darting between the little blonde and the young dark haird man sitting next to him before they rested on the dark haird youngman.

"Wha?' The young blonde said, startled as he saw the look in the violet eyes of his friend.

"No need to explain further....I understand" The youngman with honey chestnut colored hair and long braid said as he stared at the dark haired youngman sitting next to the small blonde.

"I should have known...." The obviously hurt youngman stated as he broke eye contact with the dark haird youngman and turned his gaze toword the blonde.

"Take care of him....I was obviously not what he needed....::::hesitates:::...or ...wanted" The violet eyed youngman stated, before turning from them and making his way up the stairs to the bedrooms.

"Duo!" The young blonde called as he watched the braided haird youth leave the table and made his way up stairs. The young blonde stoped when he saw the other youngman, who had also been across from them, stand not saying aword, but just staring at both young men across from them.

The silent boy, the one who had stood up after his comrade and friend had left, looked at the two youngmen across from them, He saw in them what he himself had felt for the blonde. The one who is no longer or will ever behis.

The other two young men looked at their silent friend, both gasping as they see a silent tear trail from his right eye, down his delicate cheek and then land gracefully onto the table before he turns away from them and also made his way up the stairs.

As the other three boys in the room watch the young, silent man go up the stairs to the bedrooms, the young blonde finally lets the floodgates open and weeps uncontrolably, only to be comforted by his new lover andcompanion.

{~*EndFlashback*~}

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A single tear escapes the pettite blondes eye and rolls silently down his delicate cheek where it is promptly kissed away by his dark haird, often silent lover.

As the dark haird youngman gently kisses away his little lovers warm salty tear, he too lost himself in rememberance of events from two months ago.

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{~*Flashback*~}

"I see" said a youngman with a waist long braid, his eyes were blank, his normally cheery outlook was nonexsistant as he pushed away from the table, his eyes darting between the little blonde and the young dark haird man sitting next to him before they rested on the dark haird youngman.

"Wha?' The young blonde said, startled as he saw the look in the violet eyes of his friend.

"No need to explain further....I understand" The youngman with honey chestnut colored hair and long braid said as he stared at the dark haired youngman sitting next to the small blonde.

"I should have known...." The obviously hurt youngman stated as he broke eye contact with the dark haird youngman and turned his gaze toword the blonde. "Take care of him....I was obviously not what he needed....::::hesitates:::...or ...wanted" The violet eyed youngman stated, before turning from them and making his way up the stairs to the bedrooms.

{~*End Flasback*~}

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A single tear escapes the pettite blondes eye and rolls silently down his delicate cheek where it is promptly kissed away by his dark haird, often silent lover.

As the dark haird youngman gently kisses away his little lovers warm salty tear, he too lost himself in rememberance of events from two months ago.

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{~*Flashback*~}

"I see" said a youngman with a waist long braid, his eyes were blank, his normally cheery outlook was nonexsistant as he pushed away from the table, his eyes darting between the little blonde and the young dark haird man sitting next to him before they rested on the dark haird youngman.

"Wha?' The young blonde said, startled as he saw the look in the violet eyes of his friend.

"No need to explain further....I understand" The youngman with honey chestnut colored hair and long braid said as he stared at the dark haired youngman sitting next to the small blonde. "I should have known...." The obviously hurt youngman stated as he broke eye contact with the dark haird youngman and turned his gaze toword the blonde.

"Take care of him....I was obviously not what he needed....::::hesitates:::...or ...wanted" The violet eyed youngman stated, before turning from them and making his way up the stairs to the bedrooms.

{~*End Flasback*~}

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:::"Take care of him....I was obviously not what he needed....::::hesitates:::...or ...wanted" The violet eyed youngman stated, before turning from them and making his way up the stairs to the bedrooms.:::::::: thought the dark haird youngman as he tightend his embrace on the young blonde, and rememebered the hurt he had caused the other great love of his life.

:::I'm Sorry.....so very sorry:::: he thought before bending forward to capture his lovers full, sweet lips. Tasting everything that mouth had tooffer.

At the same time the little blonde turned into the embrace of his lover, eagerly seeking out the the warmth and comfort those luscious lips had tooffer.

Hands sought out warmth and skin, passion growing as need and comfort weighed heavily on one another. Fingers entwined into eachothers hands, bodies pressed together as if they were become one. Passion erupting as the need for clothing became unimportant. Soon flesh was touching flesh, hearts were touching hearts as the two youngmen ran their hands over eachothers bodies, the need to touch, to feel, to love becoming the overwhelming factor in the love and passion that overwhelmed the two young lovers.

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Space port 6509-orbiting outside of A.C. L8

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A handsom exotic youngman was forseeing the curent operration for rebuilding Colony L9. Dressed in the usual white outfit and going over reports from one of his men, when he heard the door whiz open.

A hansome young woman about twenty-three walked in, her golden blonde hair tied into twists on eachside of her shoulders as she walked up to the exotic youngman, a warm sisterly smile playing on her lips.

The youngman looked up at the young woman from the report, a slight hesitant smile tugging at the corners of his mouth, before it was replaced with indifference.

"How is the rebuilding going?" she asked noticing the young man's almostsmile.

"Its going exceptionally well actually...We'll have the colony back on its feet in no time" He stated, pride radiating through out his handsomefeatures.

"Thats good to hear....it makes me so happy to know that things are starting to take on some semblance of normailty" the young woman comented, knowing full well that she would get some kind of curt resonce from her young friend.

"Yeah....well....I wouldn't go around thinking that things are going to be all fine and dandy....War could breakout once again...and although I'm not looking forward to going into battle again....I am ready for it" the handsome young chinese man stated calmly.

The young woman smirked a little, she could see the relief on the youngmans face, as well as aprehension. She also saw a sadness in those eyes as well.

"Hows he doing?" she asked, knowing the answer before he spoke.

"Hes on a mission...he's delivering food and suplies to the L8 Colony Orphange....he should be back with in an hour or so" he told her, sadness evident in his beautiful ebony eyes.

"No....I mean....how is he doing really" she asked, her own sadness as well as concern showing through.

The youngman sighed, tension as well as concern radiating through out is body that only a good mantra would help eleviate.

"He's doing as well as he can....its been two months since the betrayal....but he's coping....he just needs time to realize that he dosn't need that arogant sonofabitch in his life to be happy" said the young exotic chinese man. As his mind too raced back to that time two months ago.

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{~*Flashback*~}

"We honestly didn't mean to hurt either of you.....but, we know that we have...I can tell by the looks on both your faces" The young blonde said, he was close to tears as he continued to talk. "We should have said somthing before now, but we could never find the right time....and...and..." He started, before he was quickly cut off by one of the other young men sitting across from him.

"I see" said a youngman with a waist long braid, his eyes were blank, his normally cheery outlook was nonexsistant as he pushed away from the table, his eyes darting between the little blonde and the young dark haird man sitting next to him before they rested on the dark haird youngman.

"Wha?' The young blonde said, startled as he saw the look in the violet eyes of his friend.

"No need to explain further....I understand" The youngman with honey chestnut colored hair and long braid said as he stared at the dark haired youngman sitting next to the small blonde. "I should have known...." The obviously hurt youngman stated as he broke eye contact with the dark haird youngman and turned his gaze toword the blonde. "Take care of him....I was obviously not what he needed....::::hesitates:::...or ...wanted" The violet eyed youngman stated, before turning from them and making his way up the stairs to the bedrooms.

"Duo!" The young blonde called as he watched the braided haird youth leave the table and made his way up stairs. The young blonde stoped when he saw the other youngman, who had also been across from them, stand not saying aword, but just staring at both young men across from them.

The silent boy, the one who had stood up after his comrade and friend had left, looked at the two youngmen across from them, He saw in them what he himself had felt for the blonde. The one who is no longer or will ever behis.

The other two young men looked at their silent friend, both gasping as they see a silent tear trail from his right eye, down his delicate cheek and then land gracefully onto the table before he turns away from them and also made his way up the stairs.

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"You leaving?" Heero stated more than asked as he watched Wufei pick up his pack and pish off from the door.

"Yeah....its time to go" he said, his voice straining to keep it even and less acussing. He wasn't winning this battle.

"I see...you don't....you don't have to ya know" Heero told the other young man with caution. He as gageing the exotic boys reactions, and trying to keep and already tense situation to a minimal.

"Yes....yes I do have to..." Wufei started as he walked past Heero to get to the stairs.

"Wufei" Heero said in that tone of voice that was a cross between a plea and order. Hearing Heero use that tone of voice with him just set him off, he spun around to face Heero, his eye's blazing, his face contorted into a cross between a frown and disbelief.

"Don't use that tone with me!.....what you and Winner did to Maxwell and Barton was not only Dishonrorable....but it was wrong!" Wufei stated, as he glared at the now silent Japanese boy standing only a meer 3 feet away, down stairs, Quatre was listening to the whole exchange that was coming from just right above the stairs.

"Barton truley loved Quatre....you knew that and you knew that Winner loved Trowa, but you got in the way of that didn't you....and Maxwell....what you and Winner did to him was more than unfogivable....You both should have at least had the common decencey to discuss what was going on....not just gather them together....set them down and tell them that you no longer want to be lovers because you two have found eachother.....that is more shamefull than anything I have been a witness to!" Wufei contiunded, he was still glaring at Heero, but now, if he could, he would also throw daggers at him.

"I knew about Maxwells probelm.....how he was afraid to be intimate with you....how his past of living on the streets had messed him up enough to where certain things were just to hard for him." Wufei told the normally stoic pilot, who at the moment looked some-what out of sorts.

"H....he told you?" Heero asked in what sounded like disbelief to Wufie.

"Not really....I kinda figured it out for myself....then I asked him about it...::::pauses::::...he can run and he can hide..." Wufei started, knowing damn well that Heero would understand.

":::::sigh::::...But he wont tell a lie" Heero said, finishing what Wufei had started. "Exactly....and Barton....I'm not exactly sure what it was he was lacking....but whatever it was, *your* new little lover must have needed it and found it in you....because I swear I could have heard Barton's heart shatter when you sat them down and told them." Wufei stated, he gad gone this far, he figured why not go in for the kill. "And Maxwell....well you should have just killed him, cause you two practically ripped his heart right out of his chest....and you know what the worst thing is Heero?" Wufei said, as he asked His question of Heero....knowing damn well that Heero knew the answer, but he was going to make him hear it anyway.

"I'll tell you what the worst thing is....The worst thing is....that I don't think Maxwell will ever be able to put his heart back again.....it would have to take someone truely special to fix that heart....as well as Barton's." And with that Wufei left Heero standing in the hallway of the rapidly vactating estate, standing there to think about what he had done.

{~*EndFlashbacks*~}

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"Hes a strong, sweet, carring youngman Chang....he'll find someone special someday...if anyone deserves to be happy...its him" stated the young blonde haird woman. "I know....I just want him to be as happy as I am...as you and Noin are...:::sigh::: even as happy as Yuy and Winner seem to be" he stated, his eyes still holding the sadness he felt for his young friend and fellow gundam pilot.

There was silence between the two young people for a few minutes that is until it was broken by the youngwoman.

"How was Trowa doing when you spoke to him this afternoon?" the young woman asked, hoping that the other betrayed youngman was doing a bit better.

The young Chinese man sighed a little, his mind thinking back on the short exchange of words he had held with the Quiet youngman who had been so crucial to bringing peace to the Colonies, on that day two months ago.

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{~*Flashback*~}

" Maxwell gone?!" Wufei stated more than asked, as he looked at the tall silent youngman who was also standing in the hallway preparing to leave. Trowa just shook his head in affermation, then with sad green eyes he turned towords the chinese pilot.

"Its been a pleasure serving with you Chang Wufei" He told the chinese pilot as he extended his hand towords the other.

Wufei tooked the offered hand and shook it.

"Its been a pleasure serving with you as well Trowa Barton....as well as with Maxwell." Wufei told the tall light brown haired youngman.

"Until we meet again" he said to Trowa.

"Until we meet again" Trowa said with a small sad smile before turning and heading for the stairs.

As Trowa went down stairs, Wufei went into his room and grabbed his pack as well, he knew now, that it was time to leave and that he had stayed to long anyway.

{~*End Flashback*~}

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"He seems to be doing a bit better....he's back with the circus...their perfoming on L8 as we speak" he stated, a hint of relief hidden in hisvoice.

The woman smiled at that, she had hoped, after hearing from the young exotic chinese man a couple of months ago that their two young friends would find some direction in their life. ::::Well...at least Trowa has gone back to a place he feels most comfortable in...:*sigh:*...now if only Maxwell could get on with is own life.::::

"I'm happy that he has a place where he feels like he belongs" The young woman stated, there was still an underlin sadness in her eyes though.

The youngman just shook his head in agreement, then the doors whized open again to reveal another stunning young woman with purplish hair and a smile that could kill.

"What are you two up to" She stated playfully as she walked up to the blonde haird woman and gave her a quick, but meaningfull kiss on the lips.

"Are you trying to talk Sally into working overtime again Wufei?" questioned the young purpled haird woman playfully.

Wufei, the exotic young chinese man, blushed slightly at both the playfulness in the young woman who had just walked in as well as the open display of effection she had for the other woman.

"I certainly am not...Sally Poe was quite adamant about not working overtime this week....I'm asuming that the two of you have plans for this evening?" he stated more than asked as he tried to sound as stern aspossible.

The two young woman just giggled slightly at the young mans tone, which borderd on annoyed and amussed while he blushed.

":::giggling:::: Well actually Lucrenzia and I do plan to spend a quiet evening together" Sally told the young pilot as she looking endearingly at the pretty young woman standing next to her. "And what about you Chang Wufei?....are you and Miss Relena going to do something special this evening?" asked Lucrenzia Noin, a hint of a smile playing on her lips.

Both woman watched again as their young friend tried to hide the blush that was radiating from the back of his neck all the way up to his cheeks. They both smiled at the uncommon and unusual act.

":::clearing his throat:::: That woman is insufferable, pushy, stuborn, persisitant, hard headed, honorable and beautiful....of course were planning on doing something special....just not this evening...were both knee deep into important duties." he stated, a hint of smile pulling on his lips as he thinks about the young woman in question.

Both women saw the slight smile on the young mans face, as well as the charming glitter in his eye as he described the young woman in question. They could see that he was Happy.

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After Colony L8

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A beautiful violet eyed young man was waving goodbye to a bunch of children as he headed towords the gates leading out of the Orphange that he had just delivered suplies to.

"Ja ne mina-san!" he yelled as he waved, hearing the callls from the other children as he walked through the gate. "I'll see ya all again in about four months time!" he stated with a smile.

"Ja ne Duo!.....we'll be waiting for ya!" All the children shouted, they always looked forward to his visits and so did the sisters who ran theorphange

"hes such a sweet and polite young man" they would say, as they fawned all over him and watched as he took the time to play with the children, making them happy as well as himself.

As he walked down the street from the orphanage, he smiled to himself. He had spent the better part of the day playing with the children and talking with the sisters, listening to them tell him what a good, sweet young man he was even though he was hardly a man, a boy they would say and he would just chuckle and let the old birds coddle him. children always made him happy, thats why he always took thease certain missions, they kept is mind off of things he would sooner forget, even if only for a little while. As he walked down the street his mind automatically wondered back to that day two months ago when his heart was shattered and his life became directionless.

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{~*Flashback*~}

"We honestly didn't mean to hurt either of you.....but, we know that we have...I can tell by the looks on both your faces" The young blonde said, he was close to tears as he continued to talk. "We should have said somthing before now, but we could never find the right time....and...and..." He started, before he was quickly cut off by one of the other young men sitting across from him.

"I see" said a youngman with a waist long braid, his eyes were blank, his normally cheery outlook was nonexsistant as he pushed away from the table, his eyes darting between the little blonde and the young dark haird man sitting next to him before they rested on the dark haird youngman.

"Wha?' The young blonde said, startled as he saw the look in the violet eyes of his friend.

"No need to explain further....I understand" The youngman with honey chestnut colored hair and long braid said as he stared at the dark haired youngman sitting next to the small blonde. "I should have known...." The obviously hurt youngman stated as he broke eye contact with the dark haird youngman and turned his gaze toword the blonde.

"Take care of him....I was obviously not what he needed....::::hesitates:::...or ...wanted" The violet eyed youngman stated, before turning from them and making his way up the stairs to the bedrooms.

"Duo!" The young blonde called as he watched the braided haird youth leave the table and made his way up stairs

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"Ne, Heero.....didja even care about me at all?...or was I just a convienant way for you to pass time?" asked the violet eyed beauty to himself as he walked, his eyes had saddend considerably and his mind wandered back to another time with his former love, the young man, that even now he still aches for and knowing danm well that it was all a lie.

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{~*Flashback*~}

"Ne, Heero?.....whats this?" Duo had asked as he took the little box that Heero had handed him.

"Open it baka....then you'll see" Heero had told the happy braided haired beauty as he slid his arms around the small, thin waist of his love

Duo opend the tiny box and gasped when he saw what was in it.. A beautiful simple little silver ring, with two hearts entertwined together. Duo looked up at Heero, his eye's filling with tears as his heart ached in joy.

Heero hugged his love from behind,watching the tears trickle down the smaller boys face, he had known that Duo would like the gift.

"Oh Heero!.....thank you!" Duo said as he turned around and gave his love a hug and then a passionate kiss, that practically knocked Heero off his feet.

Then they broke apart,Duo went over to the dresser and pulled out something and handed it to Heero, a huge smile lighting up the braided boys face.

"Whats this for?" Heero had asked as he looked at the box that Duo had produced in front of him.

"Its for you silly" Duo said, grinning from ear to ear "Open it baka....open it!" Duo told Heero with excitement as he bounced up and down.

Heero, trying to hide the grin forming on his face, opend the box. When he did, it revealed a ring exactly like the one he had gotten for Duo. He looked at it in amazement before turning towords Duo.

"Duo?....how?" was all Heero could say as he looked at the ring haning off of the chain it was on.

"I....i've had it for a while....I was waiting for the right time to give it to you....now was the time" Duo told the normally stoic, but at the moment stunned pilot.

Heero looked up at Duo and saw the love and joy in those beautiful violet eyes, then he crossed the short distance between them, taking Duo's mouth in another hot, passionate kiss, this time nearly knocking Duo off his feet, actually it did knock him off his feet and right onto the bed that the two had been sharing for nearly a year now. Heero rained firery, hot, wet passionate, kisses all over Duo's face, neckand chest.

Duo gasped and squrimed under the pleasant torture he felt coming from his love, then he felt Heero's hands moving over his body, gently undoing buttons on his shirt.

"::::gasp:::: hhuh!" Duo gasped again as Heero's hand felt him through the fabric of his pants. Heero was starting to loose control of himself the more he touched and kissed Duo, he wasn't sure if he would be able to stop this time.

Duo was enjoying himself, up until he felt Heero's hand trying to undo his belt on his pants, then the panic set in, the memories hit like a ton of bricks crashing into a wall.

"Heero?!....:::Gasp::: huuhh.....Heero!....I can't...I'm not ready.....:::pant....pant::::" Duo had told his love, he knew that it was unfair to keep doing this to Heero, he knew how much Heero wanted to make love to him, and he soo desprately wanted to make love to Heero as well, but his past memories of being on the street keep haunting him.

Heero continued his ministrations, trying desprately to get Duo to realize that he wasn't going to hurt him, but he could feel the other boy tense underneath him, he could hear the gasps, that weren't of pleasure, but offear.

"Heero...please...:::gasp:::.....s..stop Heero!" Duo told the other boy, even though he was responding rather nicely to what Heero was doing , his fear was more powerful.

Heero forced himself to stop what he was doing, he had to, he couldn't hurt Duo, but damn! He was getting frustrated.

Heero slowly stopped his agressive, insistant ministrations on his love. Looking underneath him he could see Duo's flushed cheeks and bruised lips, then slowly he slid off the smaller boy, pulling him into his arms as he rolled over to the side, tucking his now sobbing love's head underneath his chin. He started to rub Duos back and gently caress his hair.

"I'm soo sorry Heero...*sob*.....I want to.....I really want to ::::sniffle....sniffle:::: b...but I'm not ready....I'm scared....its the only thing in this whole damn world I am scared of....*sob*...." Duo said to his love as he felt Heero gently rub his back and caress his hair.

"Its o.k. Duo....I understand....your not ready....and I wont force you.....you have nothing to be sorry about....I promised that we would wait till your ready....and we will" Heero told the sniffling young man who now, rested his head in the crook of his neck. He could feel the wet warmth of salty tears on is neck. Heero, for now was just content to hold his love in his arms....for now.

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A few tears slid down his delicately handsome face as he walked. He had been totally emersed in thought when he suddenly heard a young woman scream, Snapping him back to reality, he took off in the direction of the scream.

"Aaaaahhhh!" someone screamed.

Duo raced down the street towards the allyway that he was sure the scream had come from. He rounded the corner just in time to see two men shoving a young woman up against the wall, forcing them selves on her.

The young woman was terrified as the men started to grab at her and touch her. She struggled and tried to scream again but they held her captive, a hand blocking her screams.

Just as one of them started for the young womans blouse; he was suddenly flung into the wall behind him, the other man turned to see what had happend and was imeadiately punched in the face causing him to loose his grip on the young woman.

The young woman was stunned for a few moments before she heard a youngman, her saviour yell for her to get out of there.

"Go!" he ordered the stunned young woman. "Get out of here....Now!"

The young woman, coming to her senses, looked at the young man who had saved her, noting how young he looked just before she ran off and out of the ally. Duo, the girls saviour, had just punched the frist guy, a black haired man,again as he saw that he was getting up. Then out of the corner of his eye he spotted the other man, a brunette, and gave him a swift roundhouse kick in the gut. However, Duo was unprepared when a third man, a blonde, showed up delivering a staggering blow to the side of the boys head, causing Duo to stumble backwards into the far wall, where he was promptly pinned.

"Well...well...what do we have here?" came the taunting voice of the man who had delivered the feirce blow to Duo's head.

Duo suddenly realized that he was being pinned to the wall. "Uhnn!....Let go!" growled the long haird teen.

The other two men had picked themselves up from the ground and were fuming over the fact that a kid half their size had just kicked their asses.

"Let me at him....I'lll beat him to a bloody pulp!" vehemently stated the man Duo had kicked in the gut, as he reached for the boy.

"No....I have a much better Idea" stated the blonde man menacingly, as he continued to pin Duo to the wall, his eyes raking suggestivly over the young mans body, grinning evily as he notices the other two men comprahending what he was geting at. "Oh yes....that is a much better Idea..." the black haird man stated as he too ran his eyes up and down the braided haired teens body

"Besides.....hes much more pleasant looking than that girl had been" he stated as hunger and lust filled his eyes.

The bigger man, the brunette, the one Duo had kicked the crap out of, also had the same look in his eyes as he aproached the suddenly terrified teen.

"I think I like that Idea....besides....hes seems like a tough guy....I'm sure he can handle it" he said in a sinister tone and a look of pure evil on his face.

Realization hit Duo like a lead pipe as he realized what they were planning to do to him.

::::::::Oh God No!.....god no...not....not that....noooo!::::: he screaming within himself. Then he felt their hands starting to touch his body.

"NO!.....Don't!" Duo shouted as he struggled to break their hold on him. "Let go of me you sick freaks!" That earned Duo a sharp smack across his face, cracking his head againstthe wall and dazing him for a second.

"Now...now pretty boy....that wasn't very nice...calling us names like that" the blonde headed man crooned "I see were going to have play rough with our pretty little toy...eh guys!?" he stated in a menacing tone.

Duo recovered from his dazed state just in time to see the black haird man reach for and then run his hand up and down his crotch.

"Mmmm.....you feel good boy....do you like that?" the sick bastard stated more than asked; as he ran his hand up and down Duo's crotch in a caressing motion, pressing closer to the frightend teen.

Duo trembled in abject terror as the dark haird mans hand felt him up through the fabric of his pants. His mind flashed to the times when he had been in nearly the same situation, living on the streets, there was always some sick pervert trying to get his jollies by molesting young children, although Duo was thankful that none of his offenders had gone beyond touching, the trama of all those times was still with him and that had been what kept him and Heero from making love. Now he wished that he had gotten over his terrifying fear and had made love to the boy heloved.

Snapping back to reality, Duo started to fight furiously to get away from his attackers.

"NO!....Stop!....Don't!" Duo said fearfully, as he tried to get away from the envading and offensive hand.

The three men just grinned at eachother as they took in the terrified look on the young teens face. Then they advanced on him. Hands grabbing and pulling, some bruising, clothing tearing. The blonde reached behind Duo's head and clutched a hand full of his braid then wrenched the boys head back, eliciting a painfilled scream through clenched teeth. The the blonde forcefully sealed his lips over the terrified former gundam pilots, bruising the boys lips and tugging hearder on his hair.

"Noommphfp...." Duo screamed through clenched teeth just before he felt one of his attackers mouth crush his. "Mmmnooom!!" he screamed again as he struggled violently to get away.

The blonde wrenched Duo's head back for a third time, this time forcing the boy to unclench his teeth and scream out right, then he shoved his tongue deep into the teens throat causing him to gag from the invasion.

The other men, however, were enjoying themselves as well. The black haird man had gotten behind Duo and had his head bent into the curve of the young teens neck, biting, sucking and licking it. The brunette had ripped open Duo's shirts and was feeling up his chest, pausing every now and then to pinch and pull on the trembling teens nipples, causing the boy to gasp

"::::gasp:::: No!....huuuhh! :::gasp:::: Please stop!...aaahh!....Stop....:::gasp::::" the boy pleaded as tears started to sting his wide, terrified violet eyes..

Duo continued to struggle frantically, tears of fear and shame running down his delicate looking face. His struggling had paid off however, and after kicking the guy; feeling up his chest, in the head, then wrenching his face away from the blonde and pulling out of the black haird mans grasp, he punched the blonde, then flipped the balck haird man over his shoulder.

Gathering his witts, he started to take off, however, he didn't get very far for he was tackled by the blonde haird man and pinned to the ground.

"Oh....you are going to pay for that pretty boy....your going to pay!" exclaimed the angry blonde pinning Duo to the ground in the alley.

"No!...let me go!....Let go!" the violet eyed beauty screamed just before he was struck forcefully across the face causing his already bruised and swollen lip to bleed. Bruises forming over every inch of his body, a nice sized one starting to turn an angry reddish purple on the right side of hisface.

"Oh no baby....my friends and I...were just getting started" the black haird man said as he strattled Duo's hips, while the blonde pulled, then pinned his arms above his head.

"No!....STOP!" Duo screamed, fear over riding all senses as he watched the black haird man undo his pants and then reached for his own. "Oh God No!.....Don't do this....please!.....Don't!"

"You should have thought of that before ya decided to play hero pretty little baby" crooned the brunette as he bent down to lick the boys face, then capture his mouth in a punishing, violent kiss, biting down hard on the boys bruised and swollen lips causing the young man to whimper in pain and fear before he pulled his mouth away and began kissing and sucking on the boys neck.

"Are you still a virgin baby" the black haird man questioned as he undid Duo's belt, smiling as he felt the overwhelming fear cross over every inch of the terrified teens body. Then he saw the look in the boys eyes that told him the answer to his question.

"Oh....is this ever going to be sweet.....Guess what guys?....pretty boy here is going to be my first virgin" he gloated to his sick, perverted friends before turning his attentions back towards Duo "Man....I bet your nice and tight...huh Pretty boy?....it may take five or six times to loosen you up baby." he boasted as he ran his hands up and down the front of the young mans sex through the fabric of his pants, then watching with delight as their terrified young captive violently struggled away from the touch.

"Aaahh!....get away from me!..uhnnuh...Stop!...don't touch me!....DON'T TOUCH ME! Duo screamed, tears running down the sides of his face into his hair and mixed with the blood; from the head wound he recived when he struck the wall, he frantically tried to buck the black haird man off of him, only to recieve a sharp punch to the kidneys.

"Oooffphm" he gasp, then tried to curl in on himself.

"I say we get started....what about you guys?" asked the blonde as he pulled harder on Duo's trapped wrists, causing the already bruised apendages to hurt even more, and eliciting a sharp cry of pain.

"Aaaahhhoow!" the teen cried as pain shot through his arm. "Yes....lets" the black haired man sneered as he snaped open Duo's pants, pulling the zipper down as well.. The men laughed as they had their way with the frightend young man.

"NOOOOO!!!!!.....Don't.....DON'T!!" The young man screamed before it was drowned out by the brunette, who had undone his own pants, then forced his aching sex into the boys mouth, not only causing him to gag, but to scream as if he was being tortured to death. "Noooommmmmmm!!"

Tears of shame, fear and loss ran down the abused teens face as his attackers relentlessly beat, molested, taunted, demanded and raped the teenage pilot of gundam 02,otherwise known as Deathscythe; for hours. Then, everything went black.

Duo secretly thanked God when he fell into the merciful blackness of unconsciousness. His last thought before darkness over came him...was that of a prayer.:::::Dear god... please...just let me die::::::.

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After Colony L8 {Hours Later} ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Night time has fallen and outside the city, laughter from small children as well as some adults could be heard. The circus was in town. Clowns, animals, death defying feats, music, games, rides. All of it to bring joy to lives of people who need and want to havefun.

Inside a metal mobil trailer, a handsome green-eyed young man had just changed out of his clown outfit and was fixing himself some tea when there came a sharp, but soft rap at his trailer door.

opening the door, the young man gave a gentle, warm smile to a young reddish-brown haird woman with crystal gray-blue eyes.

"Cathy..." happily stated the green-eyed young man, warmth and affection written on his face for his sister.

The young woman smiled at her adopted brother, noting that he did seemed to be in better spirits than he was when he had showed up two months ago, but she could still see the bitter sadness his eyes held. ::::::Oh Trowa....my dear sweet Trowa....what I would give to see a truely happy, estatic smile on your handsome face.::::: she thought "I was on my way to the mess tent and wanted to know if you would join me" She asked the green-eyed young man, flashing him a genuinly warm smile.

Trowa, the young green eyed man smiled back albeit tentively; at first. He loved Cathrines smile, the way it would lite up even the gloomiest of hearts. Seeing that smile reminded him of another person who could bring such joy with just a smile.

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{~*Flashback*~}

Trowa watched as Duo practically ripped the chain off of his neck, snapping it and breaking the clasp. :::Kinda symbolic I guess:::: Trowa thought as the Chain broke. Then he watched as Duo also walked over to a picture that was on the nightstand by the bed, *their bed*. Duo picked up the picture frame, the picture was of him and Heero at carnival that one of the colonies were having the day they had to hide out.

Duo smiled a little as he remembered the heck of a time it took him to get Heero to smile for that picture, and still, he looks more like he was about to kill the camera man and Duo. Duo's smile faded as he set the picture down on the pillow on Heero's side of the bed. His love had always insisted of sleeping on a certain side. Sighing, Duo placed the ring and the broken chain onto the picture, before turing away and gathering his pack.

He turned to see that Trowa was still in the doorway. Duo smiled at Trowa, it wasn't one if his spectacular ones, ya know the kind, the ones where after you see it you can't help but smile too. It was more of a "I know how you Feel" smile.

Trowa made his way into the bedroom, stopping just a foot or two infront of the smaller boy.

Duo looked into the sad green eye's of his friend, seeing the pain that mirrored his own and knowing *Exaclty* how he feels. Duo pulled the taller, silent boy into a hug. Burrying his head into Trowas shoulder and wrapping his arms around the silent boys back, while Trowa rested his chin on the smaller boys head, feeling the soft honey chestnut hair against his skin and smelling the sweet sent that was just Duo's, he too returned the hug, each letting silent tears escape their eyes over the betrayal of their loved ones.

The two of them stood that way for a long time, niether one daring to let go for fear that they would fall completely apart, but then they knew that they had to.

Duo was the first to break the contact, but before he did he gave Trowa a gentle, soft kiss on his cheek before whispering into his ear.

"I'm soo sorry Trowa.....I'm sorry that they hurt you, that they betrayed us this way....I'm sorry" Duo said in a quiet, uncharacteristic voice that was so unlike the braided beauty that Trowa was soo use to. Then he pulled away and gathered his pack again.

Trowa had heard Duo's words, had felt the smaller boy as he pulled away from him. He struggled with trying to find the right words to comfort Duo, but he didn't know what he could say. He knew how much Duo had been in love with Heero, how much he had wanted to be a part of the Japanese pilots life, and then to have it ripped away by his own little blonde haired lover, what could Trowa say. And Trowa hadn't missed how Duo had some how taken the blame for their loved ones indescretions

As Duo gathered his pack and made his way over to the balcony, he turned back towords Trowa.

"Take care of yourself Trowa-chan.....find happines someday....you deserve to be happy Trowa....don't let what they did to you destroy the love I know you have in your heart to give." Duo told the usually silent youngman as he preparied himself to leave.

"I'll see ya around Trowa Barton....and I mean it....Take care and find the peace and happiness that you so deserve" and with that said, Duo dissapeared out the balcony. Trowa walked over to the balcony to watch Duo leave, his heart aching over the words that Duo had said to him before he had left and Trowa had, had time to respond to.

"You too Duo....You deserve to find your own happieness someday.....you deserve to be loved by someone who is willing to love you back uncondionally...and by someone who will never break their promises to you... or....your heart." Trowa said to himself, to god, to anyone who was bloody well listening. "Take care Duo Maxwell....and stay safe!" Trowa finished as he watched the black cladded boy dissapear out of view.

{~*End Flashback*~}

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He missed his friends, talking to Wufei today had lifted his spirits a little. Finding out that he and Relena had been seeing eachother for a little over a month and were happy had made his day a little brighter as well as finding out that Lucrenzia Noin ans Sally Poe were still madly in-love with eachother, the only thing that had kept the day from being remotely blissfull was finding out from Wufei; that Duo was still the same, unatached and unhappy. Wufei had also told him that Duo had an errand to run here on L8, where thier current fairgrounds was stationed.

"::::sighing:::: No thank you Cathy....I'm not really hungry....I ate something a while ago and I'm fine" he told his adopted sister, seeing the concern in her crystal blue eyes. "Really Cathy...I'm fine" he stated again, giving her a warm smile to set her mind at ease.

She looked at her little adopted brother skeptically for a monent before smiling at him, then turning to go.

"Alright....but...if you do get hungry....please come and join us....you know we all love you and want you around" She beemed as she turned to go.

"I'll see you later Cathy" Trowa promised as he watched her walk towords one of the bigger tents.

"Darn right you will" She stated matter of factly, giving him one of her best grins and then bouncing off towords the mess tent.

Trowa smiled and shook his head :::::she's so mature and serious one minute....and then bubbley and happy the next....God she reminds me of Duo:::: he thought to himself as he watched her bounce away towards thetent.

Once inside his mind had wandered to a more painful time two months ago when his beloved little toe-headed lover had confessed to falling in love with another, someone he had considered a close friend. The Betrayal had hurt, it tainted all that he had shared with his blonde haird, aqua-eyed treasure. But not only did his lover betray *him*, but he had betrayed his own close friend as well.

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{~*Flashbacks*~}

"Were....were really sorry....we didn't mean for this to happen, but it did." A young blonde haird man started as he looked across the table to two other youngmen. "We don't know exactly when it happend...we...we just know that we can't deny it any longer we tried to fight it...really we did...but then things just kept happening and...and we just couldn't pretend anymore" He said to the two youngmen sitting across from him, next to him sat a fourth youngman, a Japenese boy with messy dark brown almost mossy colored hair, he was holding the blondes hand under the table and giving reasuring squeezes as he spoke.

The other two young men were silent, wether it be from shock or for fear that they would say somthing they could never take back no one knows.

"We honestly didn't mean to hurt either of you.....but, we know that we have...I can tell by the looks on both your faces" The young blonde said, he was close to tears as he continued to talk. "We should have said somthing before now, but we could never find the right time....and...and..." He started, before he was quickly cut off by one of the other young men sitting across from him.

"I see" said a youngman with a waist long braid, his eyes were blank, his normally cheery outlook was nonexsistant as he pushed away from the table, his eyes darting between the little blonde and the young dark haird man sitting next to him before they rested on the dark haird youngman.

"Wha?' The young blonde said, startled as he saw the look in the violet eyes of his friend.

"No need to explain further....I understand" The youngman with honey chestnut colored hair and long braid said as he stared at the dark haired youngman sitting next to the small blonde. "I should have known...." The obviously hurt youngman stated as he broke eye contact with the dark haird youngman and turned his gaze toword the blonde.

"Take care of him....I was obviously not what he needed....::::hesitates:::...or ...wanted" The violet eyed youngman stated, before turning from them and making his way up the stairs to the bedrooms.

"Duo!" The young blonde called as he watched the braided haird youth leave the table and made his way up stairs. The young blonde stoped when he saw the other youngman, who had also been across from them, stand not saying aword, but just staring at both young men across from them.

The silent boy, the one who had stood up after his comrade and friend had left, looked at the two youngmen across from them, He saw in them what he himself had felt for the blonde. The one who is no longer or will ever behis.

The other two young men looked at their silent friend, both gasping as they see a silent tear trail from his right eye, down his delicate cheek and then land gracefully onto the table before he turns away from them and also made his way up the stairs.

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Trowa watched as Duo practically ripped the chain off of his neck, snapping it and breaking the clasp. :::Kinda symbolic I guess:::: Trowa thought as the Chain broke. Then he watched as Duo also walked over to a picture that was on the nightstand by the bed, *their bed*. Duo picked up the picture frame, the picture was of him and Heero at carnival that one of the colonies were having the day they had to hide out. Duo smiled a little as he remembered the heck of a time it took him to get Heero to smile for that picture, and still, he looks more like he was about to kill the camera man and Duo. Duo's smile faded as he set the picture down on the pillow on Heero's side of the bed. His love had always insisted of sleeping on a certain side. Sighing, Duo placed the ring and the broken chain onto the picture, before turing away and gathering his pack.

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While Trowa thought back to that night in which he and Duo had found out about their beloveds betrayal, Cathrine was nearing the mess tent lost in thought when she suddenly heard something and spun around in the direction she had heard it. Making sure her lanturn was turned up on a higher flame, her curiosity outweighed her fear as she crept closer to where the sorce of the noise had been heard. Squinting, she peered inbetween to extremely large, long, heavy crates which were stacked against one of the equipmnet trucks.

As she looked, she caught movement and thought she heard what sounded like a whimper. Bringing her lanturn up so she could see better, she caught a glimps of a figure huddled inbetween the two crates.

"Who's there?" she asked in her sternest and threating voice "You better come out of there...or else i'm calling the roust abouts and having you dragged out" She threatend, then she heard a terrified whimper ::::hmph...must have scared them with my threat::::: she thought. She moved closer inbetween the crates, holding the laturn up more so she could see, as she did, she saw a youngman in a dark oversized coat and cap, he was pressing himself up against the side of the truck.

":::gasp::: Do I know you!?" she stated as she stepped closer. "I've seen you before I think.." she stated. "What are you doing here?.....what do you want?" She demanded stepping closer in a menacing fashion. As she stepped closer, the youngman tried to press himself further back into the wall of the truck, another whimper escaping his throat as the woman got closer.

"Answer me!...who are you? and what do you want?!" Cathrine demanded again, this time however as she got closer; she noticed that the youman seemed kinda small and kept backing away; as if, scared of her.

:::::what in heavens name?....why would a man be scared of a woman?:::: she thought, then she took another step towards him, this time turning the lanturn up higher so she could get a good look at him. What she saw horrified her

"::::Gasp::: Dear God!" She exclaimed. Now that she could see the intruder better, she observed that he was no more than a child. ::::Gods.....he can't be no more than sixteen at the most.:::: she thought, then she caught a good look at his face. She could see the bruises, the swollen lip, the blood, the trembling of his lower lip, the violent shaking of his body, and the terror filled eyes.

"You look like you should be in a hospital" She comented, her mind still couldn't shake the fact that she had seen him before.

As she moved towards him some more, she watched as he scrambled away from her, the only sounds he made were little whimpers made out of fear. Her eyes went wide as she saw nothing but stark raving terror radiating through out the boys body.

"Wha....?" she started, startled over the fact that the boy was violently shaking and making more whimpering noise like a terrified puppy that had been kicked one to many times. As she got a bit closer, she could finally make out more of the youngmans features. She noticed that he was clutching his right arm, then she noticed it. The missing puzzle peice, she saw the long braid clutched tightly in his hand and her eyes went wide.

"Oh God!.....I do know you!" she said, forgetting that he seemed terrified of her and moved quickly towards him, only to stop abruptly when he screamed in fear.

"Aaaaahhhhhh!" the terrified young man screamed as Cathrine moved towrds him, then he tried to scramble further away from her, before huddling down on the ground and curling up into a tight protective ball, whimpering pathetically. Cathrine watched, not only in horror, but in pain as the young man scrambled away from her and then curl into himself, her heart going out to the terrified teen.

All she wanted to do was take him in her arms and sooth away what ever was causing his pain filled reaction. She could see moisture on his cheeks that glisten along with the blood. Coming to her senses, and realizing that the boy needed help, she frantically shouted for the one person who might be able to give it.

"TROWA!!!"

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To be continued........MORE COMING SOON!!!!!

Copyright © 2000 by Rebecca Stewart

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Authors notes*~

Becca~*::::::Ducks under her desk to avoid flying objects being thrown at her::::: "I'm sorry!!....It....well....it couldn't be helped ...I...well.....I..::::sweatdrops:::: "I swear this is all part of my brains idea!....What?...ya think that it...nu uh!...theres more...lots more!" ::::looks at this part of the story....suddenly bursts into tears....grabs her Duo and holds him tight::::"I'm Sooo Sorry!!!" :::pulls her Duocloser::::

Becca~*...."This one was really....really hard to do"...::::sniffle...sniffle::::...."I must have cried like five time just trying to write that one part" :

:::notices her Duo was staring at her with a bewildered look on his face....she just snuggles him closer....then shoots a glare over in Heero's directions::::

Becca~*...."Its all *HIS* fault ya know!" ::::points finger accusingly at Heero....who in return looks back at her wanting to know what he did:::

Becca~*...."Don't give me that look....you selfish, ungrateful bastard!" :::still glaring at Heero when she notices that Trowa is reading her story over her shoulder...then sees him shoot Heero a glare as well::::

Trowa~*...".she's right....it is all your fault" ::::calm voice, glaring at Heero...then shoots Quatre a mornful glare as well::::

::::Both Heero and Quatre looked startled by the look in the silent green-eyed teens eyes::::

Becca~*...."You two should be ashamed of yourselves" :::hears Sniffling noises....looks down to see her Duo crying....then realizes he read the story:::: aw Crap! ::::pulls her Duo closer.....suddenly hears::::

Heero~*...."omae o korosu" :::::as he looks directly at Becca::::

Becca~*...."ME!?.....your the jerk who dumped him for blondie over there ::::points to Quatre:::: becuase he had some trouble being intiment with you!...Now looked what happend....and thats all your fault....he could have been nice and happy...and SAFE with YOU....YUY!.....but nooooo...you just couldn't wait could ya."

::::starts to mumble under her breath as she pulles Duo closer....then notices the look on Heero's face as her statement hits home....::::sigh:::: I promise....in my other story...you wont look....to much like an ass K Yuy?"

Heero~*....::::shooting her a glare that says "Your Dead meat"....then stalking over towards her and grabs Duo...placing him protectively in his arms and stalking off towards their room.... slamming the door::::

Becca~*...."Well....that went well". :::looks over at Quatre....notices tears....pulls him close:::: I'm sorry Quatre...I know your a sweet boy...just rememeber..... this is just a story.....it'll be o.k. ::::hugs the lil blonde before passing him to a paitently waiting Trowa....then watches as they head towards their room....turns As she hears an angry shout of disbelief....mumbles::::: "Oh Great!"

Wufei~*...."YOU PAIRED ME WITH REALNA!!...AND I'M HAPPY ABOUT IT!" he shouted in anger and disbelief. "Well woman!...What do you have to say for yourself?...This!...this! :::pointing to the story as he is at a loss for words...before gathering his wits::::....You have really done it this time!.....Do you know what kind of e-mails your going to get becuase of this :::::points to her story again in disgust:::: not to mention that I don't think Yuy is going to talk to you for a month.

Becca~*..."Uh Wufei?....Heero dosn't talk to me now....just threatens every now and then with the ocasional "omae o korosu"... then points his gun atme.

::::Wufei sweatdrops::::

Wufei~*.... "I think you know what I mean woman!" ::::walks off in ahuff::::

Becca~*....::::grins::::" he'll never understand me" ::::giggles::: "Well....I hope ya liked it....Drop me a line and let me know what ya think.....I know...IT WAS ANGSTY AS HELL.....but hey...what can I say....I love drama....and I love"....:::voice trails off.....as she tries to not give away too much of the what happens:::::::

MORE TO COME.....STAY TUNED!!!!

Ja ne mina-san!!!!