>->->->->Day 5: The First Day of the'Torture'<-<-<-<-<

I woke up and realized I was in a different room. I guessed I had been out of it for about three days because that’s what Hildey told me later on. There were hundreds of scientists in the viewing area and about ten down where I was. I felt the cold metal table touch my nude body. Well to be in front of that many people, half of whom were girls, naked was just alittle embarrassing.

Well I noticed Hildey wasn't to far off from me and I hated that nami/ikeike for what she had done. Captured me AND shot me. But I soon noticed my arm was no longer hurt and that Hildey had a big bruise on her eye. I assumed she wasn't meant to shot me and was punished with a slap in the face. Which wascorrect.

One of the scientists started to speak. I nicknamed him Fred since I don't want to say scientist all the time. Plus I like the name Fred. "Today we will give a Gundam pilot his just reward. He has killed many of our peace seeking soldiers and now we will torture him to the point where he will BAG us fordeath."

"Peace seeking?" I thought to myself. If they were talking about the specials all they ever wanted to dowas kill things.

Fred walked over to me and had some weird rod in his hand. It seemed to produce an electric pulse. Which I personally think hurts like hell. He turned it on and started enjoying playing around with it. ONMY BODY!

After that there were thousands of scares all over me but I knew time would heal any wound. Or at least that’s what Sister Helen always told me. I passed out again and didn't wake up till two days later. But during that time there were other tortures inflicted upon me that I don't even know about.

>->->->-> Day 8: The Pit and the Pendulum<-<-<-<-<

This time when I woke up I was very happy to find a HUGE Pendulum right above me. This time I was on a steel table and Hildey watched smiling. Well that's all good and well for her because she isn't the one who had a HUGE swinging thing after her! It got lower and lower and listening was so cruel. I waited for it to cut through my skin. Waited for it to kill me.

It lowered closer to me. It was right above me…I took a deep breath and waited. That's when…it cut through my stomach. Da rei mu to those doctors. They had all taken oaths to heal and this is what they did? I held my breath waiting for the pain. My body was numb but the steel blade in my stomach didn't proceed any farther. Instead it sat there digging into my bleeding body. Blood started too poor from my mouth and onto the floor and all over my body. I couldn'tbreath…

I halted and stared at Hildey. Her mouth was wide opened and pain and sorrow was in her eyes. The whole room was silent and glared… glared at the blood. The pain finally started to control my body and a shriek of pain was pressed out of my lips.

"Argh…" I moaned as I too stared at the blade. I guessed I had been sitting there for awhile because I heard Hildey cry and the ground was covered withblood.

My body twitched. 'You finally found a suitable torture for killing Gundam pilots and it's so old andtraditional.' I thought,

I bit my lip. The steel blade hadn't moved an inch yet. And still I wanted to cry. A single tear fell from me eye because I refused to let them see me cry really hard. My pupils grew large and I realized what I was thinking about. Heero. He was the one and only thing in my thoughts at that moment. Well not including the steel blade. I remembered all the happy times we were together…well that is until I realized there weren't happy times together. At that instant I did cry. 5 sparkling tears came out of my eye and fell to the ground. I guess everyone thought that I cried from pain but I really cried because I wanted to have one happy moment with Heero before I died. That was never to happen though….

Hildey cried even louder. Finally the man who had been torturing me stepped forth. "This, this is the tool we shall use to destroy soldiers whom oppose us. Look and see the pain of this Gundam pilot." He saidcruelly.

I didn't give a yaro about that guy I was busy thinking about Hee-chan and how I would see him again. "Notice how he cries in pain. The steel blade is firmly in is stomach and is causing pain that is slow and torturous." Said the doctor pointing to my eyeswhere the tears were.

"I am not crying because of the pain. I am crying for another reason. Something an evil soul such as you would never understand… And Hildey…" I spoketrying not to die.

"Yes?" she asked looking at me and stopping hercrying for a moment.

"You said… you said that I killed the innocent earlier… but that… that is not true…we both know very well I only kill soldiers who joined OZ foolishly. They fight and die for what they believe…" I whisperednearing death.

Hildey nodded and acknowledged her mistake and her stupidity. "I know Duo…I just hate to admit the real reason is that I lo-… never mind…"

I could guess how that sentence was going to end. And at that time I didn't really want to bug anyone at all. I just wanted my Heero…oh I missed him even if he was mean and cruel to me…I tried to stay alive butI couldn't…

>->->->->->->End Entry<-<-<-<-<-<-<

Heero shook. He stared at Duo and a single tear feel from his eye. "Duo…" he whispered lovingly.

Duo looked ready to die. The pale skin, dilated eyes, the sweat, and the shivering lip. Shinigami looked ready to take his last horrible breath.

"What…do…you…want Heero?" gasped out Duo trying tolive.

Heero just stared at him coldly…he wasn't expecting Duo to be awake. He wondered if that he should say the three words he always wanted to. The 'I love you' was never to come though. He, Heero Yuy, could never say such words to Duo, or anyone for thatmatter.

"Nothing…you want nothing… I understand then…" whispered Duo. He didn't seem to remember ANYTHING he wrote in the mission log or he would have worried that Heero read the part about him missing Heero.

Heero leaned over to Duo and lifted up the shirt because he wanted to see the scare for himself. The one from the steel blade. There was a fresh scab that was all over his entire stomach. Even some red blood stains even though he wasn't bleeding anymore. Heero bit his lip in shock of what had happened. It wastrue, all true…

>->->->->Day Ten: Awake at last <-<-<-<-<

I blinked my eyes trying to wake up. I heard a beeping noise and knew I was sadly still alive. Oh how I wished so much to die…to die so I could leave this pain. Then realized that I would never see Heero again…maybe that would be for the best…

The beeping sound continued and I tried to cover myears so it would go away…but I was tied down. I could still taste blood in my mouth though. Oh I should have died…I wished with all my might that I would have died like I should of. The taste…blood…my blood…

While deep in thought Hildey walked through the door as it opened. She was sad and looked very sorry. I noticed there was another bruise mark on her face. Actually it covered her eye in purple.

"Hildey…what happened to you?" I asked. I sat up and noticed that I had a huge bandage over my stomach, which was stained red with blood. I didn't pay anymore attention to it and looked at Hildey with achild's curiosity in my eyes.

"I was hit for talking to you in a friendly way…" she whispered to me. I leaned up and grabbed Hildey'shand.

"Well…I was wondering…why did you act so kind? I mean you bring me here then…" I didn't finish because there was no need to really…

"I am so sorry…" said Hildey starting to cry. She put her head on my shoulder and had all her tears come onto my shoulder. I wanted to comfort her but…shetried to kill me!

"Hildey…I want to go home and see Heero one last time before I die…" I whispered.

"I understand Duo…I understand completely. Do you forgive me at all?" asked Hildey.

"I do…just I want to ask you something…why did I feel an electrical pulse go through me when I had the steel blade in me?" I asked.

"The steel blade was electric. It was the doctor who said that just using something from ancient times wouldn't do unless it was upgraded. Thus the electrical charge… Now Duo let me get you out of here." Said Hildey starting to pick me up.

"NANI? What are you doing Hildey?" I asked.

"I am getting you out of here." She said to me urgently. With that she picked me up and walked off through many halls. No one was in the halls for some reason. Hildey explained the doctor was having an important meeting which everyone was to come to aboutkilling the Gundam pilots.

I grabbed my stomach and held it in pain. Finally we reached a mobile suit area. She plopped me into a Leo and waved goodbye to me after setting auto-piloton for me.

"Hildey won't you come with me?" I asked…

"No I can't. You and Heero must stay alone and I will try to send you information about the meeting." Shouted Hildey as the suit took off.

I nodded then fell asleep in the mobile suit. I didn't pay attention to anything but getting home…

>->->->->Day 13: Long Time…<-<-<-<-<

I woke up suddenly noticing I was being shot at. I had no chance of piloting the mobile suit in my condition so I kept flying. I realized I had slept for three days and was still tired. Eventually I got the Virgo suits away from me and leaned back into the cockpit chair. I searched for food but I wasn't that lucky at all. I wasn't to eat till I got home…

>->->->->Day 15: Short but Sweet! <-<-<-<-<

I am not writing much but I am home. When I arrived I got a cold hollow look from Heero and then we… did lemony things… anyway! He didn't notice the marks…the things from my pain as I did when I first saw his back. The large scar that he has from when Dr. J raped him as a child and threw the years. ((Karosai's Note: Dr. J does rape Heero in the manga so I added it in because manga is the originalstuff!))

I just went along with him. After all he was the thing I wanted to see most though I do not know why. I don't understand why I feel so strong towards him at all. After all he is only a cold-hearted bakayaro. Oh well I am worn out and my cuts are starting to achemore…

>->->->->End Entry<-<-<-<-<

Heero's eyes widened. He hadn't noticed at all and couldn't believe Duo's love for him. He could tell how Duo's hand writing got worse as time progressed. He turned and looked at Duo who seemed to be in anendless pain.

"Don't die on me…please…" whispered Heero as he put down the mission log and moved next to Duo.

"But I…want to…" whispered Duo in a broken voice.

Heero wanted to cry. He for once said what he thought. "You want to leave me…leave me alone?"

"No Heero…I would never hurt you…I…I love you Heero Yuy…" said Duo as he turned to face Heero. Duo didn't mind if Heero saw him cry anymore because there were thousands of tears in his eyes.

"Duo…I…" Heero couldn't finish. It wasn't his style.

"I love you so much I want to see you in pain…I want to see you cry for me…even if you won't I can still hope for it can’t I?" whispered Duo nearingdeath.

"I love you Duo. I always have. I love you more then anything in this world…or in any other…I am in pain… I don't want you to die… I want you to live…and grow up to an adult…" Heero said getting asingle tear in his eye.

"Only one tear huh? Oh…well don't blame you…I got to see you cry… for me…I am happy and need nothing else… I just want one last wish…" whispered Duo.

Heero let another tear fall as he kissed Duo. "Anything…"

"I know…I am going to die in a few more moments…I am Shinigami and can tell… please promise me you won't die…you will live after I do and grow up happily… please promise me…" Duo said kissing Heero's cheek.

"I promise Duo…" whispered Heero now in full-blowntears.

Duo smiled as blood started coming out of his mouth then it slowly turned black. Then finally Duo passed away with his eyes open. As if he wanted to see Heeroas he died.

"Duo... I never got to say 'good bye'…" whispered Heero as he kissed Duo's lifeless lips. "Comeback…please come back…"

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Well that's the end of part one ^^ The first part was so long I had to divide it into two! Anyway my pallies thought this was to end! MWAHAHAHA YEAH RIGHT! The chances of me ending a fic that was only 27 pages... Well I only do that to none yaoi ones because those are boring **snore** YAOI IS SO FUN ^^ Uh anyways I think I just confused myself! I wrote the fic when I was in an angst mode and I send it when I am SUPER HYPER! Uh...I better go now...