I've decided that I'd keep a little journal. It's for some of my loyal followers to enjoy, for myself to remember my most exciting days, and to keep me busy cuz i dun wanna go to sleep. So sit back and relax for u will get a break from my VERY bright homepage.

Tomorrow's date is like sum kinda of big controversy. They said that 9/9/99 is like a pre-Y2K bug thing where sum of the older model of computers will shut down. But they said it wasn't that big of a deal. So...i guess i have nothing really to worry about. Tomorrow the MTV Music Awards will show. Its too bad cuz i wont be able to watch it...i'm almost 18 now (yay!) and still has never had cable TV in my household. Ok...About today. I did a lot of nothing. Woke up at 1 pm, worked out, ate, picked up my sister, went home, watched TV, ate, went online. What an exciting life. Well...it wasn't completely that boring. I did a lot of planning and thinking today.

Since this is my first journal entry, i'll make it more juicier than it will ever be. I'm going off to UCSD soon, and after 18 years of living in Sacramento, i would have to admit i'm not ready at all. Not only because i'm not physically ready, but also mentally. I haven't even begun to pack any of my belongings nore shopped for any necessities. Bottom line is that i'm confused. Confused about the future and the new life that i will face. I've grown up in this same house all my life and i dunno if i can adapt. Sure i'm probably being paranoid, but i can't help it. Part of me says "HELL YEAH BABEE!!! I'M GONE!", and another part doesn't want to leave home. Hey, who would...i've been treated really well, and everything is like...FREE. But i guess i have to move one right? Can't live in this house forever. Tomorrow i guess i'll start my shopping. I need to buy a lotta things for my new place.

Today, i've also done a lot of thinking. As i walked around my cozy lil house, i couldn't help but to recollect about the old times i've had here as a child. I saw myself playing with toys that i used to LOVE playing with. We still have them in the closet too! I remember how all my little toys would sumhow be able to come together and form magnificent war scenarios. Wow...my imagination used to run rampid...Such innocence is lost now however. No more free spirited play time for me anymore (hehe, with kid toys that is). From here on out...things become a lot more serious.

Hmm...pretty good 1st entry...We'll see how up to date i am with these now........

Today was basically a whole bunch of yesterday all over again. Work out, ate, watched tv, planned out my move to San Diego, comp, sleep. I didn't do my shopping like i said i would either, and i think my vision has gotten about another level worse from watchin TV and comp all day. Umm...well this basically sums up my day. Wow...thats 2 entries in a row...

Well i took the day off from work today in wut i thought would be one of my most memorable days of my life...But it instead turned out to be one of my "worst luck days". i woke up to take passport pictures at 8 am today...for me that is beyond early. When i got there the place was closed so i had to go home and when i came back...it cost 20 bucks for 2 pictures....goddamn. Then i went to this club thingy and saw the circus....pretty cool watchin the elephants shit.

Haha. Afterwards we were goin to do sumthing...anything, so we called up a lot of frenz but no one could do anything, then we decided to go to the bay area and chill with my other fren but then said it would prolly not be worth the effort to drive down...but it turns out that it REALLY would have. SOooo....we chilled at simons all day, doin nothing. Went to outback to eat one EXPENSIVE dinner. Then was SUPPOSED to go out wit this other friend but she flaked out on us.... I think everyone was out doin sumthing tonight. Sumthing other than nothing. Finally we went home and here i am typing this out. It was only 10 minutes ago that i discovered how many people were in the bay waiting for us...neway...i also was out 1 days werk which is also 1 days pay. Sooooo my day turned out to be very crappy.

Today was a big surprise. I did nothing. I woke up this morning...er afternoon at 1 and like started to pack until i went to work. I'm tired of work. I can't begin to imagine how much of it i will be doing in just a few years. But oh well. At work today, sum of my coworkers gave me 20 bucks as a bday gift. I'm very flattered that people i barely know would chip in and make my day more brighter. I love it when this world loves me. heheh. Work was slow, usually is on sunday. So afterwards i went home, and here i am.

Today i found out that my parents were going to surprise me with sum kinda big get together with my frenz...showing how much they know about my life, they didn't realize that all my frenz were either already gone for college or they were busy. So...its the thought that counts then right? So...tomorrow is my birthday. I step from child-hood to man-hood. I don't know but it seems like i made that step a long time ago. It was fate that today i stumbled upon my old diary. Reading my entries from when i was in third grade really brought back memories. As I read those pages, the days came back with vivid details of my past. Such innocence. Playing was a big part of my life. My friends Jeff B. and Jeff C. I remember our old fantasies about fortresses and the want to be part of the action in those cool cartoons. The juvenile imagination coming to life was boundless and also endless. Damn i miss those days. Well. I decided to bring the diary to college with me. I think i will always keep it so when i'm 40 i'll still remember. Hehehe, i used to write about 2 sentences a day in that diary. Now look at me, aren't ya proud? =)

My birthday was today. Yay. I woke up at 11 and did my routine workout. Then an hour later i went back to sleep. I decided that the best way for me to celebrate today was to go out and fun with my friends. I didn't do that because i couldn't do that. So i stayed home and watched tv untill i had to go to work. After a hard day at work, i came home to a birthday cake and a couple presents. Pretty nice. And now here i am typing.

I hate sour throughts. Well, i'm not sure wut it is. But do you ever get that annoying thing in between the back of your throught and nose? And no matter how much weezing or coughing you do will make it come out? Well i had that ALLLLLLLL DAYYYYYYY. I still have it. As we speak i'm being annoyed like crazy. Please help. Anyway, I am 18 years of age now. The way I think of it, its not so special. I can now vote, buy cigarettes, and go to strip joints, along with a few other things. All of which i believe i will never do. So I feel that their isn't much difference from being 17 or 18. Anyways, my birthday wasn't as spectacular as i had hoped it to be. So i shall file this day under "ordinary".

Well i forgot to write in this yesterday, but all that was remotely important is that it was my last day of work. I'm quiting so early because i want to take a week off to relax before i leave. Sounds kool huh?

Anyway...Today, i did a LOT of packing. I'm pretty much done cept for my clothes and bathroom stuff. I have so many boxes, I'm wondering if it will all fit in my tiny dorm room. I also talked with my roomate today. We did a couple of formal introductions and questionings. We are not prepared. Its also pretty kool that he's from Sacramento and he's korean...David Kim, not very original, but..iss all good. Anyway, i predict that David and I will get along great. Even though I preferred single housing as did he. Also today i visited my high school for the purpose of checking out my former Asian Culture Club. I wanted to see how its going to run without its best president ever to have come to office, me. heheh. Actually i think its going to go great. The new president, Nguyen Tran, seems very efficient and clever. Lastly, today I didn't do very much else but sleep and watch tv. I WAS going to do some more shopping but figured that vegetating would be more entertaining. Damn was I wrong...

Today was a very reminiscent day...(dunno bout the spelling nor word choice). I woke up today and did my self workout again and was surprised at how I could do about 50 more push ups than I could do yesterday. Because yesterday I did them until my arms said "f*ck you".

Well after that I visited my good friend Wilson. I've know him and his family ever since I was in third grade. He is goin to UCSC tomorrow which is a great distance from UCSD... Anyways he is one of my oldest and best friends as am I to him (I think). I went over to his house to talk about the old times and play some grueling matches of badminton like we used to. Then we played sum new worm game on his computer and that took up a big chunk of our day...this game is addicting like crazy! Well I left around 7 pm and before I left we took some pictures. Wilson...I'm gunna miss you old buddy...our sleep overs, ski trips, computer games, waterwars, craw-dad fishing, creek hiking, badminton games, slingshot targets, bow and arrow shots, long phone talks about nothing, reno trips, and so on...See you in the future bro...peace!

I'm really not sure if anyone ever reads this, but o well...I'll humor myself. Today was the Key Club RFTC. I dont know y da hell I still go to these Key Club things...It might be because im stupid, too attached to the club, or love the people. I think its all 3. This little event really reminded me of convention. All the people, workshops, and speeches brought a ton of memories. But between things...I was bored half to death. I didn't go to any of the workshops, so instead I sat around and did nothing. I guess the reason why I was there is because I was too lazy to make 2 trips dropping and picking up my sister. After the whole thing, I did some shopping. I bought a lot of new clothes for my new life in SD. I'm afraid some of my favorite stores won't be down there...

Today I woke up to get my scholarship from my dad's family association thing. It was a total of 200 bucks. Being a third place prize, I was quite upset. The awards were given on the basis of the high school cum. GPA. The association uses the unweighted scale so my total was only 3.72. If it was wieghted, I would have recieved the first place award of 500 dollars. So I'm not too happy. After this award ceremony thing there was a big 'ol banquet where I had some good chinese food.

I woke up early today to pick up my suit. Its a a 2 piece suit with all da nicest material money could buy. And I got it at a good deal too. Cost me 150 bucks...I bought it for all da formals I plan on going to, and some special night outs.

Today, I WENT TO WORK. Yup. I quit last week. But like the gentleman I am, i decided to help out my good friend's mom and go to work. It was very quiet at the restaurant. Not too many customers. Oh well, at least I made some money. I'm starting to get conservative with my spending now...realizing that money isn't going to grow on trees for me anymore. I hope to get a job down in SD...but I'm not so confident about having enough time to fit in everything that I want to do...Tomorrow, I begin the final stages of my packing...

HehEHhehEhEheh wellZ....like i said...this is my SOMEWHAT continuous journal. Its been over a month and i can't begin to write out all the shizznits i've done so far here at UCSD. I'm learning so much both inside and outside of the classroom. I'm currently occupied in a shiet load of stuff....pledging for Lambda Phi Epsilon....Double E major, etc etc....but basically i'm having a great time. Everyday theres something to do. And its serious here. Although there is a lot of time to screw around, theres work to be done. God I love it here. So awesome. Anyway, I'm going to try my best to start updating this more frequently...but most likely i wont find the time to... So....i'm going to now do my laundry which hasn't been done in over 2 weeks.

I gotta tell you guyz...pledging is really challenging. Its teaching me a lot about responsibility, respect, time management, etc. I have a mid-term in about an hour....so i'm not gunna write much. For now....I'd like to say that I need to work on studying more harder. Its NOT THE SAME AS HIGH SCHOOL. I've been pulling all-nighters for the past few days because i've been putting stuff off. So, as of now, I'm going to be up to date on everything I do. No more of this procrastination shiet. Well, I'm going to go fail my test now...talk to whoever still reads this stuff later...

My definition of "hard" increases day by day. Pledging is no fun and games thing. I think that it really is a big decision to make. It takes up so much of my time and effort that sleep becomes the last priority in my life. I've done OK on my midterms since they're supposed to come first...but i'm pretty sure that they're tied with the fraternity for me right now. HehEHe...on a funny and annoying note...all my pants are f*cked up. My jeans are breaking apart, my kahkis are stained beyond cleanable...and so i now have to spend prolly bout 200 bucks on new pants. damnit. Anyways....i have a ton of laundry and homework to do...so until laters.

The last few days I was in Riverside. It was the HARDEST day of my life. I don't know whats up with typing "hard" at least once a day in these entries....but i have to. Pledging is only going to get harder too. BUT....i'm going to get through all this shit cuz i'm no quitter. Besides pledging, i recently got news that my friend Nguyen got into a car accident and i'm very worried. I'll probably call her as soon as i get a chance. My buddy Eric emailed me da 411 with wussup in sactown...and hehehehehe i think ur the only freaking one who reads all this shit! Anyways....i can't move my neck nor any other part of my body, so i think i'm going to go back to bed.

Today was a pretty kool day. My pledge class got to go kick it with the SD Kappas. We went to eat at sum chinese restaurant in 99 Ranch den we chilled at Family Fun Center. Dey're pretty kool. But anyways...I think that i REALLY NEED TO WORK ON TIME MANAGEMENT. Cuz of right now....i SUCK. I have 2 quizzes to fail tomorrow so I should be studying now...Actually...i think i'm going to be good now and start. So Today's entry is going to be short...C Yaz tomorrow!

I guess i should just shut up about trying to keep consistent with my updates. I'm in my winter break now and might I say...I've never been so bored in my entire life. I love being able to rest all day...but no ones around to do anything. grrr... Well, in 2 days i'm going back to SD to get ready for the hardest and final part of my pledge period. And after I get through that...I'll cross. WOO HOO!!!! Anyways...Back to what I've done over break...I remember getting off the plane and stepping foot onto ol' Sacramento. It felt awkward cuz I haven't been here for so long. When I got home I ate sum dinner followed by a nice 15 hour sleep. It was great to put in sum much needed shut eye from many days of all-nighters...(*finals*cough*cough*). Since I woke up from that day...I haven't done much other than sleeping, eating, watchin tv, and chillin with sum frenz. Ohh...I also went down ta San Jo for a few days too. Not much excitement during the holidays like u get at UCSD, but I missed the boredom, I guess. Tomorrow I will chill with Sactown frenz one last time for about 3-4 months...and also get ready for sum action down south.

As i prepare to leave this "haven" (should i call it) and return to the massive amounts of freedom...might I say that I don't know what the heck i'm doing. hehehe. My life is like taking sum winding road towards sum great "unknown" (wutever that means). But now that I think about it, returning home changed me back to the old Bryant before I went to college...before that powerful word...freedom. I actually feel like a child again, living under my parents terms and conditions...Oh well. Many people said that i've changed. And its wierd cuz I KNOW I've changed. Maybe for the better...or maybe for the worse. But I dunno. I believe that my fate has already been written...and i'm livin the life that i was destined to live. So wherever that road takes me...I'm ready for it. BRING IT ON! hehe...Ok i think I should stop typing for today...hehehe see you again whenevers...

Like I said, screw consistency. Well, I did it. I crossed. Its the best feeling in the world. Nothing I say can really describe how much I love being apart of Lambda Phi Epsilon. Anyways, My life can now go back on track, with pledging done and all... But I'm still having trouble with my classes cuz they're so dayam hard! Anyways, After getting back to SD and crossing, I've begun to realize how much lazier i am. I don't want to do anything! My god...this isn't good. Anyways...thought i'd juz update this cuz I'm not doing anything else now, until god knows when I'll update this again...