And I sit here alone
Masking feelings from the world
Holding onto memories that should have disappeared
Close to my body
And I feel more pain.
And I wait
Patiently
To hear you say those words
Words that I've been waiting to hear.
But they never reach me.
Blocked out by your pride.
I feel your warmth
Against my aching body
And I keep my eyes shut.
In fear, you wont be there
When I'm done hallucinating.
And I die
Each time you disappear
Anxiously
I wait to be
Loved
Held
Touched by you.
But when I stop hallucinating
I realize you are a dream.
No longer reality
And in this cruel world
I face the truth
I sleep alone
As the night eats away at my heart
In the darkness, I lay
I know you think of me.
And I knwo you ache for me
As I ache for you...