sick & tired



i'm so tired of it all
i'm tired of the headaches
i'm tired of waiting for her call
i'm tired of all the fakes
i'm so tired of it

i'm so sick of it all
i'm sick of the sleepless nights
i'm sick of the long fall
i'm sick of all the fights
i'm so sick of it

and i'm tired of me
tired of who i want to be
tired of the dried red
tired of the stained bed

and i'm sick of being depressed
sick of never being impressed
sick of hiding in the dark
sick of this scarred mark

but i'm afraid
afraid to change it all
afraid of what the future may hold
afraid that once again i'll take the fall
afraid i'll have to again face the cold

and i'm afraid i'll lose her again
afraid i'll lose her forever
afraid of all this even when
i've already lost her


cmg

10/18/00





my abyss...

black notebook