mindwar



i'm finally where i wanted to be
but look at that, i'm still lost
i don't know what to do
i don't want to consider the cost

i tell myself, "you can't fuck up now"
i don't want to be that person anymore
"cut your hair and start all over"
that's the plan, that's what i've come here for

the outcome of my future, my life
all to be determined by my own actions
it's so overwhelming
my mind, being divided into factions

why must i be at war with my own mind?
shouldn't it be obvious at this point what i should do?
why am i so very confused?
i only hope my fears don't continue to persue...


cmg

9/18/01







my abyss...
black notebook