lost again



slipped away again
lost myself along the way
don't know where i am
don't know what happened to me
but here i stand
in the middle of nowhere
but you're still right here
but i'm still right here
the faces have changed
but it's still all the same
the voices are all the same
depressing, degrading, insulting, hating
tear a hole, bleeds rose red
watch it bleed, suffer in ecstacy
make it rot, black on the inside
end it quick, a mercykilling
and after all i go through
after all i've tried
i'm still completely lost
i still hate myself
and that will be my downfall


cmg
9/21/00



my abyss...
black notebook