fine, don't come back



whatever then, i don't care
shit, i guess i'll get by without you
one less reason to be depressed
in my pathetic fucking life

i'll just stand by and watch
as my feelings are shattered
just like the bottles i threw in the road
because i was so fucking pissed

i'll watch as my cuts bleed
just like my worthless heart
i wanna watch it turn black
with hate, despair, and lonliness

but if i don't care
why am i pissed ?
why do i hate myself ?
why do i miss you ?

i guess i do care
but then, does it really matter ?
i didn't think so
yeah, i guess i'll survive
even though i don't want to


cmg

9/19/00







my abyss...
black notebook