Damien finally resurfaced. Bearing horrid news. Of course. I should have expected it. I like him so much and I want to be with him so much and I need a reason to stop being the whore that I have become. It's not his fault at all. It's mine. Being the naive, romatic girl I am, I just assumed we'd fall madly in love and be together forever....ok, exaggeration. But I dunno. I didn't think he'd tell me he's too busy to be with me....but he wants to be, but it wouldn't be fair. And he's right. I know it. I was telling my friend Sean on friday that if we were together, I'd miss him so much all the time, I'd have trouble being faithful.
I wish he could drop everything and just be with me. See? I am not in touch with reality at all. Even now, I know its not gonna happen, I still think he's gonna change his mind and decide to be mine.