I have no friends. Today I realized this. Sean now hates me. Which was really to be expected. I'm still hoping he'll forgive me and can be my friend. I miss him already.

But this is the worst part. This is the part that hurt me like madness. This guy, didn't think he was my friend, but didn't think he was my enemy...and honestly, I am one of the nicest people to him wrote this in his journal:

Julia, aka Jamie's roommate, is such a total fucking bitch. I feel sorry for Jamie for having to live with her, and anyone who has to come in contact with her. She is such a bitch that we sing the kyle's mom's a bitch song from south park and put in julia in place of kyle's mom. that's how much of a bitch she is. she compares to RJA in terms of bitchiness

I was blown away. I have never felt so hated. He's here right now. And I am crying. But trying not to. Don't think its been noticed. The thing is though, all his roommates hate me to. One of them I've talked to all of 2-3 times. And he hates me! And Jaime's little Ian hates me. God damn. Right now I just wanna run away and be in Indiana with my mom. I have so much to deal with. I don't need this. People don't understand me so they decide to hate me.