I don't know how to start this. For once I am at a loss for words. So I'll just go: Dan and I said "I love you" tonight. The way it happened was really funny. And Dan wants me to write about it though, because it makes me look dumb and him look cool.
So we were lying in his bed watching tv. And I say the safest thing...though he had to prod it out of me. I told him I was ready to have sex with him...not what he was expecting. So then he told me he wouldn't have sex with me unless we were in love. And I'm like, well why do you think I want to have sex with you? Of course, he told me I had to tell him why. And I'm about to cry the whole time realizing what I wanted to say. But I couldn't say it. Things like that just aren't easy for me. So he just kissed me.
Then he told me he loves me. And I told him I love him. And I couldn't decide whether to cry or laugh. But it was so amazing. Because I realized I wasn't just saying it...that it was actually real.
I got home and let Jaime tell me about her whole date on saturday that she doesn't know what to wear to and then when there was a tiny moment of silence, I slipped in my story. And she was happy for me, genuinely it seemed. Then I went outside to smoke and Lauren and her friend were out there, so I told them too. And they squealed and were jealous.