So, I've come to realize something. Jeremy...well, that's probably not gonna happen again. Because, all he wanted was to cop a feel then throw me away. I can tell. You know, I never thought he'd be my boyfriend. That's illogical. But I thought he was my friend. Really.

I realized something else though. It's my fault that I am treated like a sexual object. No one wants to know me. I show them my breasts and that's all they can think about. Jeremy didn't show any interest in me until he saw me naked on my web cam. I am ridiculous. I mean, I like to sit at the computer nude or topless. But I should know better. Why would anyone want to get to know me when they can just get to know my body? Ugh. It's disgusting. I am so comfortable with nudity, I don't even think about it. But its like this humongous deal to most guys.

Ugh. I don't even know what I am so upset about. I guess I am disappointed about Jeremy. Hell, I know I am. I was looking forward to hanging out and kissing him more. I spose it won't be happening. I'll just see him in passing whenever I need something from the hardware store. And that's it. Sigh.