I am the most selfish, thoughtless, lamest loser on the planet. I think of no one else sometimes. It's awful.

Ryan read my journal. He read that I lied to him. And he confronted me about it. I'm glad he did though. Because me lying wasn't right. But he was so damn nice about it. That kills me. He shoulda bitched me out. I deserve it. ARG!! What a nice, awesome guy. Pisses me off.