I cannot believe how far I have come since June. In June I was the well respected president of SADD and an strong voice in anti-drugs and alcohol. And tonight, my 4th cousin, Hilary *whom I met for the first time tonight) took me to a movie. On the way to the movie, she said, "Do you mind if I smoke a joint?" And I said, no of course not (because I didn't want her to think I was uptight....arg!!!!) so she drove around a neighborhood, in her convertible (totally out in the open) and smoked up. Anyone could have seen her. ANYONE. And I smoked some of it too :\ I've never used any sort of illicit substances in my life. I feel like shit now. And I am glad. Smoking that marajuana was such a step down for me. I cannot believe myself. I am disgusting. That is something I will never do again.