I hate being a girlfriend. I despise it. Being a girlfriend has too many responsibilities. For example: I'm sposed to want to be around my boyfriend all the fucking time. I hate that.

Rob came by today unannounced. I was mean to him and kicked him out. I didn't even kiss him. He seemed to be a bit confused. But I need space! This relationship does not suit me. I can't be declaring all my emotions all the time. And he insists upon this. Ugh. This is all going waaaaaay too fast. I want to back up to the day we met and just say 'I'd like to go out with you, but no committment.' My mom says that its too late for that though. So I dunno. I just don't want to have to be committed to him. I don't want to have to tell him how much I like him. I just wanna laugh and have a good time. That's all for now. I don't think that's too much to ask.