I have never known love. Of one type my family,of course loves me but as far as knowing the love of someone that is not related, I have never had the joys of knowning. I have ideas of what I think love is or at least what would happen when one is in love.You would always think of the person when you are together or apart. When you are apart you can't wait to be with them again. You see and feel them in any thing that you do. You want to give them everything that they need or want. Also when you are with them it feels as though you are the only two in the world. I have known these feeling. Recently I met a really nice lady that makes me feel this way. I wake up in the morning with thoughts of her in my head and I wake happy knowing that I will get to talk to her everyday. To talk to her I have to go online but that is just as good as in person. Sometimes when I get to where she is I sometimes just sit and watch her just sitting there. Watching before she knows I am there. I think how lucky I am to find such a special person. When I am down she cheers me up, when I am happy she joins me in my happiness. Often she is the cause of my happiness, Just being in the same room with her even online, with her makes me feel happy. Whole, like my life has meaning. I wonder sometimes what I have done to deserve these feelings. As I have grown up I grew to believe that I would never find these feelings nor would anyone ever have them for me. I do believe as she tells me that she has at least some of these feelings for me. I know that these feelings can never be acted on in a personal way but I am greatful that we can have them on here, and that she lets me explore them. She has done so much for me that I don't even know where to start to say thank you. She has helped me alot learn about these feelings. She understand when I get confused and feel helpless. Because of them I know that I to have helped to make her life better. As to how much I have to take her word on that. When I think of how much she has done for me I often think that she is too good to me,spoiling me. Due to the fact that these feeling can only be acted on over the computer, I hope that in time I do find someone that I can share these feelings with that is completely safe for me to do so. If things with this lady were different I would not have a problem doing so with her. But I know that this is all she can give of herself. To be honest I never expected this much with her. When I met her I was looking for a friend what I found in her was both a friend and more. I would never trade that for anything in the world. She will always be a friend and she will be in my heart and mind.