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3.15.02
Pretty big life altering changes going on. April 1st is my last day in my position @ Brown. I am resigning. I can't take the shit anymore. It got pretty mentally abusing for a while there. I ate shit for 2 years I think it's time to tuck in my ribbons and move on. It's scarey as hell. I am getting severance for 1 month so I have a month to get something going. I applied to another job on campus that I will be thrilled if I get. It's not Brown as a whole I am angry with. The university has great benefits and the students are pretty cool.. It's just lack of communication and poor management. Why do I always feel like I need to explain myself and all my reasons for leaving this place. I don't even need a reason at all. I can just move on. So.. My dream is that the other department (Athletics) calls.. offers me the job.. then I have 1 month to relax.. maybe go on vacation .. and get paid the whole time. That's my idea of fun ;) We'll see. Things have been so bad for so long that it HAS to be on the up now. I'm in one of the worst financial positions of my life. I'm still living alone and it certainly adds up. I have to go give 900 some odd dollars away to a woman I rear ended today also !! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... But one of my dear friends come up to visit from NY today so this brings a smile to my face. My love life is still amazing.. I just wish I had a job guarantee and some $$.. I am sure it will all be alright thou.. If I BELIEVE it will BE!!! <3 Angel.1.20.02
Well for lack of time.. and brain power.. I can't bring myself to type out whats going on with me.. so I'm copying an email i just sent to my friend.. You'll get the jist(sp?) of it. lol.
Date: Sun, 20 Jan 2002 10:01:08 AM Eastern Standard Time
From: RI ANGIE 3
To: ********
Good morning sunshine.
I'm just waking up..What a site I am...
I must say that I have to agree with you 100% about the other weekend. I
found myself. I can only think of one other time when my mind was so clear
and that was my old orchard beach trip in 97. Have you ever been to that
place? It's in Maine it's truly amazing.. Simple little town but it really
pulls at your heartstrings.
I'm amazingly happy. My life is running amuck as usual with my work being
insane. It seems as though I have to keep checking my back for knives but I
guess I can look at it this way...How many people are unemployed in this
world. I have a job. I am currently employed. Not gainfuly, it's not
progressive and god knows there's no ladder to climb. But I have a job that
pays me twice a month. I have a job where I'm not ashamed to say where I
work. At this moment of coarse..Who knows how long this will last.
So these are positive things.
Looking up ;)
Call you round 2:30
xoxoxox
Ange
P.S. I need to thank my girls for an excellent weekend in NYC on the 12th. Love and Light to JillBeanPot, Nikki Goddess, MellieBeanne, Vanessa (whop girl), Diana, and Emily. You girls are my life force!!!
P.P.S 2 classes this semester General Psych and Visual Basic. I will Pass. lol. Mark those words.
Always,
Ange.
12.5.01
Humm..I'm very busy and very happy. eeee Yup I said I was happy. How about that? It's been continual, now how about THAT?! I'm starting to learn that I can't save the world and that I am not super woman. That I cant take 4 classes a semester and work full time. It's all good when work is slow but when It's the fall and I am doing the telephone directory for the whole freaking university, it's not going to happen. Leaving a 3 year relationship doesn't help matters either. Makes it all kind of sticky. So if I happen to not pull myself out of this fall semester mess it's all good. I really have to keep telling myself that. I had the odds stacked and I learned a whole hella lot about myself, college, and my workload and that if they are all crazy its not going to happen and something is going to have to give. (If they are all crazy-HA- even myself) So, I've been pretty busy and I've had at least 5 colds this winter so far. People are so giving :). I'm still living alone and rolling with my strong on my own routine. I have this delicious boi around now though...:::yum::: Delicious boys make everything better ;) You are all jealous *Sticks fingers in her ears and flaps tounge out at you while rolling eyes*10.18.01
How lovely. I wrote nearly a page and then something went wrong and it all went bub-byes. So Let's try this again...So 7 months have passed. You would think in 7 months something amazing would have happened. Basically it's still the same old show. Still working at Brown (Brown the color of SHIT!!) Still at CCRI full time. I have learned a valuable lesson this semester. DO NOT TAKE 4 CLASSES! I really thought I could handle it but it seems as soon as I signed the line for 4 classes the world turned. Work went full force with projects, and the classes which were supposed to be 2 hours lab, 2 hours lecture ended up being 4 hours lecture and no labs. Now we all know Angel does not sit in the lab during lab time. It's not like I don't have a computer (or 2 or 3 for that matter) at home to do my work on. So I would go home at 8 and shower, eat, study, and go to bed at like 11. WELL... my classes are all 4 hour lectures and so I am malnourished, shower deprived, and I can rarely do all my homework. Oh and sleep..It's a dream. I am the type of person who needs about 9-11 hours sleep to function properly and I can't think of the last time I got such an abundance of sleep. Did I mention that I have a class on Saturday morning? I got a WP grade on my Java class. Something had to give in all the madness I was pushing through, the Java class caught the brunt of it. I couldn't devote the time the class needed. Not only that but it was an intro class, you would think that covers concepts, and maybe you write a program or 2, well that's not the case. We were writing a program the first night. I am interested to see what everyone else got in that damned class. So basically the odds were stacked against me this semester.If that is the only class that I plummet in then so be it. I learned my lesson. I ended up having a wonderful discussion with my professor of the Java class. Before that meeting I had referred to her as Satan and considered her my nemesis. She told me that she admired me and hoped to see me around again. I told her that she would see me again once I get my head straight and it wouldn't be for Java but rather for C++. So, Java has ended. Which frees up my Monday nights. Now you would think this is a joyous occasion to do homework and the like, well...I have deemed Monday my new gym night. There is never a dull moment in my life. I am so sick of paying crazy money for a gym I can only get to once a week. That's such crap. I love going to the gym too which really irritates me that my schedule is so insane. These classes are so damn demanding too. Database Management and Design, Windows 2000 Server, and Operating Systems are what's left. Operating systems is not what it sounds like either. Its all old school JCL. Which blows. and W2K server I expected to be all about the software aspect. ERRNNNTTT sorry. It's all crazy ness and I hope I pull through it. I am currently rolling solo through life. It's odd. I think I hate it for the most part. I don't like the loneliness. I don't like seeing something happen and looking to my left to say "did you see that" and theres no one there. I love driving by myself, I love going out constantly. but.. overall I don't think I like being alone. In the same sense most of the male race has failed me so I am rather negative at this point on the whole testosterone show. Sorry Guys, but if you check the history, for the most part its a depressing cocktail of shit and vomit to be literal. Overall I am a giving person. I try to be supportive in my relationships. I try to be sweet and compassionate. When I really fall for someone I seem to wrap my whole world around making that relationship succeed, it's funny when you make such efforts, it almost never works. And It seems when you are compassionate, supportive and caring you get kicked. So what's the option? Be an evil bitch? That doesn't work either. So I guess I will continue to just go it alone. Theres less heartache that way. I just got back from the small Tori tour (3 shows) I think I am going to catch a few more though. I am not comfortable with it ending here. If you read the show reviews you'll understand. So that's where I am at. Working, going to school, thinking way to much, but writing often. Take Care. Angel.3/15/01
WASSSSSUUUUPPPPP..God I had to get that out of my system..I feel so much better now. I am going to be swapping web hosts hopefully sometime this weekend. I promise a more accurate, entertaining site real fast ;) (No really I mean it this time!!) WINK WINK3/8/01
Howdie. I am planning a revamp of my little site soon...Soon as I get a second. School and Work School and Work.. YUK@@@!@@#@#%02-19-01
Every time I think I am right in life I am 150% wrong. Every time I think I am capable of something I can not bring myself to do it. Every time I think things will change they stay exactly they the way they were. I guess every time I try to predict life, It is going to prove me wrong.01-14-01
Staying straight.. Sometimes I wonder if this is honorable or just plain stupid. I get pushed to the point and I want to throw it all away.. I want to say forget it to everything that gets me in life and solve it all with that. Because this is how it goes right? This is the answer to all that shakes the world? Well I know the answers are no to all this. I am not completely stupid (Just partially) And I come home and I still have the same amount of money I left with.. When I would have came home penny less..It's hard for me..Maybe it is this longing to belong that is always at my heels. Which really isn't me to begin with. I am usually purple in a room of reds and greens...And I don't exactly need to drink to "loosen up" I believe I was born pretty open..Just gets me sometimes...This is one of those times..01-11-01
Got approved for that car-said forget it. Still driving my hunk of shit. Still working at Brown.. Signed up for classes at CCRI for Spring term. AND I WILL PASS. Last semester sucked... SO in all that time things is what's up.. I Need a car.. I need money for school.. I need a damn life.. and I need um.. hum...sleep!!12-11-00
Ouch--It's been even longer! Who cares? Not I!! I am sick. I took a much needed day off from work today. I am crossing my fingers that my loan goes through for my new car..97 Honda Civic.. We'll see.. Well I am off to relax and eat some cookie dough in front of the boob tube.Which must be fabulous for my cold! good calcium right? Oh and school- It sucks!!10-9-00
Ouch--It's been a while. Um.. Work and School.. Work is still enjoyable. About 3 months now. The people are awesome and there's no one there I can say that I truly can't get along with. Actually there is one but she is in another building and department. SO. It's an enjoyable experience and I don't dread going there in the mornings so It can't be that bad. Now school-- IT SUCKS. I hate it I don't know what the hell I was thinking taking 4 classes and working full time. I am sure that half the people who read that just rolled their eyes and are saying they work 1,000 hours and take 19 classes but DAMN- I can't hack it. I blew off my finals and my exams. I will be lucky if I hand in my final projects. I haven't opened a book in weeks. I can't take it I dread going there that's for sure. But I need this stupid degree that It's taking 4 years instead of 2 to achieve. GRR. I get really frustrated about school and I want to just give up. It's hard for me because I have double priorities. School and Work. And I can't exactly place one over the other, but when I am forced to I choose work. Because someone has to pay the bills. God knows It has been me lately! So 3 months later I still have the same bitch. School and Work. I am such a teenager. I hate this growing up shit. I have been listening to Damnit by Blink 182 repetitively this morning and it's exactly how i feel. I hate growing up. I hate this bills and rent and this and that. F*ck can't I just go back to throwing on clothes that smell clean and wearing whatever I put together if it matches or not cause who will see me to care??? Damn that was the life. Jeans and a Tee shirt.. I guess I am not truly a fan of this dress up 4 days a week crap.Maybe I am being immature but I guess that is me deep down.And I have to be who I am deep down. So I am going off into the world now and being myself. Immature and stubborn. Angry that I am forced to be an adult while I am still 18. "I guess this is growing up!!!"8-5-00
OK so I never promised I would be frequent here. I got a new permanent job @ Brown University. I am happy. I am moving on the 15th. Life is good. And thats about all- You waited 4 months to only hear that :)5-29-00
DAMN- so I can finally get into gurlpages server again. The server was down for awhile and I could not edit my pages- let alone get into them.. but so far things seem to be up and running again. So what is new...I am starting full time at my job after memorial day. oh memorial day i will probably be sitting on my arse all day we have nothing to do funn funn. I am thinking of saying forget school. It is not going to fit into my life right now and i wont be able to make any money while I am there so i believe we are going to say forget it for now. ALSO- who wants to dissect a animals? NOT I!! I think it's time for a degree change!! The BF and I are looking for apartments again.. Which is a fun process now that we have Bella. No one takes dogs no matter how small they are. So amongst all this shnant I am doing ok. Well just see how long that lasts!!4-29-00
Hello- Ms. Peach is back. I am getting over a horrible cold that kicked my butt for the last 4 days. So I am feeling a little better. I signed up full time for fall at CCRI in Warwick for Medical Transcription (This Week). So Wish me luck. I have been Just hanging around lately with my new puppy. Her Name is Bella and I love her. She is a little taco bell dog :) That's about all that's new kids..I am off to revamp my site. Take Care4-25-00
Man this page is becoming quiet infrequent!! So yeah my life.. Work is work - what else can i say. Mr supervisor person is a doll- i love her :) school sucks and it is not over.. life is dull- Write more when i am my peachy self.4-10-00
My PC is in the shop. Bad motherboard, and bad processor. I am going crazy and i am grrrrr angry. So i am typing from school which is also got me grr angry..that's a whole other story though. Work is ok I started a new job ..wow were you surprised LOL. I like it as of now ..ask me tomorrow..3-26-00
Here I go slacking again..I haven't written here because I have been busy ask me doing what and I can not tell you.School Is ok.. Work sucks. I have to deal with a mean evil woman and I have transferred offices because of her. But all will find it's way in time. At least I am not unemployed, I have a job and should look on the bright side.Me and the BF are good, he works non stop and it has turned out to be in our favor because we look forward to seeing each other now.(See how long that last's until I get lonely).That's about it. Its warming up here and I am looking forward to summer :) And A trip to Florida to visit some family, maybe the BF's Long awaited trip to Canada..And I can always dream of my trip to England ::SIGH::3-10-00
Work.School.Work.School. I am beginning to feel like a robot of sorts. This is the first chance i have had to write here. SO what's new. we got a cable modem and it is super fast it has made our lives a lot easier. We can never get booted and everything is super fast. We're very impressed :) Tomorrow I am going to get Blink 182 tickets- hopefully I will get good seats. We may be going to Korn that is still up in the air though. SO life is busy- It's overall good. It's just all going by soooo fast :(2-21-00
So today was fun. I got hacked and I got myself a fun little virus. All seems ok now though. So I guess the girl who said it would never happen to her learned her lesson. Then I went to class yelling and ranting that I even had class on President's Day only to find out that my stupid teacher decided not to have class tonight- I was so mad- Gee thanks for that notice It's not like I didn't drive 20 minutes and waste an hour typing a essay for today. Good thing I didn't end up reading. :?2-19-00
I found $600 on the ground under a little snow yesterday- I am a happy Bunni- I am also a busy bunni so I cant write to much- eek sorry.2-17-00
Work.School.Work. School Becoming the story of my life apparently. My valentines was very nice :) I realized how special a guy the boyfriend can be (when he wants to be) and how lucky I am (when he's like this). Even though I wish he could be like that everyday I probably wouldn't appreciate it as much. Anyhow- he wrote me a poem (This never happens.) I got an adorable stuffed turtle whom I love and adore!! and he made me a fudge recipe that i had drooled over a week ago in a magazine- it looked just like the picture..heart shaped fudge with sprinkles of confectionery sugar, strawberries outlined the plate with mini chocolate kisses and strawberry sauce on top- Why I didn't eat it all? I love that kid this week!! The job front- Its overall good. I like what I do- hours are ok they are flexible with school and the one loud obnoxious witch whom I could do without is leaving *YAY* that made my day today. Tomorrow is my favorite day PAYDAY. Mom is home from Florida she flew alone and came off the plane all smiles and didn't recognize me cause of my new purple hair. She kicked out the yicky guy and I hope she is going to be strong this time. My car is finally legal (registration crap) and That's about it I finished all my school work ahead of time which is a rarity so I had time to ramble...Take care,Angel.2-12-00
I can't believe It is the 12th already- So i have a paper due on monday- I am being lazy- I swear today I will finish it though...Not much else in my life..BORING sorry2-8-00
Job is ok, money is getting me down, lots of bills YUK. things that are aggravating me: People needing so much of my damn time, people who call me, people who im me.. I would advise any of you not to do any of those things if you want to live. thank you.2-4-00
Angel is a happy bunni. I got a new risque hair color and a killer hair cut. I am happy and I started a new job today and I love it.. So after that strangle myself craziness I have emerged from the storm victorious. Thank GOD- or someone important..actually- Thank myself!!1-27-00
Wow Weird shit going on with angel.. I have some feelings going on that - um-- I should not have for one.. and I don't understand, and i cant process them in any way. I have major issues.. oh and i am still an unemployed looser
1-23-00
So I wrote a whole bunch of nonsense here and then I got booted- I am to tired to write it all down YET again.-Gotta love AOL. The job front: still don't have a job and its starting to stress me out. I have to go to one place and see what's up- and as far as the temp place- i am better off on my own i think. The best friend ended up screwing me STILL for $169- She still hasn't paid- I downgraded my piece O' crap phone to see if it works better- its ok but still not as good as it should since its "the best" "top of the line". A word of advise to you- Do not use CELLULAR ONE- they screw you anyway they can-and their deals always sound SO good- when in reality they are nothing buta rip off. I used to think Bell Atlantic was bad- these people are the devil- They are right up there with ebay. Thats all for now. Gotta up-date my page.
1-14-00
Wow I haven't written in a while- I have been busy - If you ask me doing what I really can't tell you. That issue with the B*tch Best friend is over. $200 Later. Still working at the supermarket. I have to call another place for an interview today.. Well see what happens there- I start school in like 6 days.EEK. i am getting nervous. Ebay suspended my account for 2 weeks because I was selling bootlegs repeatedly. a**holes. UGG. so ..That's about all kiddies.
1-7-00
First off a big THANK YOU to all who infected me and got me sick. I will have to remember your wonderful faces so when you come to visit -I can sneeze on you!! I start my new job today- Its decent Union and $7 an hour- Its ok I guess. I am starting back up in school- i may have to pay up front and get reimbursed- I cant even spell that how am i going to make it through school ? lol. Things are going overall OK. My mom is still in Florida.Tomorrow is her birthday. 35- that seems so old to me :) I am sure her to. Oh well it works out- I don't have to give her a gift-hahaaa that's what you get for being on vacation on your b day..lol.. So that's about it- Lets hope I like the job- I haven't even called the hospital yet to tell them. EEK
1-05-00
I awoke in a PUDDLE!!!Apparently something went wrong with my waterbed, and let me tell you that I would have been fine sleeping in that puddle for a couple more hours..But no here I am wide awake at 7 AM!!! I have to try to register for college today, register for my whole 2 classes.WOW thats hard core full time huh? SO..I saw the sunrise the other day on my way to my moms house. I haven't seen a sunrise since I was in high school..shows you how early I usually get up huh? But It felt good- it made me smile. My mom left for Florida, I am very proud of her. Even though I had to kick her butt all the way out the door and had to rush around like a nut to get her ready.UGG .SO today started off wonderful.. i woke up in a puddle. hopefully I will find a nice little financial aid person who wants to hook me up. Cause otherwise I am gonna be bumming. I called out of work yesterday because i was "Sick" really I had to go to the college- anyhow guess what happens when i wake up? I AM SICK. i swear god tries to punish me for lying these ways. I have orientation tomorrow for my new job :) *lets hope all goes well* TTFN
01-02-99So- we are alive. I am not sure how all you feel about that. But I am happy. I am going to use this..um.."second chance" if you like to call it that..to better myself. That I guess is my new years resolution. I have decided that I am going to go nowhere in life without a damn piece of paper..So even if part time- 3 credits at a time, I am going back to college. :) So wish me luck. I have to call on a job tomorrow and I am going to keep my silly little gift shop job also because in some way it brought me enjoyment today. So it's growing on me I guess. I found a great program today that finds tons of mp3s I am having fun with it tonight and it is providing me with some great opportunities..check it out. CLICK HERE So that's all. Today was a very productive day. I kicked myself in the bum !! I am excited about the new year, I believe it will hold many good things for me. (I sound like a sap) Goodnight everyone.
12-31-99
Happy Millennium- Good Luck All .....5...4...3...2...1.
12-23-99
Well..Ummm ..not to much to say- my joke lil job has left my feets hurting tonight. Tomorrow I am going to look for other employment opportunities- and EXERCISE- I need to get offa my bumm!!! {{{huggs to all}}} Good night!
12.27.99
New job is- um- OK- I am in a CA-CA stage in my life and I can't Yike it!
12.23.99
Ahhh employment on the home front-- that is nice.. Womans & infants hospital gift shop.. lol.. tis a job at least.. Spent lots o money on my family good thing i have no friends lol.. I wrote a poem to the evil best friend..and that was all the productivity I could muster this evening so It's off to bed :) Today was an overall random day- Nothing too amazing happened..
12.18.99
Still Jobless. And not doing to much about it.. Britney Spears is on tv and she is a snobby b*tch. She is so fake, these are times when I appreciate listening to non-mainstream music!! That's it today Kids.12.15.99
I actually have some real crap to complain about, i quit my job today after my manager screamed at me and swore at me.. so yeah x-mas is gonna suck for whoever is on my list. ::sigh::
12.12.99:
Tell me again why i raise my hand to work on my days off?? I am beat!! but don't worry Kellie I will cover your shift sure no problem.. now that its Sunday and my back's killing me and i am tired I am all about calling in. ::Sigh:: why do i do this to myself? And x-mas shopping might be nice huh? OOOPS forgot about that. the most wonderful season of the year my ASS! the busiest, full of A-holes, I have to come into your place of employment and ask you 1000 questions and take all my anger out on you because SEARS prices are so high and its all your fault, season of the year. BA HUM BUG! AHHH MHGU$T#%T#V IUGYUF I AM A HAPPY BUNNI TODAY. Well off to work I guess for another person who will probably never cover for me..story of strawberries.. <%}%>