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The weeks passed as Sela improved daily and Jessy put everything she had into helping her. They loaded into the van and headed to the auditorium, walking around the campus looking to pass the extra time. They headed back so Sela could dress. Gramma, Venita, Jessy and Jacob headed in to find good seats sharing the front row with another family. Jacob was sound asleep in his baby pack, when Mom announced Sela was coming unglued, "Here you take Jacob and I'll go help her calm down." Jessy unstrapping the baby. "I want him, she always gets him." Venita complained. "Just don't wake him fighting over him." Jessy said sliding Jacob onto Venita, holding him as she hooked the straps and kissing his head before leaving. She took the stage stairs, heading to center stage to enter the curtains as Zac and his family and the Martins arrived to watch Jessie, Avie and Lindsay compete. "That's Jessy." Zac yelled. "Man Zac every blonde is Jessy to you." Isaac said as Walker slipped an arm around him. "We'll find her someday son, don't give up." he said and they headed down to find seats, sitting about midway so Walker could video tape. "He's right Zac, we'll find her, bring her home where she belongs, she'll forgive you and everything will be fine." Mrs Martin said patting his hand. Backstage Jessy found Sela in a tizzy and headed her to the stage to run through her routine. Jessy opened the curtains for Sela to talk to the control booth, "Excuse me could you play tape # 3 please, I'd like to practice a little thank you." Sela asked stepping between the curtians. She and Jessy lined up and as the music started, they ran through her routine as Diana headed into the dressing room with Jessie, Avie and Lindsay. As they finished Sela thanked the booth and Jessy closed the curtains and the two waited off in the wings talking about how great it is to do you best and have fun as Jacob's cries reached her ears. "That's Jacob baby, I gotta go. You want Mom or Sis to come wait with you?" Jessy asked. "Nah I'm going to meet the other girls I think." Sela said. "That's my girl, have fun." Jessy said making her way out the side of the curtain and heading down the stairs and to Jacob. "Jessy." Zac cried. "Jessy baby." Mrs. Martin called. "Sis" Chele screamed. Jessy stood frozen staring at the row of family rising and screaming her name, as tears filled her eyes and then suddenly one little cry made it all not matter. Jessy turned and headed to the baby. "Jessy that's him, Jacob's father." Venita said. "Yeah that's Zac and his family and the Martins." Jessy said as Venita nodded behind her. "Jessy Thank God I found you. Please forgive me. I can't live without you Jessy. Please forgive me and come home. The Martins have custody of you he can't make you go back home Jessy, ever. He gave up all rights to you for the right price. Please come home baby, I love you and I miss you." Zac explained. "Zac I love you too but not right now, there's someone else I have to.." Jessy tried to explain as Zac interrupted, "I don't, You said you love me too, How can there be someone else?" Zac asked as Chele pushed her way past Zac hugging Jessy tight. "God Sis I thought I'd never see you again until you were 18." Chele cried. "Jessy baby did Zac tell you we have custody, John and I..." Mary tried to say. "Please stop you're scaring the baby." Jessy said with tears in her eyes from listening to Jacob cry. "Sssh baby it's okay." Jessy said unbuckling Jacob and pulling him from the baby pack and holding him close to her, kissing his head, soothing his cries as he started sucking his fist. "Umm you'll have to excuse us for a minute please. Zac can I talk to you." Jessy said picking up a baby blanket and heading to the side hall. Jessy headed to the stairs and sat patting the space beside her. She spread the blanket over her legs as Zac sat down beside her. "Jessy what's wrong? Tell me?" Zac pleaded. "Nothing's wrong Zac, he's so right, he's my life. Zac I want you to meet Jacob Walker Mackenzie." Jessy said laying Jacob in her lap who immediately voiced his opinion at not being held tight. "He wants you to hold him Daddy. Jacob I promised you I'd take you to see your Daddy as soon as it was safe. Well Daddy came to you baby and he says it's safe to go home." Jessy said as Zac bent down to Jacob and the baby stopped sucking his fist. "Does that taste good huh?' Zac asked kissing his little fist. "So it's Jacob huh? You're beautiful just like your mommy." Zac said kissing his belly as Jacob grabbed a hand full of hair. "Oops baby you gotta let go. Daddy will learn you're a hair puller by nature." Jessy said loosening his fingers and pulling Zac's hair back. "God Jessy can you ever forgive me for making you run. The Martins feel so bad, remember when the spent that extra night in Chicago, that's when they got custody of you, I guess they knew all along that you were in trouble and they found a way to help but didn't know how to tell you. Jessy you ran when you didn't have to, you faced everything alone because I made you run. I'm so sorry. Baby he's sucking everything, sucking hard." Zac stopped talking to tell her. "He's probably hungry hun. Try and burp him for me in case he's swallowed air sucking everything." Jessy said as she reached under her top and unsnapped her bra as Jacob burped. "Thanks Daddy. He tends to throw up if he has air bubbles." Jessy said taking him in her arm and lifting her top until Jacob found what he was looking for and began to nurse. "Such a tight little grip, here straigten those long fingers and show Daddy." Jessy said stroking the back of his hand with her finger as the baby finally relaxed his grip and placed his hand flat on her breast. "Wow long fingers is right." Zac said bending to kiss them as Jessy kissed his head. Their eyes met and they looked into each others souls and all the pain and fears were erased. As Zac's eyes grew larger, "He has your hair again doesn't he?" Jessy asked. "Two hand fulls babe, help?" Zac said. "I'll try I can't see though. I know I'll take away his bottle and maybe hell give up the hair for the boob." Jessy said slippnig a finger into Jacob's mouth breaking the suction and moving him away from her breast as he screamed and let go of Zac's hair. "Zac don't you have a hairband hun?" Jessy asked as he rubbed his head then reaching in his pocket and pulling his hair back "Hun can you take him and burp him while I switch sides." Jessy no more than asked and Zac picked up Jacob and held him close patting his back "Whoa Jacob you sound just like your Daddy." Jessy teased. "Proud of you son." Zac said his eye filling with tears. "Zac I'm sorry I didn't know what else to do hun. I was more afraid of being found out after I knew about the baby. At Gramma's I saw a doctor, stopped being a vegetarian, worked hard to pass time and concentrated on growing and having a healthy baby. Man his birth was so awesome, so many people cared and kept coming by and walking me up and down the block. Man from first contraction to his birth wasn't even ten hours. Such a good baby. Zac don't put him to sleep or I'll be hurting and lop sided." Jessy said looking at Zac and Jacob. "Hey Jake. Wake up son, you have a booby to empty boy. Come on son, I know you can do it." Zac said laying the baby on his legs. "Hey son, you sure are something." Zac said blowing on his belly and Jacob came life squealing. "Oh daddy is good. Man is my life going to get easy with him around." Jessy said picking up Jacob and cradling him in her arm as Zac raised her top slightly while Jacob for her nipple and began nursing and Zac slid her top back down before turning to Jessy. "Jessy marry me please let me be a family with you and Jacob I swear I'll never hurt you again. Please you have to forgive me and let me show you how much I love you and be his daddy." Zac pleaded tears streaming down his face. "Zac I love you and I want nothing more than for us to be together, but.." Jessy paused. "Zac all this started over the fans not accepting you have a girlfriend. They aren't going to like it that I have a baby." Jessy said. "He's not just a baby, Jacob is our baby. Maybe it's not perfect, but I love you and him Jessy. That has to count for something." Zac argued. "Zac you don't have to convince me, your folks, the Martins. Do they even know that you, we. Theyll be so disappointed in me. I should have stopped you somehow." Jessy said looking a way. "Jessy I raped you just say it. I heard you ask me to stop. I heard you scream no. I didn't listen to you, like you didn't matter. I've heared you ask me to stop and scream no every night since then. I don't know why I ask you to forgive me when I can't forgive myself. And now I've screwed up your life too." Zac said kissing Jacob's head and laying his next to him as he cried. "Zac you need to forgive yourself. You were angry and lost control is all. You're human like the rest of us, face it and let's get on with life. We have a baby to think about Zac." Jessy said caressing his hair. "Zac?" Jessy asked. "Yeah Jessy?" Zac replied wiping his tears. "Please forgive yourself for me and Jacob. We need you and you're no good to us this way." Jessy asked. "Anything Jessy. You just tell me and I'll do it, get it. Whatever you need." Zac promised. "Zac I love you and trust you. You'll be a good Daddy and I can't wait until you're my husband and we can do this all the right way. You and me together and Jacob." Jessy said smiling, hers eyes lost in his warm brown eyes so full of hope and love once again. "Jessy they won't be shocked you have a baby. I told them everything, what I did to you. I couldn't live with myself and told my dad first and he made me tell the Martins. He even told them to press charges against me if the felt they should. John was angry with me, really angry, I thought he might just do it." Zac said, adding, "He may not let you marry me. It'll be my fault if we have to wait until we're 18 babe and I'm sorry." Zac told her. "Come on kids, it's about to start." John said. "Hey Grampa. Can you take the baby and burp him for me." Jessy asked. "You sure?" John asked. "If I trust you with me, I trust you with my son. Grampa meet Jacob Walker Mackenzie." Jessy said breaking the suction and removing Jacob from her breast and extending him to John. "Wow he smells so good. Don't you just love that smell." John said. "Yeah. I zone out sniffing the top of his head. Sappy huh?" Jessy said. "Umm he smells even better." John said. "Well give him a few minutes and he'll fill his diapers for you and you won't be singing his praises." Jessy snickered. "How dare she speak of my grandson like that." John said walking towards the door as Zac spread the blanket over Jacob and opened the door. "Zac can I talk to you a minute. We'll be out I don't want to sit front row until Lindsay and the girls are done, I don't want to shock them okay?" Jessy said. "Sure baby as soon as they're done though I want you with us." John said. "Yeah I'll be there. You got my baby." Jessy said. "Right where he belongs, with family." John said heading back into the auditorium. "What did you want to talk about Jessy?" Zac asked. "This." Jessy said pressing her lips to his and kissing him deeply. "I missed you Zac." Jessy said wrapping her arms around his neck and crying. "I missed you too babe. Don't ever leave me again. Jessy I don't think I could survive it." Zac said kissing her back as Chele and Tay opened the door and backed out watching through the window. "Does that answer your questions. I told you my sister loved your brother. Didn't I?" Chele said. "Yeah babe you kept telling us all that she loved him and there was a reason for her to run." Taylor said wrapping his arms around her, resting his chin on top of her head as they watched through the window.
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