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"Zac bring Jacob." Jessy said heading to their room. "He sleeps on his back hun." Jessy said lowering the railing and pulling back his blankets for Zac to lay him down. Jessy tucked him in tightly, "Sleep mommy's angel. I love you Jacob." Jessy said kissing him goodnight then moving out of Zac's way. Jessy went to the dresser pulling out boxers for Zac and placing a pair of jeans, boxers, socks and a tee shirt on top of the dresser. Then she pulled out pajamas for herself and headed to the bathroom across the hall to shower. Jessy undressed and started the shower, stepping in, enjoying the hot water hitting her back. She was washing her hair when Zac stepped in behind her just staring. "What Zac?" Jessy asked of his stares. "I forgot Jessy. How could I forget?" Zac asked. "Forgot what hun?" Jessy asked. "Zac we aren't going to make it if you won't talk to me hun. I know it hurts but we have to get past it Zac. Just tell me what you forgot?" Jessy pleaded. "I forgot how beautiful you were Jessy. How could I forget that?" Zac asked. "Oh Zac, I've changed, so have you but we still love each other that's still the same. Maybe looks don't matter anymore Zac. I don't know. Maybe remembering No and Stop every night took it's toll. Just maybe to survive you had to put it out of your mind." Jessy said. "Jessy can I hold you? Just once." Zac asked. "Oh Zac of course you can." Jessy said wrapping her arms around his neck hugging him tight, whispering. "I love you Zac and I need you with me." "Jessy I'm sorry I wasn't here for you babe. I would have had I not messed everything up. I'm here now and I'm not going anywhere babe." Zac said. "Promise me Zac." Jessy begged. "You want my word?" Zac asked. "Zac you made one stupid mistake I had no right to judge you based on it alone Zac. You had kept your word about everything else Zac. Time and time again, I don't know why I didn't remember that, I would have know you wouldn't hurt me like that Zac. I'm sorry. I knew better." Jessy said. "Jessy I promise you I'm not going anywhere without you or Jacob. You two are my life." Zac said kissing her deeply every inch of him wanting her as Jacob's cries reached them. "I'll go to him." Zac said stepping out and toweling off, pulling on his boxers, heading back across the hall. Jessy got out, dried her hair when Jacob's cries stopped. She dressed for bed and returned to their room, finding Zac changing his diaper. As he finished, "Hun let me nurse him again and maybe he'll sleep a little while." Jessy asked nursing Jacob and then putting him in his crib again. "I need to get some sleep I have to work in the morning. Zac aren't you going to sleep with me?" Jessy asked. "I don't know Jessy. I'm afraid. What if, what if I did it again Jessy.?" Zac asked. "What if I wanted you too this time?" Jessy asked sitting in his lap. "You want me?" Zac asked shocked. "Why is that so hard to believe. Zac I've wanted you since the first time I looked in to those warm brown eyes of yours as you struggled to find the right words to ask me out and I still want you." Jessy shared. "Here, your brother was supposed to add some protection." Jessy said handing him his wallet from his jeans hanging on the back of the chair. She watched as he opened and a condom with a note attached slid out. "Jessy, Sis this is my personal favorite. Have Zac try this first. Love ya, Chele." Zac read, the coming across a note from Isaac, "Zac man this is what I've prayed for everynight since that day I raced you to the station to find she had headed West. Zac love her with your heart and everything will be okay. Love Isaac p.s. I have a nephew, use protection." Zac read lifting up about four or five condoms as he picked up the letter from Taylor, "Zac man are you lucky. She loves you too and wants you man. Just take it slow and remember to make sure it's what she wants too and you can't go wrong. Chele promised me a special surprise if I'd give you my stash so enjoy little bro, you don't have to use them all at once, save at least one for tomorrow. Love ya Tay." Zac read as Jessy counted, "Zac there's like twenty condoms here, save one for tomorrow. I don't think so." Jessy said. "Yeah right babe, we can use them all and buy more tomorrow. You can pick them up at work." Zac teased. "Any more wise cracks like that and you won't be using one." Jessy warned. "Jessy we don't have to. Ya know. I'd understand if you never let me touch you again after what I did." Zac said. "Gawd Zac what else can I say? How do I make you understand?" Jessy said rising and picking up her top and slipping it on as she made he way to bed, turning the covers down and slipping into bed moving to the far side, hugging the pillow tight trying to fight back the tears. Jessy curled into a ball as the tears came, "Baby don't cry. Jessy all I seem to do is hurt you over and over. This is killing me. I don't know what to do next?" Zac shared as Jessy wiped her tears and turned to him, "Love me Zac. Love me like only you can. I know you love me Zac, I feel it, I see it in your eyes when you look at me. Just love me Zac." Jessy said. "Jessy, I love you more than anything." Zac confessed. "Than show me Zac." Jessy pleaded pulling Zac towards her pressing her lips to his kissing him deeply with a growing passion as Zac kissed her back passionately, slowly he made love to her with everything he felt for her. They reached such heighths of passion they felt they would die from the ecstasy they both experienced as they collapsed together, "I can't believe I didn't want to do that." Zac panted. "I can't believe I thought you had made love to me that night in the pool. That must have been making Jacob, it had nothing to do with love." Jessy said as Jacob responded to his name with a cry. "I'll get him babe." Zac said making his way to his crib. "Babe he's sucking his little fist big time." Zac said walking to their bed. "Jacob Walker Mackenzie soon to be Hanson what is your problem? Daddy spoiled you already huh? Mommy really needs you to go to sleep baby." Jessy said nursing him again as she nodded off. Zac laid watching as Jacob finally finished, falling asleep next to her placing his little hand on her breast connecting the two as they slept. "Such long little fingers" Zac said tracing Jacob's hand then staring at the two most important people in his life sleeping side by side connected by the tiniest hand he knew. The alarm sounded and Jessy reached back hit the button, feeling Jacob's hand as she moved. Smiling she reached for his hand, stroking it gently with a finger as she finally opened her eyes staring at Jacob, then noticing Zac. "Hun didn't you sleep at all?" Jessy asked. "No babe, I couldn't take my eyes off the two of you." Zac said. "Zac we have a lifetime of these times hun. You really should get some sleep before Jacob wakes. Want me to put him in his crib?" Jessy asked. "I will babe." Zac said slipping Jacob into his arms and walking him to his crib, tucking him in tight kissing his head before he raised the railing and turned to return to her. Jessy's heart raced as she studied his body remembering the way she felt as he made love to her. "What's behind that look?" Zac asked slipping into bed quickly covering her body with his as he kissed her passionately. "Zac love me again." Jessy begged kissing him back with a growing passion as their bodies entertwined again, reaching such peaks of passion, "Zac I'm dying, I feel like I'm going to explode." Jessy said as she moaned over and over raking her fingernails into his back as they reached even greater heighths of passion before they both collapsed together. "Jessy I never imagined loving you would be so exciting. I promise to always love you this way, with every part of me." Zac promised. "Me too hun. Zac my nursing Jacob doesn't guarantee I won't get pregnant hun. I haven't had a period since I had him but they could start again anytime. Jesus Zac that would make them a year apart in age." Jessy shared. "I want lot of kids babe. I don't care if you get pregnant again. Jacob would have someone to play with." Zac said yawning. "I love you so much Zac." Jessy said kissing him sweetly as he fell asleep. Jessy slilpped from bed, dressing for work, then dressing Jacob for the day and nursing him and taking him with her to the kitchen. "Morning Gramma. I sure hope you don't mind company. Zac watched us sleep all night and just now has fallen asleep." Jessy explained. "Give me that boy. I have so few days left to love him before you take him from me." Gramma said. "Don't be that way girl, your place is with Jacob's daddy. My boy here needs his daddy. Did you see the way he took to him. Don't have to tell you do we. You know he's your daddy." Gramma said as Jessy wrote a note to Zac explaining where Jacob was so he didn't panic when he woke. She slipped into their room one last time placing the note on the nightstand next to his watch before she kissed him goodbye, quietly closed their door and Jessy made her way to work. The store was a buzz with the news that Jessy was leaving them to marry Jacob's father and become a family. Jessy was busy training her replacement and worked right past her break and Gramma appeared with an angry Jacob and Jessy headed to the breakroom to satisfy the grumpy baby. After nursing, Jacob didn't want to leave his mommy, "He's never been this way Gramma. I guess wake Zac and see if he can calm him. If not I'll be home in a half hour. Oh Gramma, Zac's sleeping without his jammies on so don't let him leap up to tend to Jacob. I think I tossed a pair of boxers on the bed for him." Jessy said putting Jacob in his Jogger stroller and they headed home. Jessy followed a half hour later to find Jacob sleeping on Zac's bare chest. "Couldn't wake Zac and Jacob only wanted his daddy." Gramma explained. "Jacob is definitely headstrong. I can imagine Zac being the only one able to soothe him." Jessy said as the left so Jessy could eat only to return to nurse Jacob, placing him in his porta crib in the front room on her way back to work. Jessy returned a little after three to find Zac barechested holding a sleeping Jacob. "Hun you have him so spoiled." Jessy greeted him before changing her clothes and returning with his cell phone to call his mother. "Mom. Hey it's me Jessy. Zac has spoiled Jacob totally. Gramma can't soothe him anymore and she's literally raised him along with me. He's sleeping on Zac's bare chest." Jessy informed. "Baby, that's so wonderful that they're connecting that way." Diana said. "Yeah it is Mom. Jacob definitely knows who his daddy is without being told." Jessy said and the two chatted until Jacob woke ready to eat. Jessy traded with Zac and he spoke with his mother as Jessy nursed Jacob. After feeding the baby the three made their way to order the extra pictures arranging them to be mailed to Tulsa. Zac took them to dinner, giving them extra time as a family, "Enjoy it babe, once we move home we'll never be alone again unless we make it happen, like this." Zac said. "Zac I won't go out in Tulsa. The press will crucify me Zac. I'm not that strong and I won't let them near Jacob." Jessy said panicking. "Babe I'm sorry. You're right we'll find another way to be alone." Zac said taking Jacob as Jessy headed to the bathroom. After dinner they walked the downtown shops, window shopping and Zac spoiling them rotten buying Jessy everything she looked at twice. They finally returned home to sit around talking with Venita and Gramma until bedtime. "Why are you picking out jammers for me to take off of you, just let me undress you." Zac asked and slowly undressed her enjoying every minute. "What are you doing on your knee? Are you okay?" Jessy asked. "Jessy you know you're my life, you and Jacob are everything to me. I love you more than anything Jessy. We've been through some really badtimes babe but we made it stronger than ever, more in love than ever possible. Jessy I can't take a chance that something will go wrong babe, will you marry me?" Zac asked. Jessy was overcome with emotions, speechless for the first time in her life. She bent down to Zac shaking her head yes, her eyes filling with tears and she was trembling so Zac had to hold onto her hand tight in order to slip the ring on her finger. "Jacob and I decided this earlier today. Jessy we need you in our lives without you life wouldn't be worth living." Zac shared. "Zac I need you too. Jacob and I both do. You've made our life so complete." Jessy said as he lifted her, carrying her to the bed a made love to her with more emotion and passion than the times before. As they laid in each other's arms after, "Zac if it keeps getting better each time I really think I'm going to just explode one of these times." Jessy said. "Yeah I know babe. I can see why old guys die in bed. Man I thought my veins were going to burst there for a while. I was afraid I was going to pop before you did for a while there." Zac said wrapping his arms around her as her breathing slowed and she drifted off to sleep in his arms.
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