"Mother what's the excitement?" Walker asked. "Isaac persuaded Monica to give up her life and come on the road with him. I knew he could. She resisted, but this is meant to be Walker. You're looking at our future over there. What do you think?" Diana asked wrapping herself in his arms watching the pure joy on the faces of her sons and her new girls. "This is nice Diana. Real nice." Walker said. "Daddy is it true are we getting underway?" Chele asked. "Yes child, you more excited than a kid in a candy shop." he answered. "Candy." Chele said in a zoned out voice and look. "Oh oh, we a sweet tooth girl." Mom said. "Anything need doing?" Chele asked. "No sweetie just keep the kids together, so we don't have to look for anyone is all." he said. "That's the fun part." Chele said returning to the group. Isaac and Monica took off for her place to pack leaving Momma's van and then catching up in Milwaukee tomorrow. "Jessy" Mom called and she came running over. "Sweetie about what you said earlier about your visit. Not that it's any of my business but I couldn't help but notice that Zac was upset and you managed to help him forget all about it. I'm not saying it's wrong sweetie, don't look that way. But you do feel guilty don't you?" She asked. "Yeah Mom, I can't help myself, it just happened. He was mad and I couldn't bear it, so somehow, I just make it so he's not." Jessy said. "I know the feeling believe me, I handle his father the same way, always have since I was your age. You remind me so much of us, it's scary. Jessy from someone who's been there, trust Zac honey. You tell him what you did before he figures it out, or worse yet someone else does and tells him. He'd rather hear it from you. Just think about it." Mom said kissing her and headed after Walker. "Mom. Thanks. I love you for it." Jessy yelled and she stopped turned and blew her a kiss. Jessy was catching it as tears came to her eyes. "Jessy don't cry. I'm sorry you hurt. What can I do?" Zac asked trying to wrap his arms around her. "Zac I have to talk to you and you may not want to wrap your arms around me. I didn't mean to Zac, it just happened before I could think about it." Jessy said looking away. "Tell me what it is you did?" Zac said. "I sort of, oh shit I didn't tell the truth about something to get my way. I told the crew I was really blue about Momma leaving and being stuck here only made it worse because this is where she said goodbye, and you were unhappy because I was unhappy and everything was just a mess and I cried a little and then I told them Zoe was the only one who didn't tell me not to cry and then I told them I had to change Zoe and I promised them next time I would be smiling I hoped. So now we're leaving in an hour instead of four. But that's not the worse, you knew I'd done something. I was so afraid of you being mad at me, I sort of made you think of something else so you wouldn't know what I'd done, twice. I'm sorry, I just didn't want you mad at me, So I do something really dumb, and you'll probably never forgive me for it, I think I'd rather have you mad at me. Zac I really don't know why, but when you said you knew I'd done something, you knew, I just panicked. How could he know and I felt like so guilty and even worse I felt like I could never keep anything from you, so it was sort of a challenge." Jessy finally finished. "I knew you had done something. But Jessy you really didn't lie. Maybe you used some tears, you wouldn't have cried right then but I wouldn't have gotten mad at that. Now your making me forget what I was mad at. I do like your technique of making me forget but it wasn't right Jessy. You used my feelings for you like I didn't matter." Zac said. Jessy couldn't look the pain in his voice was too much. "I don't know what else to do but to say I'm sorry and you do matter. So much that I played girlie games, just so you wouldn't get mad at me. I don't know I just felt you were putting me down in front of Jarrod, like you were in total control and I freaked. I'm sorry I don't know what else to say. Just let go of me please. Jessy asked. "No because you'll run and hide and this won't get any better. And Jessy as much as I love you and you know I love you, this is tearing me up. I need to understand why?" Zac asked "Don't you listen to me. I told you I don't know, it just happened. It was my reaction to your high handed attitude towards me around Jarrod. "Like what did you do? I know you did something? Confess?" What was that all about? Do something for your ego? You know I wasn't afraid of you being mad at me I was afraid of me being disgusted with the way you treated me all right. You wanted to understand. Do you understand, I didn't like it and I fought back. Why I ever thought I should apologize to you is beyond me. It'll be a cold day in hell before I'm sorry for standing up for myself. I matter too Zac Hanson. I'm not an object to show off to your friends, heel Jessy, sit Jessy, smile Jessy. So you happy to understand?" Jessy declared glaring at him. "I didn't know. I didn't know you felt that way" Zac said. "Not all the time but at times. I know you don't mean to do it. But at times, you do treat me like an object. I was wrong to smile and tell myself he didn't mean it and not tell you. Zac I didn't mean to yell at you. I don't have any answers. I'm just scared, what have I done? I suddenly feel so alone. Why did I do this? " Jessy cried and as he wrapped his arms around her she didn't fight him. Zac I'm sorry believe me." she cried. "I do Jessy and I'm sorry too. Promise me don't keep it to yourself, we're about sharing the good and the bad Jessy and we don't have a chance if you keep it to yourself do you understand?" he asked "Yeah Zac I understand I'm not alone, you love me enough to handle the bad too." Jessy said. "I'll love you til the end, forever and a day Jessy." Zac said. "I like that song Zac." Jessy said. "Yeah Jessy it's a little like us first was the water of the river" and the memory of their rocky beginning caused them both to laugh, before he went on, "We don't know who we are anymore because we're changing from two to one, pick up any paper and you know we're sweethearts, and I've been dreaming about you forever." Zac finished. "Zac if we're going to be a song, I'd rather be Stories." Jessy said. "We're working on it Jessy." Zac said holding her tighter.
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