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"Kaitlyn, Isaac. Kaitlyn, Isaac. Time to wake up you two." Diana said. "Morning Mom, What time did you stop partying last night? I was sleeping so sound I didn't feel him come to bed." Kaitlyn asked stiring. "About midnight baby. It's time to get moving so you can get back for your readings." Diana said closing the door. "Isaac, come on hun. Isaac." Kaitlyn said scooting up causing Isaac to stir. "Kaitlyn what?" Isaac asked waking suddenly. "Isaac it's time to get up. Please you have to relax. If you can't, I don't know what I'm going to do. I feel so guilty everytime I touch you and you jump out of your skin terrified something's wrong. You sleep. I'll have Mom take me." Kaitlyn said trying to get up pushing Isaac away. "Don't touch me. If I can't touch you than don't touch me." Kaitlyn said finally sitting. She pulled the covers back, swung her feet over, and pushed and pulled herself up to her feet. Kaitlyn opened the drawers and picked out clothes for the trip back to the hotel. She kicked her shoes to the door and turned to leave, her heart broke when she saw him sitting on the edge of the bed, face buried in his hands crying. "Oh Isaac I didn't mean it. I'm just so tired of feeling like I frighten you all the time. I asked you over and over to have faith and relax. Why can't you do this for me?" Kaitlyn said sitting on his lap cuddling him to her. "I know I don't understand how it feels to be the husband, the daddy but God Isaac it can't be that bad that you get terrified because I move. Is it?" she asked and he shook his head no. "Isaac do you have bad dreams, bad thoughts about what might go wrong?" Kaitlyn asked. "Sometimes. Last night you moaned in your sleep when I came to bed, I was afraid to touch you." Isaac said. "Oh babe it wasn't you, please don't every believe it's you. I'm sorry, it was my fault. I woke up as you left to go back out. I so wanted to call you back but I got on my own case, knowing you wanted to get back out there, telling myself I was being a baby, an almost seventeen year old baby who can't sleep alone." Kaitlyn said. "Kaitlyn Hanson you promised no more keeping things to yourself." Isaac reminded. "Isaac sometimes I feel that I've just changed your life too much. I know you love me, but last night I didn't want to leave either I was having so much fun. I felt so guilty about you feeling like you had to put me to bed, check on me to make sure I got to bed." she said. "They're my babies too. Remember I was there to, I helped make them and boy was that fun." Isaac teased. "Yeah I sort of remember you and all the fun we had." she said. "Sort of remember me, you said it was unforgettable." he reminded. "Oh it was." Kaitlyn laughed. "It wouldn't have happened without me." Isaac said. "That's true. You are the only one for me." Kaitlyn said gazing into his eyes. "Kaitlyn?" he asked. "Yeah" she said. "Can I take you? You know to the hotel and do the readings to make sure you're and the girls are okay? I'd die if you shut me out." Isaac said his voice quivered at the end. "Forgive me, how could I do that to you. Watch me struggling to get up, tell you to leave me alone. Please forgive me." she begged tears streaming down her face. "I didn't realize how hard this is on you." he said. "Oh I was pissed and not thinking straight, I can get up still, I'm not a beached whale yet." she laughed. "Kaitlyn you're terrible, even to you." he laughed. "Not funny, gotta pee. Push Daddy." Kaitlyn begged. Isaac got her to her feet out the door and pushed into the bathroom. "I'm going to feel real bad one of these times when I don't make it here in time. I guess I better start carry a clean set of clothes. Poor Zoe will never understand, me peeing my pants." she laughed as she finished, moved to wash her face and hands, brush her teeth and hair. "Let's get dressed and get going. All we have here is a shower for two and we need a shower for five." Kaitlyn said and they returned to their room dressed and took the rented van and headed to the hotel. "Look fans. Already or Still is the question." Kaitlyn said as Isaac pulled up front and helped Kaitlyn out. "Isaac go park the van, I'll be okay here with our friends. You guys will keep an eye on us won't you?" Kaitlyn asked and Isaac left her with the fans and parked the van. He returned to find them all laughing and having a good time. "Our thoughts are with you. Happy Readings." the fans said as Isaac escorted her inside and up to their room. Calling room service and ordering breakfast and a snack delivered immediately. "Man I bet Mom is having a coronary. Isaac check the bathroom case and see if there's a little ziploc baggy of pills?" she asked. "Lucked out there's two, so we only have one mistake to make." he laughed. "Hun call Mom so she doesn't worry and tell her to have the girls make up a couple more for my purse, backpack, and that case." she said as they heard a knock on the door. "That's fast if it's them." she said. "Thanks I appreciate this." Isaac said opening the door and a tray was delivered. "I'm suppose to find out if this will do. Breakfast will take twenty to thirty minutes so if you need more just let us know." the bus boy said. "Thanks this is just perfect, thank the Chef it looks very nutritious." Kaitlyn said as Isaac tipped him. "Wait. Isaac are there any powder packets in that baby emergency case, maybe he would make me a nutritional shake?" she asked. "It's here." Isaac said explaining how simple it was to make. "Be right back ma'am." he said and left and was back within ten minutes with a malted glass and a shaker of nutritional drink. Isaac called to report that even though the had forgotten everything things were fine, that Kaitlyn was fed, relaxed and he'd call after the readings were sent. "Give me that arm guinea piglet and flash me that big beautiful belly of yours." Isaac teased. "And they say you're the romantic one." Kaitlyn laughed as Isaac dialed the doctor office and transmitted the four readings. "Mother is doing alot better today, and the girls all showing improvement." Isaac reported calling his Mom. "Must be more relaxed, what's different so we can keep it up." Diana asked. "I think the extended family is what did it. She said what a good time she was having." Isaac said. "Let me talk to your father, maybe we don't need the hotels." she said. "We'll see you later. We've ordered breakfast, are going to clean up and probably take a nap, before we head back." he explained as breakfast was delivered. They enjoyed the solitude. "It won't be long before just us is five, it's going to be so different so fast." Kaitlyn said. "Oh Kaitlyn just us was ten the day I married you. Now Chele and Jessy has made just us a dozen. Ten, Twelve, Fifteen. Just us is a lot." Isaac explained. They showered and laid together. Isaac slept soundly and didn't hear the phone. "Hello" Kaitlyn answered. "Sweetie just checking on you two." Walker said. "I'm resting and party boy is sound asleep, phone didn't even stir him. I think he had a hard time sleeping. Daddy how hard was it on you when Mommy was pregnant. I think Isaac is way overboard. I mean I tried to wake him this morning, he wakes startled always sure something is wrong. I get afraid to touch him. My Mr. Doom and Gloom." Kaitlyn explained. "It's hard to explain baby, but I felt responsible for every ache and pain, like I did this to her, it's my fault, if I hadn't loved her so she wouldn't be hurting." Daddy said. "But Daddy I love him and I know he loves me he wouldn't deliberately hurt me. But Daddy I need to be able to share with him and I can't if I'm afraid it hurts him, feeding his guilt." Kaitlyn said. "I can't imagine what he's going through Kaitlyn, I'm terrified as the grampa, I'd be a basket case if it had been Diana." Walker said. "Kaitlyn. Baby? Kaitlyn are you all right." he asked. "Yeah Daddy. I'm just at a loss, I can't go on hurting him like this, it breaks my heart. I need to go Daddy. I've got some serious thinking to do." Kaitlyn said hanging up tears streaming down her face. She watched as he slept praying for an answer. She reached for the laptop and went in search of Mothers of Multiples and found a chat room. She entered the name of the room and was immediately welcomed by four or five mothers of twins. After a few minutes of back and forth questions, Kaitlyn finally asked about husbands reactions and how to handle the reaction that something must be wrong. They shared experiences, ways to look at it differently, and offered shoulders or friendly ears. After a half hour therapy, she signed out with a renewed faith. "What?" Isaac asked. "I don't know you tell me." Kaitlyn said. "You're smiling." he said. "Oh I'm sorry, is this better." she teased and pouted. "Nope I like the smile better." he said. "We'd better get back before your brothers worry you aren't coming to sound check." Kaitlyn said. "Oh you're a slave driver." he teased. "You've got many mouths to feed soon." Kaitlyn teased as he got up and pulled her to her feet. They dressed and headed back to the arena.
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