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"Another month and still fan mail. They've been married almost two months already, can you believe it." Chele said as Jessy entered the office. "What I can't believe is Mom letting me stay. I just about freaked when Kaitlyn told me I wouldn't be going home. This home schooling is a piece of cake. So relaxed, no hassles well except Zac distractions." Jessy laughed. "I know my mother. Can you believe she asked my mother. It must have been that time of the month and she was touched in the head when Kaitlyn asked if I could stay because she said yes. I still can't believe it." Chele said in disbelief. "Morning girls. You're at it bright and early." Walker said kissing them both. "We have school now Daddy, so we have to get work out of the way before school starts." Chele said. "Such dedication." he said, adding, "You want to give me a hand, I could talk to your teacher. Don't tell anyone but she has the hots for me, you'll get all A's if you stick with me." Walker teased. "Oh Daddy you're too much. Of course I'll help what's up?" Jessy said then started making confirming calls for the upcoming tour. "I can't wait Daddy this is so exciting." Jessy said dialing the next number as Chele finished the fan mail she dialed the next number on the list as Walker headed to tell the teacher. "Diana the girls are helping me making confirmation calls for the tour, they'll be late to school. Okay?" he said wrapping his arms around her and kissing her. "I don't know the others may think I favor them, letting them come in late and all." she complained. "We're done Daddy." Chele said. "School started yet. Hey you're kissing my teacher." Jessy said, adding, "Daddy I left the Milwaukee number on top, they had it all messed up, totally, wrong day, wrong number of rooms. I thought we should check them again, later today then again in a day or two. What do you think?" "That's the hotel we had trouble with before. I'll call sweetie Thanks. Thanks to you to Chele." he said heading to the office. "Good morning Teacher, Mommy." they said in unison. "Good morning girls, you're the first ones here. If you'd like to start, go ahead." Diana said. "Thanks teacher Mommy" Jessy said heading to the table and diving into her pile of assignments. "Uugh I hate it when you smile doing your assignments, grumble, moan." Chele complained. "It only takes longer if I take time out to piss and moan." Jessy said grabbing the next subject assignments. "Jesus Jessy" Chele moaned sorting through her assignments pulling out the easy ones "Ease your way in Chele girl" she said. "Talk to yourself often?" Jessy teased. "Shut up or I'll tell the teacher." Chele teased and they both laughed and got back to work. Jessy picked up the pile of papers and her books. "Teacher I'm done, I'm going on line." Jessy said dropping her pile by Diana and Jessy grabbed a laptop, Zac's just to aggrevate him. She plugged it in and connected the phone line and powered up, pulled up the school testing program, signed in and started testing on the subjects one by one. "I wonder when this will backfire, they must notify the teacher of levels completed at some point." Jessy wondered to herself as she completed a week's worth in each subject. "Done Mommy, I mean Teacher, may I go chat with the other hs'ers, please." Jessy whispered so Chele couldn't hear. "Sure Jessy. I guess I have to go get the rest of them. I'll be right back could you keep an eye on Zoe? She should be fine." Diana asked. "Of course Mommy." Jessy said looking at Zoe. "Hey big gul. Want a story? Mommy is it okay if I read her a story on line I found this neat sight the other day, kids write the stories." Jessy asked. "Sure sweetie, let me see that site before you log off, sounds interesting." Diana said headed upstairs and Jessy searched and pulled up KiDs TaLeS and started reading to Zoe, as they headed down the stairs none of them smiling, "That's mine and you're in my spot again." Zac complained. "Excuse me." Jessy said getting up dusting the chair with her hand. Powering off and disconnecting the computer and putting it back. And heading to the office without looking at him. "Jessy" he said just standing and staring as she shut the door. "Whoa. Hope that's not my look?" Walker asked. "No Daddy." Jessy said fighting the tears. "Jessy don't keep it in. That's what Daddies are for." he said. "Sorry Daddy nothing personal I hate to cry almost as much as I hate cry babies." Jessy said sitting at the other computer, going on line and pulling up Zoe's story and reading to her quietly, story after story. "Want to go talk with our fingers?" Jessy asked and Zoe stared at her fingers as Jessy signed into the home schoolers chat room and started chatting away. BBL = be back later, Jessy signed off. "Gotta go potty Zoe?" Jessy asked. "Me me me" she scurried off. "Sorry we bothered you Daddy, thanks for the offer." Jessy said. "Someday Jessy, you'll let me be your Daddy." he said as she left and Jessy dashed to catch up with Zoe. They returned dancing and singing the Me Me Me song and Diana laughed. "I'm going blading. I see the neighbors out. Okay?" Jessy asked. "Which neighbors" Zac asked and Jessy continued down the hall without answering knowing he wouldn't like the answer. She was in the garage, with her blades on waiting for the door to rise when she heard the door open she bent under the door and bladed off "Jessy" Zac called but she pretended not to hear waving at the neighbor boys who slowed for her to catch up and they skated down the street. Jessy looked back to see Zac hitting the garage with his fist and stopped, turned around and skated back. "Zac what's wrong?" she whispered wrappng her arms around him as he shook his head no. "Nothings wrong, then what did the garage do? I saw you hit it. That's why I came back. I thought I heard something and when I turned I saw you hitting the wall." Jessy said moving to face him and he lowered his head. "Zac why did you chew me out this morning. Did I do something I don't remember?" Jessy asked him. "Fine I'll see you later." Jessy said heading down the drive. "Jessy you didn't do anything" Zac said stopping her in her tracks. "Then why? Because I didn't ask? I couldn't you weren't down yet. Because I have my assignment done? Why? Zac don't you like me anymore? That's how I feel." Jessy said tears filling her eyes. "No Jessy I love you more every day." Zac said. "If this is love it sucks. For a week now you've treated me differently Zac and I can't take it anymore. I'm walking on eggshells around you afraid I'm going to piss you off. I feel like I can't do anything right anymore at least in your eyes." Jessy said taking off her blades, heading into the house. "Jessy" Zac said taking her arm and Jessy jerked away racing through the house, up the stairs to her room, slamming the door. Everyones eyes were on him. Taylor grabbed Chele who was glaring a hole through him. Zac headed to the office, "Dad you got a minute?" he asked. "Sure Zac what's on your mind?" Walker asked, adding, "It can't be that bad son, what's wrong?" "It's Jessy, I'm losing her. I'm actually pushing her away. I pick on everything she does, what she wears, who she talks to, what she says, everything. It's like I want her to hate me and leave me to get it over with." Zac said. "Get what over Zac?" he asked. "I heard her, laughing and giggling with him on the phone. Telling him she wasn't interested in doing his video. But I know she wants to. I heard her tell Chele how hot he is and he asked her to dance with him." Zac said. "Son I hate to say it but you sound like a snoop. Are you spying on Jessy in her own home? That's what this is her home. Home where you're suppose to be safe, not spied on. Zac what you told me you heard is so inconclusive son. She told her sister she thought a guy was hot and she was proud he asked her to dance, I didn't hear you say she told him yes or that she was interested in him. What you told me is that you heard her tell him she wasn't interested in doing his video. But you know she didn't mean what she said. Zac listening to one end of a phone conversation is a big mistake, how do you know what she was laughing and giggling at, did you ever consider he asked her out and she laughed, did you think to consider he burped and she giggled, that's what she does when you burp, she giggles." Walker asked. "No I didn't think about it that way." Zac said. "Zac you've let this go on a week without telling her. I'm surprised she's still here. she must love you alot to take this abuse from you. That's what it is Zac, you've used her feelings for you so she'd stay and take your emotional abuse. No you didn't raise a hand to her but the abuse is there and it hurts as deeply as if you'd punched her, I've seen it, she's changed from a confident young woman to an insecure child who's fighting crying because she hates cry babies. Zac what have you done. I hope she forgives you. You have to be honest with her son, tell her how you feel and what you've done, and pray she loves you enough to get through this." Walker said hugging him. Zac wiped his eyes, "Thanks Dad. Pray for us?" he said and made his way to her room. He was about to knock when he heard her crying. He quietly opened the door, the beds were empty, he entered closing the door quietly no sign of her, he followed his ears to the closet. Zac slowly opened the door and his heart broke seeing her curled up facing a corner rocking back and forth, crying. "Jessy I'm so sorry. God forgive me for doing this to you. I know you won't believe me but I love you, I love you so much my fear of losing you is making me drive you away. I'm sorry I made you cry, I'm sorry if I hurt you, It's not what I meant to do." Zac said gently placing his arms around her, rocking with her. "Jessy I did a stupid thing. I listened to a conversation you had on the phone with Justin and then I listened to you telling Chele he was hot, and you were so proud he asked you to dance with them, him one on one and I know you told him you weren't interested but something went wrong. It's like I didn't here you tell him no, all I heard was you laughing, giggling, saying he was hot, dancing one on one, over and over in my head. I convinced myself, you didn't love me anymore, that you were leaving me, and I, I attacked you, I picked away at you, what you said, did, ate, wore. God forgive me for it, I can't believe I did this to you, Jessy I love you so much it hurt to think you were leaving me, I took it out on you. I'm sorry, please forgive me. I'll understand if you can't but I pray to God you can find some love left for me. I'm so sorry I couldn't have been more abusive if I had struck you with my fist like I did the garage." Zac said. "Justin Timberlake this is about that asshole, Zac why didn't you tell me before this. This is going to hurt you and I'm sorry but you have to know, I laughed at him he was a total Jerk Zac. He didn't just ask me out, which I laughed at, he proceded to tell me what a great lover he is, which I laughed at. Zac he was a jerk so I laughed at him, not with him like I laugh with you. I giggled because he had the gaul to say it was nervous laughter and I really wanted him, didn't you hear me call him you silly fool when I was giggling. Zac don't cry, I still love you even though you hurt me so. I kept telling myself you loved me and you would tell me what was wrong, and when you didn't I figured it had to be me and you loved me too much to tell me what I was doing wrong. I felt so out of control all week and I, I really thought I was stronger than that but because it was you I crumbled at the thought you didn't love me anymore." Jessy said. "I never stopped loving you, even when I convinced my self to make you hate me, I died a little with every mean word I said. I died a little when I looked in your eyes and saw the pain I put there, but I never stopped loving you Jessy. Can you forgive me something so stupid that caused so much pain." Zac asked as she looked up at him her eyes searching his for that look that had been missing, that special bond, his love for her. They sat there gazing into each other's eyes for an eternity, "Zac kiss me." Jessy asked and he gently pressed his lips to hers, moving slowly loving every inch of her lips, begging for her love once again. He kissed her with more love and passion than she had ever felt and by the time his tongue came seeking hers, Jessy was madly, passionately in love again, so grateful he still loved her. Their tongues danced with desire as Jessy pulled at Zac's shirt. "Jessy as much as I want you right now, I don't deserve your love. I need to earn it again. You may have forgiven me and God has fogiven me, but Jessy I haven't. I still can't believe I purposely hurt you like that. Jessy I think you are the kindest, most beautiful, sensual woman and I treated you terribly and I don't deserve you to love me but I'm so grateful you do. I have to do this for me, I have to earn your love." Zac said. "Then it's important to me that you do it for you." Jessy said hugging him tenderly, "You have school and I am taking a bubble bath, I deserve it." Jessy said and he walked her to the bathroom and headed back to school.
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