Self Pity

i feel so lost now

knowing what i lost
and i now realize

pain was the cost
what had happened to what i had

what had happened to what i knew
noone knew what it was

the truth exposed to a few
i wish i had it back

like so many other days
a second chance to have

what i lost in this maze
it sounds so stupid

to call it love
but that may be why the feeling

is as pure as a dove
i never really knew

what it was i missed
until i missed it all

in a cloud of teary mist
i had what i wanted

there for the taking
and ever since then

a happy life ive been faking
i truly feel gone

knowing what i know
but should i let loose

let it all go
i dont think thats an option

not one id like to make
but i have no choice

is the leaving just fate

am i to feel like this
with a constant emptiness
knowing that its gone
not living to see another dawn

i guess its all over

no point in dwelling on the past
i cant help whats happening

i wish it were to last
but no matter

might as well let it go
and ill make sure

not to let my emotion show
too late for that

ive already cried
and whenever now i think

ill just let a repressed sigh
goodbye for now

the anngel i so desperately sought
and for whom i would die

and would have forever fought