~*written in their eyes*~

        She walked to her dorm room , and through the door. Waiting for that long expected hug that she knew wouldnt be there. She almost could feel a bit of sadness , But it had always been there since he died, She tried to forget but as much as she could it didnt help. He was gone , her first love Killed in a car accident. It almost seemed to her that it would be her last love. She knew he wasnt with her anymore , but she could feel it. Some part of him was still with her and she wouldnt let her self forget it. She just wanted to be held like he usto hold her , tight in his arms like the world was ment for him and her. It was that way when she was with him , Her mind was blocked and the only thing she could think about was him, And If that hug had been there if it were a choice she would embrace it. She missed that romance , The times of so little worry . When the wind blew at the right time so he could hold her closer , when she felt a chill . When The sunset at the right time and everytime it was just for them. It almost felt like yesterday , she could feel the wind through her silky golden hair , and the shimer of the ocean tide reflected off her beautiful blue eyes and there he would be holding her tight , just making it seem like one more star would be bright that night. She always rememberd these past hazes of her memory.She wanted to forget , But she knew part of her wouldnt let it go. Her life was run by these old memories. She smiled andignored her feelings through the sadness , as she put her book bag down and spreed across her bed to let the days load decompress from her shoulders. She thought about kevin , her friend. In all his life with so many girlfriends , did he ever love any of them , did any of them love him at all. It never seemd so , they always used him, and threw him back to the dogs. Kevin had always been her friend , And since her boyfriends death , kevin was her best friend and the only friend she could trust. As she thought of her friend it made her smile for once , in a long time . It felt good to feel something besides hurt. She heard a knock at her door , she slowly and sluggishly went to see who it was. She opend her door , and like a flash of light kevin ran in and slamed the door shut. "Whats wrong kevin , "she seemed worried. " its Nuthing laura . Just some guys , they were picking on some dorky kid , and i told them to stop . well i guess i desirve it though. i shouldnt get into other peoples problums". "Except for that one time , with...." he said not continueing the sentence . Laura began to cry , it was hard for her to remember that side of her departed boyfriend. " Laura why dont you let the people who care most into your life."kevin asked with sadness in his voice . " i do.... well i mean ... its hard you should know you were here the whole time , cant we just not talk about it kevin". Laura began to cry. " laura dont let him get to you like this he was nuthing , hes not worth it even in his death." " kevin explain to me why your here still." ......kevin couldnt think of what to say he just sat there speachless...... he began to talk softly" Laura iv been there for you , through it all with you . we've been friends since we were kids. You were always the happy sweet one filled with joy... And it never hit me , until a few minutes ago... why iv always tried to be there for you . i really never knew why , but i thought about it. i've always .." "what are you trying to say kevin bc this isnt making me feel anybetter." laura blurted out." i love you " he said , the look on lauras face . She was in shock , she ran to the corner of the room , and began crying. He walked over to the corner where she sat , he crouched down and swept the loose hairs away that dangled in her eyes. He just sat there stairing. "laura , im here for you ,but i cant be your friend anymore. i want something more than that... Laura what do you have to lose except me if you dont take this chance". Laura thought about those words , why was he always the carring sweet romantic one , and how could she miss this , how could she not nottice he had this feeling for her. She hated crying in front of him , it made her feel weak and she was always the strong one. She thinks about ... her old boyfriend , Kevin notices her sillence . He knows whats on her mind. " laura He was abusive , he slept around , he was a drunk. dont you remember any of the hurt he caused you.... or do you just remember how he was everyonce and a while when he wasnt drunk. Here ill refresh your memory.... He was always sleeping around , hitting on other girls . You hated it so much but its like he owned you you felt like you couldnt do anything about it . You just tried to stay out of his way.. he would hurt you, and you would say you fell or something landed on you and hit you... you stayed away , but one time you didnt and it almost costed your life. Laura if he wasnt killed that night , he would have killed you. Its his drinking that lead him to it..." he said worried as he rememberd the past himself. " kevin leave me alone " she said with a shake in her voice as she bursted out of the room in tears. She ran down the hall way. she slowly came to a hult and dried her eyes. She looked around , She hadent been down this part of the hallway since it happend....

~in her perspective , as she remembers the past and the sadness it brings with it~

She had walked down this coridor many times but that night was the last time....
It was night and everyone seemed to be in bed , She was walking her boyfriend brad to his room , he was loaded and he wouldnt make it to his room by himself. He stumbled down the hall way with a wisky bottle in his hand. She told him he should to to bed once they got to his dorm room, but he refused." Your acting like an idiot , stop being childish.Your drinking isnt helping you any if your gonna keep doing this when were together, i cant be with you. Your crazy and its sick".Laura said in a strong tone of voice. Brad grabed her neck with his quick reflexes , and pushed her against the wall . He chocked her calling her names , screaming out insanitys as his grip around her neck grew tighter. He began to kiss her slobering all over her , He removed his hand off her neck and grabed her arm pinning it to the wall.He tried to un zip his pants. She began shaking. His hand slowly lifted up her skirt , as he tried pulling her underwear down. Laura unhesitently kicked him in the balls and got away running. Brad stumbled to his feet chassing her. He grabed her by her hair then by her shoulders. He slamed her against the wall knocking her to the ground. She began screaming , as tears salty tears dribbled down her cheek and gatherd at her chin droping to the floor. He grabed her jaw , telling her not to say another word or she was dead. She bit his thumb in refusal. Brad slapped her with his furry , as it echoed down the hall. Kevin came running around the corner , he heard her scream.Kevin knocked brad to the round , rushing over to laura " are you ok , do you think you can walk?". kevin asked , Laura shook her head, no. Kevin put his arms under her lifting her up to his chest. Kevin took laura in his arms and walked away. As brad cursed" yeah laura you go with him you whore, but i'll see you tonight." "bitch" as he mumbled. Kevin just kept walking , he took her to her dorm and layed her on her bed softly, kissing her forhead."i'll stay with you tonight if you like." he said . "No, kevin im sure i'll be fine, Thank you so much" laura said sleepily.

She could remember it all , she rememberd Brad died that night , and if kevin hadent been there brad would have rapped her and god knows what else. Kevin was right , he was always right. He was just looking out for Laura. If brad had lived Laura would have died.She turned around and walked back to her room , as kevin sat there on her bed.She walked in slowly with her head facing the floor. " Kevin , i dont know why..." she said as she sat on her bed next to kevin " But , i love you." She began to cry, kevin put his arms around her pulling her twards his chest. She rested her head on his shoulder, crying. He rubed her back softly , telling her not to cry. She looked up at him slowly , as her last tear ran down her face off her chin. She locked eyes with kevin , His eyes always looked so soft . She could read his eyes like a novel , and it was a story of heart break and sadness. Just like the story he saw in her eyes. But her eyes could tell the story of fear , and its creation. Kevin leaned down slowly... and kissed her lips . Laura pulled away for a minute to contemplate , was this what she wanted. She looked into his eyes , and slowly lifted her arms reaching them around his neck . She leaned forward. Her lips touched his . His lips felt like silk against hers as they kissed. It was almost like they were the creaters of passion , and this was its kiss. She slowly stoped her eyes still closed. This was like her birth , she could forget about the past , except ... Were her visions of the beach and the breeze ... well did they really happen or were they a day dream. She thought to her self as she looked at kevin.

~ the next day~

The wind blew through her long wavy gold hair , The ocean twinkled off her eyes. She loved the sound of the crashing waves , and the feel of the wind. A chill ran through her from the wind. The visions she had of the beach , it wasnt a dream . Nore was it the past, It was the present. She smilled at him With love in her eyes. That was it she now knew the past was sureal , to her knowledge it didnt exist. This  ,now was her first love , Kevin slowly put his arms arouind her holding her close as the sun set on the beach , and it set just for them. The stars slowly set across the dark sky , and every star was a symbol for new hope  and all that hope started from a kiss. The one word she knew well , and she could say was , kevin.