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Poems

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Why ?

If I'm not allowed to love you -why
-at all- then did we have to meet ?
If I may not reach out and touch you -
why should your nearness be so sweet ?

If loving you means doing a sin -
why are you then so easy to love ?
If this feeling wasn't meant to win -
why did it start, to end up as love ?

If we're not meant for each other -
why does it feel as if we are one ?
If love means apart from one another -
why do I seem to die on my own ?

"When I wanted sunshine, I got rain."

         She was the best surprise of my life.
    I never believed in castles and dreams...
                          Until Her. 
      I finally believed in "Happily ever after".
           I never saw a perfect sunset
                until I saw one with her. 
             Her smile filled my days and
                her love filled my nights
                   with endless wonder.

LOVE

Love is more than a four letter word.
It's more than what most would say.
Love is caring and love is kind.
Love is patience and friendship, it's true.
but love has a deeper degree.
Love is a feeling. It's gentle and fragile
and giving all things a chance.
It's courage to believe and never give up.
It's wanting to share in others happiness
and strength when things get rough.
Love is getting hurt and still having faith.
With love you can never go wrong.
Love is your heartache and understanding the connection.
Love is the dying rose in the vase
and the sorrow you feel inside.
Love is emptiness that overwhelmes you when a loved one dies.
Your every breath is love

                  My Mistake
           
You were my sensation.
              I'm your friend not rival.
             From paradise to survival.
               As you twist the knife...
           Trying to build that new life...
            Ever slept while you cried?
             Walk though you've died?
    While you smiled and put on that show
        I was the one that loved you so.
    When you were down, I helped you out.
                   Now I'm the one
            and you're nowhere about.
              You are cold but I feel
           the rest for you is so unreal.

Love..LOve..LOVe..LOVE

Love is harder to hold on to than simply to find
Before you say something you must think
To stay in love you must use your mind
If you don't it will eventually sink

Love should be forever
Although sad but true
Sometimes people don't stay together
I'll always want to be with you

Forever is what we say
Always together I belive
Never again to stray
Infinity we'll achive

For Those Who Believe

You say you don't understand my love for you,
or how I can love you as much as I say I do.
And I wish I could explain it myself...
but I can't...
It would be easier to try and explain the suns heat...
the stars shine...
or the colors of in a rainbow to a mere child...
All I can say is that I do. 
I love you with a love that I can only describe
as that of a love being as pure,
as that of the spirit of the angels... 
And I never realized the love
I had for you until it was to late...
I know I never let it show...
I know I never said it like I should have, and I'm sorry...
It's a mistake I will have to live with for the rest of my life...
But I'm telling you now, "I Love You!"
I love you with a love unlike anyone has ever felt before or ever will...
For I love you with all the love that GOD himself forged into my very soul...
But for all my love..
for all my passion...
for all my trying...
it matters not...
It doesn't even matter that you love me like you say you do. 
For it's his arms that will hold you close at night...
Its his lips that will kiss you...
And it's his, I love you that will be whispered in your ear...
Explain my love for you? 
Those who believe in GOD...
have felt his touch...
No explanation is necessary...
For those who do not believe...
have never felt his touch...
No explanation is possible...
Yet all my love matters not. 
For the sound of your dreams coming true...
are nothing but the sound of mine being shattered.
Yet every shattered piece...
every tear...
will forever say I LOVE YOU!

Once upon a time

Mother I'm tired
come surrender my son
time has ravaged on my soul
no plans to leave but still I go
Fallin' with the leaves
fallin' out of sleep
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?
Mother I've tried
wasting my life
I haven't given up, I lie
to make you so proud in my eyes
Fallin' out of sleep
crawlin' over me
to the last goodbyes
who cares why?
Tuesdays come and gone
restless i still drive
try to leave it all behind
fallin', fallin' out of sleep
fallin', fallin' with the leaves
I go crawlin', crawlin' over me
Once upon a time in my life...
I went falling...
Mother I hope you know
that I miss you so
time has ravaged on my soul
to wipe a mothers tears grown cold

Crestfallen

who am I to need you when I'm down
where are you when I need you around
your life is not your own
and all I ask you
is for another chance
another way around you
to live by circumstance, once again
who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
and you may go, but I know you won't leave
too many years built into memories
your life is not your own
who am I to need you now
to ask you why to tell you no
to deserve your love and sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me
who am I to you?
along the way
I lost my faith
and as you were, you'll be again
to mold like clay, to break like dirt
to tear me up in your sympathy
you were never meant to belong to me

who am I?

Beautiful

beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come
and i can't help but feel attached
to the feelings i can't even match
with my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you
beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I
and i'm sure you know me well, as i'm sure you don't
but you just can't tell
who'll you love and who you won't
and i love you, as you love me
so let the clouds roll by your face
we'll let the world spin on to another place
we'll climb the tallest tree above it all
to look down on you and me and them
and i'm sure you know me well, as i'm sure you don't
but you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't
don't let your life wrap up around you
don't forget to call, whenever
i'll be here just waiting for you
i'll be under your stars forever
neither here nor there just right beside you
i'll be under the stairs forever
neither here nor there just right beside you

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