i see the world now through blurry eyes
i have no reason to keep them open
for what i see just makes me sick
everything i hear in my ears
is pessimistic
especially if i'm saying it
i dont want to listen to the thoughts and words of others
because they make me feel miniscule
to feel is to hurt
my body aches for many reasons
i wish to not feel at all
happiness is uncalled for in my small sheltered world
all i want is love
but that love will forever not be understood by anyone
but me