Thank you all for the messages. I cannot answer n any of them. I am sorry.I don't have the time or the energy and frankly, I can't dwell on Nirvana.I can't spill my guts. It's too personal and again, I can't dwell on it. Iguess I'm the little bass player who can't. Chugga, chugga, choo, choo.Wow that was a rush. I'm embarassed! There is too much pain. I'm over the daily "grief waves" but still go through feelings of confusion, anger, regrets,missing him and alot of times a feeling of beautiful loving feelings for myfriend. Fuck this is enough. Next time I'll upload so my software can tell me when i am repeating words too often. It's late and I'm kinda tired. Nothing matters anymore anyway. The christians are going to baptise us before we're marched up to the wall. I'm talking about the mid term elections. When the Christian coalition comes a knocken, both house's are gonna have toheed. If that's the case, God help us all! (sic) True Christains want to emulate Jesus. You know, to be right on and not judge, be forgiving bring wine to weddings and have long hair and a beard. The suede denim secret police are gonna get me for that one, fer sure. Wow,by the way I've been rambling, you'd think that I was Courtney or some thing.I could never match that prose though, shre(Whoops) she should get her degree. So many people are gonna read this because Krist Novoselic wrote it but let me tell you this, I am a man of the proletariat! This is quite a boast comming from my tax bracket. Remember, socialism is an ethic not an ideology! I write this under the gase of an actual portrait, not a print, of Lenin. I scored this at the Pike Place Market and it came from some soviet bureau in Vladivostok. Newt Gingrich has his St Paul I have no one. You don't think that I'm some le bolshevik. Who needs Lenin when you have Mao? I'm gonnastart a shining path sattelite up here in the northwest. I want a Satellite with a 383 and a four speed pistol grip shifter. Super Bee. Coronet. Charger. The whole of this silly rant is that I really don't have much to say, right now. Sure if I were to be in the seat next to you on a plane and we struckup a conversation, we'd pass the time by discussing the topics of the day or what ever. I cannot answer Nirvana questions. The mail I got was sweet and I apreaciate it by hey, as the Flav says, "Can't do nothing for you man!" To be truthful, I'll read your messages but won't reply. Who am I any way. I'm the guy next in line at Safeway. I'm the person in the left lane of trafficwho gets uptight when people won't get over. I was in an e imencly popularrock band. Did I spell immense right? What ever. I understand the power ofmusic so i understand you all. Sometimes I can't understand jack asses whotalk shit about dear old Kurt but as a true democrat,NO party affiliation,I'll respect the fact that they have a right to thier opinion, no matter howshallow and misinformed it is. We need more respect in this world. Remember that the music biz and the rock press have a symbiotic relationship. Remember that Nirvana was about music, first and foremost. Remeber Leon Trotsky. THe Fugs, "Dirty Old Man". Remember not to e mail me. I will not answer. You are all good. good bye and god blesss! Just remember: it's YOUR real time and YOUR real life.