Here we go again...Back to the writing board!

 

Some of you might get excited about that previous statement, but I tell you, every word I haven't put on here has gone through my head at some point or another...call it laziness if you will then, because I haven't updated this in a while.

 

For those of you who enjoy the essays, the fiction, the anecdotes, well here's a fix...

Will you haunt me forever? Like that “To-do” list you put on the fridge door, hoping to mow the lawn, fix the garage door and go to the bank on Wednesday? Is it just all non sense? This is my attempt to find out.

I tend to pay attention...well ok I don’t. But at least I TRY to pay attention at random, even if I'm not that successful. I feel like I’m juggling 10 balls at the circus, everything is so connected, if one falls all fails. Every thing depending on the details. Circumstance. It doesn’t feel like it’s all just happening, it feels like destiny. My buttons have been pushed, and I’m ready to go, yet it’s just not so simple. I have to wait for other things to happen first.

It’s like playing a video game and wanting to get to level 5 before going through levels 1 to 4. It’s impossible right? We just got to sit this one out. It’s rather sad if you ask me, but i didn't make the rules, I just try and break ‘em.

It’s a mixture of things: hope, chance, luck, destiny...it all collides, I don’t think it’s either chance or fate...I think it’s both. You got to be a little lucky to come across what’s destined for you. I believe in windows of opportunity. You see one open, and then you got to pray you have the courage to jump in. But never go empty handed. Always bring your weapons, your mind...so once you’re in, you can defend yourself and capitalize on the good things to come. (It doesn’t sound like me I know)

People don't change, but they CAN modify their behavior. I often speak of being open minded, but you also need to be positive in your head and heart.

Too new agey for you? Then just wait it out, you might get what you’re wishing for...