The rain poured down harder than it had all night. Drops of cool water dripped off my sweaty forehead. My shirt clung to my body as the intense shower penetrated my clothing. But it was a good feeling; the water embraced me like a soft woman.

I couldn't help but replay the scene in my head. I tried to tell myself that I had only been seeing things, hallucinating perhaps, but the brisk wind reminded me that what I had seen was real. If I only hadn't been there at that time, if I was only a few minutes late.

Now all I could do was walk and hope my sanity would remain. Moments of rage raced off, only to be followed by feelings of guilt and emptiness. I had never been so alone as I had been at that point, My only two companions left were darkness and sorrow.

I stopped to sit on a swing in the park. The chorus of the falling rain drowned out the squeaking noise the swing's chains made as I gently rocked back and forth. I started to cry as I remembered the time she and I had been on these very swings, holding hands and staring into each other's eyes.

My stomach was too agitated to swing any longer, so I exited to swing and walked to a dark area of the park. I laid on my back in the wet grass and stared up at the empty black sky. The storm robbed the heavens of any light; only darkness existed.

Then the darkness acted as a canvas for my memory. I began to see visions of places I've been, things I've done, and old friends long forgotten. Then I began see her face. It was beautiful. She was gently smiling. I tried to touch it but it disappeared as quickly as it appeared.

Tears rolled down my face once again. I knew my time had come. There was no way I could erase the pain. I rose to my feet and walked over to a water fountain next to the pavilion. After I arrived to the bubbler, I pulled out a small Tylenol bottle and poured the two small pills into my hand.

I looked up to the sky once more. I felt ashamed at what I was doing, but there was no other way out. Without giving it another thought, I quickly tossed the pills in my mouth and swallowed. The pills stuck in my throat a bit so I sipped some water from the water fountain.

Once again I laid down on the muddy grass. My vision started to darken, and then I began to lose my hearing as well. Just as I thought I was dead, an angel came down from the darkness. She picked me up and wiped the mud out of my eyes.

Her warm smile converted me. She began to rock me gently in her arms, and then we both began to rise to the heavens. As we rose she whispered into my ear "Don't worry my little one. They can't hurt you anymore, no matter how much they try."