DD - Matt McElyea

Black

As I fall...I look....for todays destination
Where...will the remains of my soul ...be scattered today?
I laugh...for there is nothing left to do..
Long ago...I gave in.......
No longer can i fight..for I cannot bear....
No Strength...No Hope...
As I lie to my loved ones...to give them some light for tomorrow..
As they wait for that day...because they trust me...
As I crawled...looking for that glimmer of light....
That reaching hand...to pull me up...
To hold on to....as the night consumes my every breath....
I have cast many a coin into the Wishing Well...
Only to have all thrown back at me...
A cruel joke...this life
And who is laughing........?
I go inside myself..to look for the mark..that I surely bear.....
Attempting to cleanse my soul.........
Yet....it only bleeds....
Black.....As my heart has turned...
A mask of false contentment....so ill worn...by me
Yet still...I attempt to fool...myself
I am not me......
I am not this curse..that should not be....
As the Spiders of my soul whisper...that I am once again.... wrong...
My soul weeps.......
As tears of black Blood roll down.......inside
Listless...
Lifeless.....
Loveless.......
This..My Hell....
Is where I have been...
Where I will be again.....
And where I will Remain......