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| spill one Just the regular pics of me. But anyways. Want to know about me? Well you can't answer right now so i'll just take it as a yes. I have a really great life. I luv mi parents to death even though I can't always get what I want, and I don't love, but I like someone very sweet and special. I'll refer to him as Mr.007 because I wouldn't like to give out his name. I don't know him that well but that for some reason does not change my mind about him or anything he does. Love is blind but I can see right through this to him. He is the nicest person in the world. In a way I do luv him because he is my friend. He has a band, but I haven't heard them yet. I hope he does not see this page but soon he may. Why am I spilling this? Well there's only one way to put it. I am hurt and jelous. Hurt because he has a gurl he luvs and jelous because she has him. I truly have nothing against her. She is the luckiest person alive. He lives pretty close to me; In a town next to mine; In the same school district. He's an angel and a gift to my life. He has tought me overnight how to love myself and thank him deeply for that. Well there's the big spill. Thanks for listening. |
| spill two Here's my second spill of the year. I leave them up a while to get replys. Well, about August of this year I met a guy, I won't give out his name so i'll just call him Mr.008. He's the sweetest most polite guy I have ever met. He is a dancer and had to fill in for my ballet teacher who was on the road doing a play of somesort. He's kinda cute but not ga-ga cute. He's perfect to me. I have known him now for 3 to 4 months. That is such a short time to learn to really like someone but he has tought me so much about life and how to be the best dancer I can be. He is priceless for what he has done. He has a very unique taste in music I must say, and I love it. There's this other girl that has known him longer and likes him as well as me. She says there is no competition when it comes to me, but she has the worst attitude about everything. If there's one thing I don't have it's a bad attitude, and I have heart, and that's something she will never learn how to get and will never get. If an old man was crossing the road she'd trip him, if there was someone different than her, she'd stare. Well there's the spill I hope you enjoyed it. I enjoy my life so much. Live life like there's no tomarrow, show the world who you are, and share you life, your life's thought's, and your life's memories. |
| spill three It's about time," you say for another spill. This is my third spill ever, but my first of the year 2001! I can think of no other spill to spill for the first one, than this. I met another guy. Yes another guy, but he's not like others. He is better than them. There are so many people in the world with his name so i'll just say it this time. Mike. Wow that name sounds like an angels name to my ears. He's so kind, sweet, and just plain close to perfect. I love the way he laughs, gosh you have no idea, I just love it... and I love the way we get into these yes I am, no youre not, yes I am, no youre not, fights. He's great and I usually don't belive in fate but I don't know what to call what we have. Mike is very good at philosophy. Is the cup half empty or half full, is it love or lust, you know? He is incredible. When I have a bad day he just turns my frown upside down. Gosh... there is really no word to describe him... there is no word you can say to really describe anybody completely, because it is just your own opinion, not the total opinion. I never knew I could like someone so much untill now. Untill now did I know what to like somebody really feels like. Mike is my very good friend... I like Mike for Mike, not just because of one thing, but because he's everything.g. |
| spill four My life has so much more meaning now than I think it ever has. I have so much to live for now. Dance, my parents, my best guy friend Jeremy, my brother, whom I am getting along with now more than ever, and my life. I have college coming up in only three years. It's going to fly by so fast. Jeremy I am going to drag your ass down to the Fall Out concert this comming August! hehehe. I am just so happy that new people, one in particular, have come into my life. I have decided to play in the orchestra next year, hopfully we won't play "Pilladio" for the 100th time ever! There is so much in my life that I love. I am starting to accept myself for who I really am. A very special person has thought me that it is not the outside that matters, but the inside. There is a quote, "La Beaute' est dans l'oeil du beholder," or better yet, "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder." if you don't know what it means, I don't mean to be rude, but you figure it out. I didn't know what it meant when my best friend told me, but I soon found out. He showed me what it meant, and the quote I will never forget, just like it's meaning, and him. Le amo Jeremy, siempre y por siempre quien sabe, quiza' algun dia... |
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| spill five am such a looser. Honestly... I am a total and complete bitch, whore, slut, anything you want to call it. You guys have any better names, you may e-mail them to me and i'll make sure to put it on here. I have done something really wrong. I won't tell you what it is because I am too ashamed to say it. I betrayed my best friend, and the person he loves. Courtney, if you ever see this page, I am sorry. I am so sorry, dear god, I am the most conceded bitch in the world. I never meant to hurt him, or you. My life willl never be the same. I'm feeling like the world doesn't need me anymore. That nothing in life matters, not even my own life. I just want to die, curl up in a ball and then let everyone forget about me. Jeremy, if you ever read this, I am sorry, dear god I am sorry. I am a bitch for doing that, it was all my fault. My life was turning all around, or so I thought. Then it just went flat. I know it might take months, even over a year for me to heal, but I think I will be alright. I am alittle confused about life right now. I wish my best friend Katie was home. I have left about 4 or 5 messages on her answering machine. I know she is at the beach, but I still call her. I woke up this morning, and the first thing I thought about was what I had done. I am still pinching myself to try and wake up. Maybe I need to stop pinching myself, and just face reality... I can't even do that... I just want what happened to all go away and for everything to be the same again. |
| spill six Hickeys, back to school, dance, friends, learing how to drive. Highness off of talking on the phone. Laughing constantly for no reason, and leaving Dr. Pepper on the sidewalk. Tired, have to keep going, have to keep thinking that there's still tomarrow, that there is maybe a slight chance. Why is it always about her, always about her. When updating, it's always about her. Never, "I met this really awesome friend." or any shit like that, not that it pisses me off but it's really not fair. Never get my chance, it seems like I can never stay mutual, or have a mutual chance, friendship, or relationship. I should have met him earlier, I should be her, I should be that person! It makes me feel better to know though that it won't happen anytime soon, that question has a while till it is asked. If I leave here tomarrow. Would you still remember me. Never forget me, we are always friends. Trends, no friends... damn skippy hippy you are. Fangs that bite deep into the skin leave marks. But a light bite leaves extacy. I have had them both, deep, hard, strong, and rough. So much to live for, so much to give. Give to everyone. I have to live, have to keep going. For him, for him, him... that person. That person who I know and don't know. But I know, because we are friends best. Best friends. He is mine, my friend that is best. My best friend. |