Beyond that are the moral, health, monetary, guilt, lust,
intellectual, aesthetic, time, physical discomfort,
laziness, self-consciousness, social taboo, and other assorted
fears and considerations.
So what I really want gets lost among the other parameters. It
seems like it should be easy to strip things down mentally
to bare desire. Know thyself. Ha! As a child, I found the
coin toss a very useful tool. When the result was in- heads
or tails- it was often easy to gauge my reaction, to feel
disappointment or relief, like the resulting action had
already been taken. I didn't actually let the toss decide.
But it was a further step beyond the mere theoretical. Then
I could generally make the best feeling choice. Sometimes I
forget that simple method of clearing my mental cobwebs or
pulling back those curtains of complications.