Literature.84.5165: Tom Coleman (tomcoleman) Mon, 01 Feb 1999 06:36:34 CST (18 lines)

It seems all of my life I have been pretending. When I was a child, I
pretended I was going to grow up and make a big difference in the
world. That I was gonna be somebody. That I was smart and original and
would have an impact. When I took a job with the Department of
Defense, I pretended I was only using them for a few years to get the
training I could use "on the outside" to get a good job. When I met
that woman in Columbus, we both pretended we weren't using each other
as temporary crutches to get us past certain problems in our life,
that we really did have that certain something in our relationship
that would make it work. When I moved to Phildelphia, we pretended
that it would be as she had said- a few years here for her to return
to her roots, or something. Then a few years in Minnesota for me to do
the same. That it wasn't groping for a solution. Then we pretended
that children would fix our marriage. Twice we deluded ourselves that
way.
And here we are, 14 years later. On the verge of divorce.

What am I pretending now?

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