Infected Paradox of The Mind - September 11th - 12th, 2000
crying crimson
absorbing mercury
shattered picture frame
burning faces
bubble, char, explode
I destroyed myself
he killed me
rope marks tightened into child's neck
old scars pop open
revealing my weakness
suctioned love from my brain
locked away in the toy chest
he destroyed himself
I killed him
frightened children run away
drug filled brains
psychadelic reality melting solid
essence confused, perspective inverted
I was in my head
backwards, looking inside-out
I was hiding in a corner
when father came home
violent, drunk, horny
possessed shell abusing his love
screaming his smile across the room
the beginning is the end
said daddy to me
lock your door, to keep me in
imprisoned emotion, torture and rape
he was hiding in his corner
when I came home
entertained
the noise began
soothing wails, relaxing pain
building the wall, trying to fall
creatures crawl
I lie to them all
and still they love him
banging on the door
tear down this wall!
stop him! don't let him!
he's filling the empty spaces!
he's going to kill us!
he lies to them all
and still they love me
heart beating behind those cold eyes
chaos reigns supreme inside my brain
he's locked in his cell now
look at him weep
I struck the bars with my fists
but he always persists
biting his nails
locking the trapdoor
shivering, sweating
finally contained the monster
he struck the bars with his fists
but I always persist
pumping, fueling, living
virus infected, breeding tissue
flowing midnight
eyes undead
body screams hate
master lost his mind
shut me away, I hated him
lost in the darkness, he cries
banging his heart against the wall
weeds between the bricks
dissociating his soul
electric pulsing in his eyes
clone murdered, binded
forever trapped
shut myself away, he hated me
lost in the darkness, I cry
